This year, the new talent is 48 years old.
However, in the eyes of future generations, Xin was lucky, because, with the help of her husband and playwright Wu Zuguang, she even changed from an artist to a writer and painter. Later, she not only left countless classic paintings, but also left more than 4 million words of works for future generations.
Therefore, in the secular eyes, the disability after that serious illness is the beginning of a new rebirth.
However, these are always only recognized by the world, and the new real road to rebirth is far from as easy as the secular thought.
At first, when it was determined that her left hemiplegia would never recover, New Xia Feng almost collapsed.
"Hemiplegia" is an unbearable blow to ordinary people, and it is even more fatal to a woman living on the stage.
In that special revolutionary period, the New Xia Feng family not only moved out of the original big quadrangle, but also moved into the Xiaoyanglou. This residence is not only small, but also has to climb stairs up and down. This means that most of the time, Xin's activity space after illness and paralysis is extremely small.
In the early days, the small house in her new home was almost a prison for her.
In the memory of Wu Zuguang and her new second son, Wu Huan, when her mother was paralyzed, she had a particularly bad temper. For a while, she even fell at the sight of something. He said frankly:
During that time, Xin was very sad, and anything could be a great stimulus to her: the opera pictures on TV, the beautiful image of her past in the photos … all of these could be a stimulus to her at any time.
During that time, New Xia Feng tore up many photos of the past. Because of the inflexibility of her left hand, she often "tore up" photos with her teeth and right hand.
Facing his wife's bad situation, Wu Zuguang felt extremely distressed. In order to get her out of the haze as soon as possible, he not only has to endure her various tempers, but also constantly "clears" things in life that may trigger her emotions.
Soon, when he went home again, Wu Huan found that the house was getting empty. The TV set moved away, and the photos of my mother's performance of Pingju, which used to be hung everywhere at home, were hidden, and even those works of art were put away.
After packing things that might "detonate" his wife, Wu Zuguang tried to tidy up a balcony in a hurry. He knows that the balcony is the best way for his wife to see the outside world. So, after cleaning up properly, she pushed her wife's wheelchair to the balcony as soon as she was free and showed her the blue sky and white clouds.
But even though he tried everything, his wife was extremely depressed. She even often cries in front of the mirror. At first, Wu Zuguang thought it was caused by the inconvenience of his wife's left hand. Later, she found that even if someone helped her, she would cry every time she dressed.
During that time, the new Xia Feng was always dissatisfied with herself in the mirror. After numerous observations, Wu Zuguang realized that she was always in a good mood when dressing up. It turned out that she was depressed, so she felt that it was wrong to wear clothes.
At that time, all kinds of new Xia Feng were roughly as the ancient poem said: "This place is a dressing table, and there can be no sorrow." Yes, how can a depressed person be satisfied with his gfd!
Seeing his wife like this, Wu Zuguang, who never gave up, thought of a way to ask a friend to accompany him to relieve his depression.
So, he specially called her friends to accompany her, but unexpectedly, their arrival only increased her excitement. Later, New Xia Feng simply disappeared, so that even those actor friends who survived the robbery, such as Zhao Dan, Zhang Ruifang and Bai Yang, made a special trip to see her, and she resolutely closed the door and disappeared.
What a hospitable person New Xia Feng used to be! During the Republic of China, she often entertained relatives and friends in the yard with her husband. Celebrities such as Guo Moruo, Cao Yu, Qi Baishi, Ye, Lao She and Shen Congwen are frequent visitors to this quadrangle.
An artist who loves his past life, New Xia Feng. At that time, their quadrangles were always tastefully decorated. When guests enter their yard, they can see all kinds of flowers, trees and potted plants, such as phoenix tree, begonia tree and lilac tree.
In short, at that time, flowers could be smelled in their yard all year round.
Occasionally, there are many guests at home, and everyone has a good chat. Xin will also sing a few words of "Pingju" to everyone casually.
