Xi Murong's prose "Soliloquy"
The article "Soliloquy" is a reflection on life. Is the effort that people put in living just to please people and win the approval of others? ? We should not tremble and fall into this pattern and shackles. In the end, you are no longer you and have become beyond recognition. It will restrict your development.
The article "Soliloquy" also warns readers to cherish time. There are different stages in life, and each stage will "end". Each stage cannot be perfect. Although it has "ended", it will still be the end of the world. "After the end, you can continue to make up for the shortcomings of the previous stage, so that you can improve, make a leap, and become perfect. Only in this way can you slow down the pace of time. The author said it quite well in the article, "There is no such thing as The fate of separation and aging depends only on the heart that is willing to love or the heart that is unwilling to love." Separation and aging are objective laws of the development of things, and they do not depend on people's will. As long as you are willing to cherish time and cherish time, you can stay. Keeping the pace of time will make you younger.
When you go through a period of life, you will look back on the path you have taken, and you will not regret or be upset because of it. At your feet, your destiny is in your own hands. As long as you seize the opportunity, move forward bravely, and work hard, success will be right in front of you. (Xiao Ming)
Monologue
Xi Murong
1
Give me back the pen I borrowed from you.
Everything happened in the moment of looking back.
My enlightenment. It was due to a kind of confusion, so wasn’t all my confusion just because of a kind of enlightenment?
When I looked back, I suddenly realized that all my efforts in life were nothing more than a kind of enlightenment. Just so that everyone around me would be satisfied with me. In order to win the praise and smiles of others, I carefully put myself into all the patterns and shackles.
Only when I got halfway, I suddenly realized, All I have left is a vague face and a road of no return
Give me back the pen I borrowed from you
2
Give me back the pen I borrowed from you.
They say that everything in this world must have an end.
Not everyone can know time. Meaning, not all people know how to cherish. Too many people like to divide everything into paragraphs, and each paragraph must declare the end decisively. And there are so many hopes that cannot be ended, how much attention and thoughts are after the end. It will never stop. My dear friend! Only a few people will realize that the deepest source of life will never stop. There is no fate of separation and aging in this world. There are only those who are willing to love and those who are unwilling to love. Heart.
The spring is still there, but the years are flying away.
Give me back the pen I borrowed from you.
3
Give me back the pen I borrowed from you.
And on that high, cool mountain, all the firs continue to grow upward.
One night, I walked into the forest, stood under the moonlight, and whispered some extremely humble longings for life.
The mountains and forests that night listened with tears to my simple and beautiful words. My soul cannot warn me of the twists and turns of fate that await me.
As I watched me go away, all the firs were trying to wave to me in the wind, knowing that at the end of the road, there would be a time to look back with sadness.
Looking back with sadness, I saw smoke and clouds flowing, and the mountains were covered with lush green and blue trees.
Everything ends in the moment of looking back.
Give me back the pen I borrowed from you.
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The story of Xi Murong Xi Murong is a famous female poet, painter and essayist in Taiwan. She is of Mongolian origin, and her grandmother is a princess from a royal family who is good at riding and shooting. The mother is a young lady from this noble family. She is originally from An Banner, Har League, Inner Mongolia. Xi Murong was born in Sichuan Province in October 1945 while her father was in the military.
She graduated from the Art Department of Taipei Normal University and the Art Department of National Taiwan Normal University. After graduating from the Art Department of National Taiwan University in 1963, he taught for a year, and in 19*** he enrolled at the Royal Academy of Arts in Brussels, Belgium. He graduated first in the college in 1969 and returned to Taiwan.
Judging from the above-mentioned simple experience of Xi Murong, she studied painting and has integrated her love and life into her painting career since she was a child. Her father, Mr. Xi Zhenduo, who is now a professor at the University of Bonn in West Germany, recalled Xi Murong's childhood and said: "She always spent all her money on paint, and she wore her sister's old clothes to sketch everywhere. Late at night, I always He often got up and scolded her to turn off the lights and go to bed..."
Because of my love for painting, I went sketching everywhere in the wind and rain, looking for scenes, so I had no time to modify them. Over time, I developed the image of a tomboy. : “I was always the imaginary boy in the family.
