I guess you may not be interested in learning, but are more interested in extracurricular activities such as internet and sports. A variety of extracurricular common sense is abundant, but under the pressure of study, of course, there are also pressures from parents and teachers, fears brought by the unknown, fears brought by the uncertainty of life value and other emotions intertwined, so you suppress yourself.
Junior high school students are still in early adolescence. At this time, you should tell me that you have firm beliefs and ideals. I don't believe it. I will laugh.
I should not be as good as you in junior high school, but I was also confused. I was confused until the end of college, and I suddenly felt it after working for many years.
When I am confused, I am agitated, I fall, I give up, and even consider and practice self-termination.
But more often, I try to find a guiding light from thousands of years of human wisdom. When I was in junior high school, I read all the history books in my hand several times and thought about the value and significance of life in the deeds of my ancestors.
I started reading ancient books in high school, four books and five classics of Confucianism in grade one, Laozi and Zhuangzi of Taoism in grade two, and the original Buddhist scriptures in grade three.
Universities should read more books on western philosophy.
On the other hand, if you want to study in thousands of books, you have to take Wan Li Road. Before I graduated from college, I had been to dozens of cities and villages in more than ten provinces and made social research in various ways, but I was still confused, so do you think your confusion is normal? Should we study and practice harder in order not to be confused?
As an excellent young man like you, only junior high school students can know that Baidu has mixed up to level 5, and the answers in many fields have been recognized and adopted by netizens, which is already very good. Keep going!
There is a book, The Other Man, written by an English existentialist. Do you want to read it? What I remember most in the book is that people who can be confused in adolescence are all excellent people, and they will eventually become excellent because of confusion.
Hand experience, I hope to have some reference.
Good luck!