According to your description, I feel that you have a knot in your heart.
About the animal incident, it is really a very immoral and outrageous mistake.
If you do something wrong, you should be brave enough to take responsibility.
Sincerely repent.
Including your mother punishing you, you should reflect from the heart and realize your mistakes.
I hope you can think clearly, thoroughly and honestly.
Recognize your mistakes and start over!
For depression, the specific treatment and conditioning methods are as follows, you can also refer to:
First, cognitive therapy.
Correct the single, rigid and negative way of thinking and cultivate a comprehensive, flexible and positive way of thinking. Good at seeing problems from multiple angles, looking at problems from a long-term perspective, and being good at discovering people, things, good aspects and positive and beneficial aspects in daily life. Don't exaggerate shortcomings and difficulties; Don't be extreme, one-sided, black or white; Don't sell yourself short or criticize others.
Second, behavioral therapy.
Include various specific therapies. Pay attention to discovering and correcting negative and bad habits and behaviors, and support and cultivate positive and good habits and behaviors-including having some positive and healthy hobbies, practicing calligraphy, reading some good books, learning to charge, and doing something meaningful, creating value and helping others. Wait a minute.
Third, talk therapy.
Interpersonal communication and conversation are beneficial to people's mental health. Tell your worries and troubles to friends, relatives and others, so as to get your understanding and help. Even if you are not talking about something that makes you depressed, you can better broaden your horizons and adjust your nerves.
Fourth, the famous sentence therapy.
Establish correct three views and concepts. Positive and wise inspirational aphorisms, poems and famous sentences can enlighten and inspire people. It is suggested to learn and remember something to guide real life.
Fifth, exercise therapy.
Running, brisk walking, walking, mountain climbing, outing, gardening, swimming, playing ball games and so on. These exercises (especially with friends and relatives) can adjust people's physical and mental state well and reduce stress and depression.
Sixth, music therapy.
Listening to music and songs with beautiful melody and healthy style is also helpful to adjust people's mental state. However, if everything goes too far, it may be counterproductive for non-professionals to indulge in music.
Seven, diet.
Eating more coarse grains, nuts, fruits and aquatic products can also better regulate depression. Pay attention to quitting smoking and limiting alcohol at ordinary times.
Eight. Counseling and treatment.
Suggest that patients with depression: consult a psychologist. In the communication and interaction with doctors, find the cause, open the heart knot and improve the symptoms.
Nine, drug treatment.
After consulting a doctor, take the medicine reasonably and on time. Some people who are unwell and have irregular organs are advised to see Chinese medicine to identify their constitution and take medicine to recuperate.