The dramatist said, "The real tragedy is to tear up beauty for people to see." This statement was completely fulfilled after the paralysis of New Xia Feng: Vietnam was a tragedy later. Slowly, those beautiful past events became Xin's evil thoughts. As long as she thinks of the past, she will have a headache and mutter to herself in severe cases.
Aware of the seriousness of the situation, Wu Zuguang began to take his wife's emotional and psychological counseling as his most important task at this stage. During this time, he not only consulted many psychological books, but also consulted many friends who suffered setbacks and went out.
In the end, Wu Zuguang determined one thing: if he wants his wife to get out of the shadow of pain and walk into the sunshine again, he must pay as much attention to the beautiful things as possible; At the same time, she must learn to "minimize" pain and suffering.
Understand this layer, Wu Zuguang immediately happy: Isn't this painting and writing?
Wu Zuguang believes that painting is to discover and create beauty with a brush. Isn't that to pay attention to beauty? And writing, actively combing writing, is not to "minimize" pain and suffering.
With this great discovery, Wu Zuguang made a plan of "calligraphy and painting therapy" for his wife. The first step of this plan is to arrange a painting and calligraphy room for his wife.
Soon, Wu Zuguang built an elegant little book studio for his wife. This painting and calligraphy room has a modest desk with pens, ink, inkstones and palette on it. There are also two small bookcases around the painting and calligraphy room, with some books and paintings on them.
After all the arrangements were made, Wu Zuguang solemnly pushed his wife into the painting and calligraphy room and said to her, "This is your painting and calligraphy room in the future. Haven't you ever learned to draw? Here, in the future, it will be a place where you can enjoy yourself. "
After listening to her husband, Xin suddenly became happy. Wu Zuguang noticed that after entering the painting and calligraphy room, New Xia Feng's eyes lit up. She touched the pen and paper and turned over the books, just like a child entering a new world. This made him vaguely feel that his approach was "symptomatic."
On the day she was pushed into the calligraphy room, Xin copied a painting with her husband's encouragement. After choosing it, he chose a flower-and-bird painting of Qi Baishi to describe it. When her husband asked her why she chose this painting, she paused and said, "I just feel comfortable looking at this flower and bird today."
Wu Zuguang's eyes lit up instantly after the word "extraordinarily comfortable" in New Xia Feng landed. He hasn't heard his wife say these beautiful words for a long time, but they were often said before she was paralyzed. He looked at his wife and said to her affectionately, "In my opinion, flowers and birds are beautiful, but not as beautiful as people!" " "
At the sight of her husband's witticism, New Xia Feng felt a little embarrassed. Without looking at her husband, she said, "The beauty of flowers and birds in this painting is invisible to the naked eye."
Hearing this, Wu Zuguang got excited. He quickly took the opportunity to urge his wife to draw a "beauty invisible to the naked eye" for him to see.
In this way, Xin Xiafeng picked up the brush again.
When she painted flowers and birds that time, when New Xia Feng focused all her attention on how to copy those beautiful and lovely flowers and birds, she found that her recent resentment disappeared inexplicably. This is also the first time she has experienced such a long time of light comfort.
After copying, Wu Zuguang said happily, "You are a disciple of Qi Baishi. This painter is really unusual!"
I am very happy to hear her husband's praise when I am not sure about my painting. But after all, she can draw, and naturally knows that her husband's praise is somewhat "love me, love my dog". Therefore, she quickly said, "A few strokes are too heavy. Think about them before writing next time."
Wu Zuguang followed his wife's instructions, and then echoed: "It seems that these pens are relatively heavy, and we also pay attention to the weight of writing. It seems that calligraphy and painting are really a family! " Say that finish, Wu Zuguang picked up a pen and wrote "rejuvenation" in the middle of the blank at the top of the painting. After writing this word, he wrote "New Xia Feng paints Wu Zuguang" in the upper left corner of the painting.