Even after my brother was born, I would always stand there wearing a military uniform jacket or something. Next to me sat three sisters wearing skirts made of many laces. Each of them had curly and fluffy hair as if they were deflated. The shawl and long hair..." There are four Xi Murong sisters, the eldest sister Xi Mude, the second sister Xi Muxuan, she is the third child, and there is a sister named Xi Muhua. Before her little brother was born, the family always wanted to have a boy. Unexpectedly, Xi Murong, who had developed a boy-like character in painting, was the one to pretend. Xi Murong also enjoyed herself and received too many favors by pretending to be real. She never expected that practicing painting would also bring her incidentally. This bit of blessing... Introduction to Xi Murong, 1943
Born on the 15th day of the 10th lunar month in Jingangpo, a suburb of Chongqing, Sichuan, her ancestral home is Ming'an Banner, Chahar League, Inner Mongolia
194 Eight years
Entered the first grade of primary school in Nanjing
1949
Moved to Hong Kong and entered the primary school attached to Tongji Middle School
One 1951
Won first place in the school’s fourth-grade essay competition
1953
After graduating from elementary school, his essay "My Autobiography" was Selected on the back cover of the school magazine. Promoted to the first grade of the same school's junior high school
In 1954
Moved to Taiwan, took the joint examination for transfer students, and was admitted to the North Second Women's School. Now in the second year of junior high school at Sun Yat-Sen Girls' High School, I received a lot of encouragement from teachers Chao Jing and Dong Xiu from the Chinese Language and Literature Department and Yang Mengzhong from the Art Department. I started writing poems in my diary, which was Yu Guangzhong's "Blue." "Feather"
1955
Won the first place in the school's Chinese reading competition in the third grade of junior high school
1956
Entered the Art Department of Taipei Normal University and officially began to study painting. His first teachers were Teachers Sun Liqun and Teacher Zhou Ying. Within three years, he participated in the editing work of "Northern Normal University Youth" and published essays and poems outside the school under the pseudonym of Xia Caizhi. Published poems in educational magazines, contributed to "Free Youth", and won first place in school speech, debate and essay competitions
Enrolled in 1959
Department of Art. Drawing was taught by teachers Chen Huikun and Yuan Shuzhen, watercolor was taught by teachers Ma Baishui and Li Zefan, oil painting was taught by teachers Li Shiqiao and Liao Jichun, and traditional Chinese painting was taught by teachers Lin Yushan, Wu Yongxiang, Huang Junbi and Zhang Dewen
1960
A watercolor "Still Life" was selected for the Provincial Art Exhibition
1963
Won the third place in watercolor in the Provincial Youth Art Competition held by the Taipei Women's Association . 3rd place in oil painting and 2nd place in watercolor at Normal University Graduation Art Exhibition. Graduated from Normal University and taught at Bei City Renai Junior High School. Participated in the Crown Unforgettable Characters Essay, using Xiao Rui as the pen name, and won the first prize for the article "Souvenirs"
In 1999, he went to the Royal Academy of Fine Arts in Brussels, Belgium, and entered the advanced oil painting class. Due to his excellent entrance results, he was directly promoted to the second grade, where he studied under Professor Leon Defus.
In 1965
Her works were selected for the 70th Salon des Indépendants in Paris, and participated in the 81st United Salon of Female Painters, the 10th International Women's Painting Exhibition, etc. In the same year, he was invited to participate in the "Chinese Contemporary Painters Exhibition" held by the Royal Museum of History and Art in Bijing
1966
In February, he was recommended by the professor and held the first exhibition at the Egmont Gallery in Bijing. A personal exhibition. The art critics of Belgium's seven major newspapers all reviewed and introduced it. Invited to participate in the 31st Marine Painters Exhibition. Graduated first in July. Won the First Prize for Best Merit, the Duteron de Tri Foundation Award, the Gold Medal Award from the City of Brussels and the Gold Medal Award from the Kingdom of Belgium
1967
Entered Professor Claude Lee's copper engraving studio and specialized in etching etching for one year. Participated in the "European Art Exhibition" held in Bijing and won two bronze medals from the European Artists Association. Held a personal exhibition at the University of Friborg, Switzerland. Held a personal exhibition in Winterthur, Switzerland. A personal painting exhibition was held at the Coca-Cola Factory Cultural Center in Bijing
1968
A personal exhibition was held simultaneously at the Egmont Gallery and the Horn Gallery in Bijing
1 In 1969
Under the pen name of Xiao Rui, he published his works in the Central Supplement
In 1970
Under the pen name of Mullen, he published in Published works in "United Supplements". Returned to Taiwan in July and taught art in Hsinchu Normal College. In the following years, he was invited to participate in many provincial and international art exhibitions. He also contributed articles under the pen names of Xiao Rui, Mo Rong, Mulun Xi Lianbo, etc., and most of his works were prose.
