Life AB noodles

When I was a child, I always loved listening to tapes, A side and B side. At that time, it was amazing, and both sides could play wonderful music. Now think about it, life may be the same, there are two sides. An angel on one side and a devil on the other. Or one side is traditional and the other side is new. Or one side is rational, and the other side is emotional. Everyone may have these two people living in the body, which is the complete self.

Take me for example, I'm more traditional. Growing up, along the way, I have always been a good baby in the eyes of my parents, especially obedient, never making them angry, especially sensible, not giving them trouble, and they have always been proud of me. When I grow up, at work, I also strictly abide by the rules and regulations of the unit, obey the arrangements of the leaders, and basically never say "no". In their eyes, I am a good employee. Including when I get married, I will find a good wife and mother according to my parents' wishes, and then have a baby. I will also do my duty as a husband and father. No matter how difficult it is outside, I never say anything. I work silently for this family and never consider my inner needs. As long as this family is complete and my parents are healthy, I have a good life!

But, so I am happy, happy? I don't think so. I just live other people's thoughts and never consider my inner needs. I have lost myself. In fact, I hate myself very much, so the other me in my body is the protagonist. I have changed, and some changes have happened slowly. It seems like a different person, but in fact, in my bones, I just suppressed it for so many years, buried it in the deepest part of my heart, and now it is inspired. I began to re-examine myself and change my lifestyle, which may bring greater happiness and real pleasure. I began to pick up a pen and write down my long-cherished words as a gift for myself. I want to share the beautiful scenery of nature with my friends, enjoy flowers, the moon, rain and snow, talk about love, life, family and life, and learn to think deeply. I also want to listen to more music and watch movies to make my leisure time meaningful. I am willing to try to do anything that can make me happy. And those who can bring me happiness, I should cherish. I want to make my life more passionate and my soul more interesting.

? I think I can balance the two selves in my body, let them live in peace, try to be a different me, and make my life more complete and colorful.