It's really weird. After Wu Zuguang wrote an inscription on the painting, the level of painting instantly improved. New Xia Feng said happily, "Zuguang, your handwriting is really beautiful. Now, this painting looks really comfortable. "
Wu Zuguang saw his wife with a happy face, and she also smiled. After they stared at the picture for a long time, Wu Zuguang put his hand on his wife's shoulder and looked at her. "At that time, I will carve a seal for you. After each painting, I will give you an inscription and you will cover it. "
Although New Xia Feng studied painting, she never had her own seal. After hearing what her husband said, she suddenly became interested, but after a while, she seemed to remember something and was silent again. Wu Zuguang saw it and asked urgently, "What's the matter?" New Xia Feng looked up shyly and asked, "Zuguang, is this painting really good?"
When Wu Zuguang heard this, he realized that he must have boasted too much. Besides, when he talked about carving seals, he frightened her. So he cleared his throat and said, "Don't forget, there is no second place for Wen Hewu! Therefore, Wen, it is good to speak your mind and your true feelings. Others don't have to be entangled. "
The clever Xin immediately breathed a sigh of relief after hearing this.
Wu Zuguang's initial treatment of his wife was a combination of calligraphy and painting, so after his wife picked up the brush again, he naturally made great efforts in writing. In the new mind, writing has always been the job of a person with a high level of education. Because of primary school drama, she knows nothing about writing.
In this case, it's obviously not an easy task to get his wife to try writing.
However, Wu Zuguang knows that this plan must be combined with writing, because the hardships suffered by his wife in recent years, including decentralization, criticism, oppression and paralysis after a serious illness, need to be further sorted out in words before they can really "recover".
Therefore, for Wu Zuguang at that time, if he wanted to get his wife out of the haze completely, he had to guide her to do real writing.
The so-called "God helps those who help themselves", one day, when Wu Zuguang came back from outside, he found his wife eating a Xinhua dictionary, with an open book and a pen beside her. Wu Zuguang came in and saw his wife trying to keep a diary.
After seeing some crooked fat words in the diary, Wu Zuguang couldn't help laughing. But he knew that his wife needed encouragement at this time, so he quickly put away his smile and solemnly picked up his wife's diary and read it. After reading it, he boasted with some "unconscionability": "Great, great. Your writing style is beautiful in Shen Congwen's words. It reads catchy. "
As he spoke, he actually read out what was written in his new diary.
Seeing her husband reading his diary like a masterpiece, his new face turned red. She snatched it from her husband before he finished reading it. Wu Zuguang saw it but said disapprovingly, "Things are written for people to see. I'm going to recommend your work to magazines and publishing houses in the future! "
Hearing this, Xin stared incredulously and asked, "Do you think what I wrote can be published? However, I can't even read all the words! "
Wu Zuguang patted his wife on the shoulder and said, "If you can't read, you can look it up in the dictionary. Besides, don't you have me? I will teach you some every day. "
After hearing her husband's words, New Xia Feng immediately hugged her husband with her right hand. She choked and leaned on his shoulder and said "thank you, Zuguang".
Since then, Xin actually began to look up Xinhua dictionary to write articles.
Of course, at first, the new writing was not excellent. She even often expresses it inaccurately or uses it incorrectly. For example, in a short memory article, she wrote "shameless questioning" as "contemptuous questioning", and on another occasion, she wrote "splendid" as "splendid".
Every time I see new Xia Feng's small mistakes, he will point them out especially seriously and help her correct them. In order not to hurt her confidence, he will discuss these small mistakes with her skillfully every time.
Xin is a woman who loves learning very much and has strong self-esteem. So every time her husband reviews for her, she will sort out the mistakes in the "typo book". In this way, she won't make the same mistake.
Generally speaking, because Xin doesn't have much time for education, she is not as gorgeous in writing as Everyone. After a long time, when she realized this, she simply gave up all flowery rhetoric and adopted line drawing.
Wu Zuguang soon discovered this change in his wife's writing style. He was pleasantly surprised to find that when his wife gave up imitation and adjectives, her writing style was naturally established. In addition, due to the lack of various rules and routines of ordinary writers, her articles always appear natural and simple, not only pleasing to the eye, but also always inadvertently inspiring thinking.