1974
The first solo exhibition after returning to Taiwan was held at the National Gallery of the National Museum of History in Taiwan
1976
Participated in the first United Daily News Novel Award. Under the pseudonym Qian Hua, his article "Birthday Cake" won the prize
1977
Held at the U.S. Information Office in Taichung Personal exhibition. In October, he began to publish the column "Poetic Painting, Painting Poetry" in Crown Magazine
1979
In April, he began to study laser painting. In May, he held a personal exhibition at the German Cultural Center in Taipei. In July, "Painting Poems" was published together with Crown Magazine. In November, she started writing the column "Letter to Young Mothers" on early childhood art education in "Women" magazine.
In December, he held a solo exhibition at Taipei Tai Chi Art Gallery, which was the first laser painting exhibition in Taiwan. Poems began to be published in "United Supplements"
1980
Continued to study laser painting, published papers, and exhibited them in the form of prints and oil paintings. In July, the long poem "My Mother, My Mother" was published in Young Lion Literature. Started painting No. 300 oil painting "Lotus"
1981
In January, he participated in the Laser Art Exhibition held in San Diego, USA with laser prints. Poems have been published in "United Supplement", "China Times", "China Daily", "Young Lion Literature and Art", "Taiwan Times", "Taiwan Daily", "Free Tabloid", "China Literature and Art" and "Sunshine Collection". April's long poem "The Name of Love" was published in "Taiwan Times". In June, he held a solo exhibition at the National Gallery of the National Museum of History in Taiwan as a gift for his father's 70th birthday. "Mirror Series" and No. 300 "Lotus" are on display. The September poetry collection "Qili Xiang" is published by Dadi Publishing House and will be reprinted within one month. In October, he was invited to serve as a jury member of the Oil Painting Department of the Provincial Art Exhibition. In December, "The Song of Departure" won the Golden Tripod Award for Best Lyrics in the Recording Category
1982
In March, the essay collections "Trace of Growth" and "Drawing the Rainbow in the Heart" "Published by Erya Publishing House, and in December "Introduction to Laser Art" was published by the Taiwan Laser Promotion Association.
1983
In February, the poetry collections "Trace of Growth" and "Drawing the Rainbow in the Heart" were published by Dadi Publishing House. Qiyue, Xiaofeng and Ai Ya co-authored the essay collection "Sanxian" published by Erya Publishing House. The October essay collection "There is a Song" is published by Hongfan Bookstore.
In 1984
The "Material Research" course was launched in the Fine Arts Department of Tunghai University. Start a sketching trip of wild plants, using pens, pencils, light colors and pastels to record. Started experimenting with laser engraving.
In 1985
March and Liu Haibei co-authored the collection of essays "Tongxin Collection", which was published by Jiuge Publishing House, with Xindai writing the preface. In June, he held art exhibitions at the Apollo Gallery and the Crown Art Center. The Apollo Gallery exhibited his works over the past four years - "Night Series" and oil paintings such as lotus bodies. A retrospective exhibition of oil paintings and drawings over the past twenty years is on display at the Crown Arts Center. In July, I was invited to Hong Kong to participate in a literary summer camp. The October collection of essays "Written to Happiness" was published by Erya Publishing House.
In 1986
I continued my sketching trip of wild plants and climbed Shimen Mountain to get my first introduction to Taiwan’s alpine plants. In April, he held a touring joint exhibition with Chen Qimao and Chu Ge, which was exhibited at cultural centers in several counties and cities. In July, he was invited by Hong Kong Baptist College to give a lecture in Hong Kong. In August, he began to write the 300-line poem "The Legend of Summer Nights". In October, he started working on monochrome oil paintings of the "Landscape Series".
