When I was a child, my teacher often said that I was "promising". I only knew that this was a compliment, but I didn't understand what it meant. As I grew up, I gradually realized that I had been working hard blindly, and that I had no goals to pursue. There was no direction, and the success in those stages in the eyes of others was completely meaningless. In this somewhat absurd confusion and confusion, I gradually indulged myself.
I don’t want to study. It is necessary to receive nine years of compulsory education. I am already in the second year of junior high school. I will study for another year and graduate from junior high school. I don’t know whether to continue studying. I should be able to do it. In today’s world, a diploma is Dropping out of school after graduating from junior high school in China was a stepping stone, which was almost like asking for death. What's more, besides studying, I was able to get by, and I was good at nothing.
In school, if I had more perseverance and resilience, I would excel in at least two aspects.
My articles used to be very good, compared with those around me, but the situation happened that my two consecutive articles were not well received. At that time, my mentality was extremely unhealthy. Every time I write, I am affected by it. It gets worse and worse. I am like a deflated rubber ball. But forget it. With the rapid improvement of other people's writing skills, I have become an ordinary person. I haven't written anything insightful for a long time. article.
My math scores are not bad either. The teachers who have tutored me in this subject all say that I am very smart and have wanted to be a mathematician. When I was young, I believed that I would be able to solve the world’s problems when I grow up. , but as I grow older, I find that doing anything has its own resistance, not to mention that it is something that countless people have tried and failed, so I no longer care about this advantage.
My Mandarin is quite standard. For a while, my reading level was at the top of the class. Gradually, my shortcomings became apparent. My voice was smaller and my reading strength was natural. It's not enough, the tone is a bit low, and there is no charm no matter how you read it. These can be changed, but I don't think it is necessary, and I soon lost interest. At the beginning of last month, I was the class monitor for a year. In the early days of my first year of junior high school, I was very enthusiastic and my teachers and classmates greatly appreciated it. When management problems began to surface, I sighed and did not dare to face them. This time, I did not participate in the election for squad leader, and gave up again... "If a young man does not work hard, the old man will be sad." "You must work hard to ride a horse, don't be like a dragon and sigh in vain"... I recited these verses like a self-mockery.
I know that it is absolutely impossible to continue like this. A good piece of wood can be used as a work of art or as firewood.
I tried to put the problem down, and suddenly I felt much more relaxed. It turned out that it was not inevitable. I felt that the confusion I used to think about was just a corner of a corner. As long as I didn't think about it, nothing would happen. No. I have done my best, that period of emptiness has passed, and I have returned to a fulfilling life. Although I have not yet reached the direction of my efforts, this age of dreaming makes me feel that my dream is about to be found. "Excellence now" is like this Although my ideas are not far-reaching, they are enough to support me
"Young people in adolescence are most likely to get lost." I am one of the replicas of this sentence. I am unable to break free and do not want to give in. The road is People who come out, even if I am in the wilderness, I have nothing to fear, there is no way to go, I might as well open up a new road.
The future! I'll come.