Encouraged by Wu Zuguang, after studying writing for one year, she published her first work. After that, with her only free right hand, she created four volumes and 27 works with her bumpy life and rich experience, such as Memories of Xin, Popularity, The Queen of Pingju and the Writer's Husband, Up and Down on the Stage, Youth, Xin's Merchant and I and Emperor Puyi.
Among them, her short essays "Silly Second Brother" and "Permanent Prison" were even selected as primary school Chinese textbooks.
To the surprise of Wu Zuguang and New Xia Feng, her works have been recognized by everyone in the industry. Ba Jin, Ye Shengtao, Ai Qing and others all praised the new style of writing, and agreed that the new works were simple, fresh and elegant, and they were excellent works.
With the continuous improvement of writing level, new painting skills are becoming more and more exquisite. 1994 The Cultural Department of the General Political Department held a new solo exhibition in Junbo.
What is even more surprising is that Xin, who has made great breakthroughs in painting and writing, has picked up her art again. However, because of her physical disability, she can no longer perform on stage, so she chose to sit in a wheelchair and give lessons to students.
Under her selfless teaching, a large number of disciples and students, such as Gu, Gu, Gu, and Gu, have become outstanding successors of Everbright New Art School and the backbone of today's career.
Miraculously, on 1983, Xin appeared on the stage again, and she participated in the Spring Festival Evening drama Liu Qiaoer. When she appeared in the Spring Festival Evening in a wheelchair, the audience broke into thunderous applause again and again.
One day after the performance, when Wu Zuguang was pushing her for a walk on the path, she suddenly said, "Zuguang, thank you. I feel that life is very beautiful now, and those good and bad in the past have become good memories. "
What New Xia Feng didn't finish is: Without Wu Zuguang's persistence and guidance, she might still be the one who has been complaining.
The sunshine that day was particularly good, and the new face always wore a smile. When she came to an unknown flower tree, New Xia Feng suddenly said, "Zuguang, I want one." As usual, Wu Zuguang put the wheelchair away without thinking and went to pick flowers for his wife.
After Wu Zuguang handed the flowers to his wife, she sniffed them and said to her husband, "If you hadn't spread out the drawing paper and asked me to draw these beautiful flowers and plants, I might have been immersed in those painful memories all my life. That was a close call. Because of darkness, I almost missed the beauty of the world. "
After listening to his wife, Wu Zuguang said, "To help you is to help me. If you really can't get out, I can't get out for the rest of my life, then I should thank you! "
When he said this, Wu Zuguang had tears in his eyes. Xin only felt that the softest piece in his heart was completely hit. Unconsciously, she clenched her right hand holding the bouquet.
One day after 14 years, such a beautiful company collapsed again because of cerebral hemorrhage. This time, she never woke up.
1998 April 12, when the unknown flower in Beijing bloomed again, New Xia Feng died in Changzhou First People's Hospital for a week. ...
Fortunately, when the 7 1 year-old man left, her husband stayed with her all the time.
Many years later, their daughter Wu Shuang admitted in a public interview that she was not too sad after her mother died. When talking about the reasons behind this abnormal phenomenon, she said:
On the whole, Xin's ci is a good explanation of Xin's life. As a fairy tale, the new life is perfect, but her husband Wu Zuguang, who supports this fairy tale, is not so lucky.
After his wife left, Wu Zuguang, who loved her all his life, could not accept the fact that his wife left. When she left for the first time, he wrote sadly on the small table where she often lay:
At the end of an article recalling his wife Xin, the old man with fierce competition wrote:
After writing this nostalgic article, Wu Zuguang's memory became worse and worse, so that later, even the people around him couldn't recognize it. But whenever someone mentions the name of New Xia Feng, he is still very excited.
Five years after her new death, when her death day came again, he followed her.
I hope that when I write this article, the immortal mortal couple have met in heaven! After hope, they will never be apart!