1987
The January poetry collection "Nine Chapters of Time" was published by Erya Publishing House. In April, "Nine Chapters of Time" won the Zhongxing Literature and Art Medal New Poetry Award. In May, he held a joint exhibition with Chu Ge and Jiang Xun at the Dunhuang Art Center in Taipei and published the "Landscape" painting album. My mother passed away in May. At the end of June, I was invited to give a speech in Los Angeles at the annual meeting of the Western American Chinese Society. In July, he participated in the "Meeting Friends through Literature" symposium at the Dongfeng Bookstore Book Fair in San Francisco. In October, he started working on the series of oil paintings "Lotus Continuous Painting".
In 1988
In March, a collection of poems and prose, "In That Distant Place" was published by Yuanshen Publishing House. The photography part was the work of Lin Dongsheng. In July, I went to Indonesia to do lotus sketching in Indonesia. In September, I was invited to give a speech at the "Reading Month" of the South China Morning Post in Singapore.
1989
The January collection of essays and sketches "Token" was published by Yuanshen Publishing House. The collection of essays and sketches "Sketcher" in March was published by Dayan Publishing House. In April, he held a solo exhibition at Apollo Gallery and was invited to exhibit in Newport. In August, I went to Europe with my daughter Fangci. In September, I went to the hometown of my father and late mother and saw the Mongolian Plateau for the first time. Since September, at the invitation of editor-in-chief Ms. Ji Ji, I have published the tenth article in the returning home series - "My Hometown is on the Plateau" in the Human World Page of "China Times". Starting from October, with the help of friends, I started reading a lot of works of modern Mongolian poets and Mongolian history.
1990
The July essay collection "My Hometown is on the Plateau" was published by Yuanshen Publishing House, and the photography part was the work of Wang Xinggong. At the same time, he also published an anthology of modern Mongolian poetry titled "The Starlight in the Distance". In August, I went to Europe with Zi Ankai. In September, we returned to the Mongolian Plateau to visit the mausoleum of the holy ancestor Genghis Khan. At the end of September, we went to Ulaanbaatar and Lingudu, Mongolia. Taking a train across the Gobi Desert in October coincides with the full moon night of the eighth lunar month.
In 1991
I had a one-year vacation at the Normal University. In April, he held a joint exhibition with Chu Ge and Jiang Xun at the Qingyun Art Center and published the "Flower Season" painting album. The May collection of essays "The Country Is Waiting for" is published by Hongfan Bookstore. In June, he was invited by the Palace of Arts and Culture in Berlin, Germany to go to Berlin to recite poetry. And was invited to give a lecture on the modern Chinese literature course of the University of Hamburg, Germany. In July, he accompanied a 16-member Taiwanese cultural delegation to Ulaanbaatar at the invitation of the Mongolian Ministry of Culture to participate in the celebration of the 70th anniversary of the founding of the People's Republic of China. In July, he received the Cultural Medal from the Mongolian Minister of Culture. In August, the mainland version of "The Country is Waiting" was authorized to be published by Guangzhou Huacheng Publishing House. It was learned that Xi Murong's poetry collection published by Huacheng alone has sold more than 1.5 million copies. In September, he signed a contract with Beijing China Copyright Agency Company, entrusting him to deal with serious infringements of piracy and counterfeiting of Xi Murong's works in various provinces in mainland China.
In September, I went to Mongolia again to visit local artists, and went to Kusugupo in northern Mongolia for interviews and photography.
1992
In February, the long-planned "Mongolian Literature Album" was published in the supplement of "United Daily News". In February, he published the slide show "A Closer Look at Mongolia" and gave a special lecture on Mongolia with Wang Qimei, Fan Manon, Wang Xinggong and Jiang Xun. In April, Mongolian folk music workers were invited to visit and record in Taiwan. In May, he was invited to participate in the "International Symposium on Mongolian Culture" held in Taipei and published a paper "Looking at Contemporary Mongolian Intellectuals from the Creation of Poetry." In June, he had a solo exhibition at the Qingyun Art Center in Taipei, and published the painting collection "Plucking Hibiscus across the River". June's poetry collection "Songs of the River" is published by Donghua Book Company.
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