Is it true that I got a phone call saying that it is the calligrapher's poverty alleviation fund of Beijing Book Association?

More than 20 years have passed. Looking back now, I am always calm in the face of the media. Most importantly, when you suddenly face so many flashes, laughter, applause, adjustments, what to do or what to do, my heart has always been as blue as clear water. "

"A fragile Heidi, like me, was a disabled woman, very dirty, and then didn't do anything beyond imagination that upset you. Sometimes I even think, not me. Sometimes I travel on business and live in high-rise buildings. I went there to look down. I often think so, so I really fell down. What is the last unbearable pain? I even hope that you can be euthanized. " Zhang Haidi, whose lower body is paralyzed, is the first national model after the reform and opening up.

In the 1980s, a glorious name, Heidi, aroused strong repercussions in the vast land. Zhang Haidi's deeds are everywhere, and Heidi's spirit is everywhere. Two-thirds of the girls who are unconscious are called "Paul" and "the new Lei Feng of the 1980s" because they don't give in to the fate of the gods and sing the songs of life in wheelchairs. After Zhang Haidi became a national model, China's reform and opening up.

Zhang Haidi 65438-0955 was born in an intellectual family in Wendeng County, Shandong Peninsula. At the age of 5, he suffered from spinal hemangioma, his chest was completely unconscious, and he could not take care of himself. Waist Zhang Haidi didn't give up his life and the life around him. He fought against the disease with strong perseverance and determination, and continued to survive while studying and working hard. She not only completed all the courses in primary and secondary schools by herself, but also taught college English majors. Later, he insisted on learning Japanese, German and Esperanto, and translated a foreign language of 1.6 million words? Books and materials. She studied hard and devoted herself to more than a dozen medical books such as human anatomy, Science and Acupuncture. Her medical knowledge, acupuncture, medication for people around her, 1 10,000 people. She also studied radio technology, music, painting and calligraphy and other knowledge and disciplines in order to serve the people.

A more popular name, Zhang Haidi, influenced several generations of China people in 1980s.

19811February, People's Daily reported Zhang Haidi's deeds for the first time. 1 983 February1,China Youth Daily Zhang Haidi's remarkable photo and her long self-reported editorial "Let the ideal light illuminate the road of life".

On March 7th, 1983, the Central Committee of the Communist Youth League awarded Zhang Haidi the honorary title of outstanding Communist Youth League member, calling on everyone to learn from Zhang Haidi, and all those who applied for her limbs sent the same message. I'm not trying alone. Comrade Deng Xiaoping wrote an inscription: "Learn from Zhang Haidi, a promising, moral, educated and undisciplined new capitalist!" ! "Comrade Chen Yun wrote an inscription: Zhang Haidi set an example, studied hard and helped others enthusiastically. In the 1980s, Haidi began to write Xinlei literature. 1983, he translated The Beach Clinic, Little Miller's Travels and Rebecca Created a Window to Open the Sky, questioning the dream of life in a wheelchair. His works exceed one million words. Now he is a writer, literature studio of Shandong Writers Association.

Zhang Haidi passed the 1993 examination and thesis defense, and obtained the master's degree and the master's degree in philosophy from Jilin University. The Far South Games was held in 1994. 1997 The five outstanding disabled people in the world selected by NHK in Japan. 1998 China association for the disabled.

"To come back, I am absolutely tenacious, Heidi. Disability is a great pain for human beings, but it always needs someone to chew. I want to thank you for giving me a talking pen, which makes me protest. I am not only alive, but also flying in the soul of writing. "

Sitting by the window, looking at this large green pasture in front of me, I hope I can feel the warmth and kindness of the earth step by step with my feet like you, and find back the feeling I once had. ....."

When Zhang Haidi was 5 years old, she was paraplegic due to spinal hemangioma, but she was paralyzed from the waist down, hardworking and helpful, so she was called "contemporary Paul".

Don't be depressed and indulge in cruel fate challenges. With tenacious perseverance and persistence, Zhang Haidi fought against diseases, withstood severe tests and lived a life full of confidence. Although she didn't have the opportunity to go to school, she studied hard, completed all the courses in primary and secondary schools, taught herself English, Japanese, German and Esperanto, and attended university and postgraduate courses. 1On March 7th, 983, the commendation meeting held by the Central Committee of the Communist Youth League was awarded the title of "Comrade Zhang Haidi, the new Lei Feng in 1980s". Zhang Haidi 1983 began to engage in literary creation, and translated works such as The Beach Clinic, Little Miller's Travels, Rebecca Creating a Sky with an Open Window in a New School, Questioning Life, Dreams in a Wheelchair with More than 10,000 Words, etc. Now he is a writer, literature studio of Shandong Writers Association. Zhang Haidi passed the 1993 examination and thesis defense, and obtained the master's degree and the master's degree in philosophy from Jilin University. The Far South Games was held in 1994. 1997 The five outstanding disabled people in the world selected by NHK in Japan. 1998 Chairman of China Disabled Persons' Federation. Won the title of national model worker in 2000.

We met Zhang Haidi and started blinking, 20 years later. Few people under the age of 20 remember Zhang Haidi. But modern medicine has extended Zhang Haidi's life, and what glory will appear if he continues his life by the second operation? When Zhang Haidi grabbed her fate by the throat 20 years ago, is she still knocking at the door 20 years later? Let's take a look at Zhang Haidi's inner world.

About happiness

Happiness is hard, and we often make it harder for Zhang Haidi to be happy and sad for the next few years. "Zhang Haidi looks very happy, even in the most painful time, she can also make a bright smile. Zhang Haidi said that she was never the one who made her really happy.

Zhang Haidi is a writer, but writing is painful. She has a large area? Bedsore, bones are exposed, but she is still writing. She has had many operations, and the operation is very painful. Her nose cancer operation doesn't need anesthesia. She clearly felt that she had cut her skin with a knife. The first time I heard that she had cancer, she was even glad-finally relieved. Heidi said, "My greatest happiness is death. However, she survived.

She writes novels, oil paintings, ballet, TV series, singing, singing ... even her favorite perfume, and she lives happily. Zhu Jun, the host, asked her, and she said, Is it difficult to accept where you are sitting now? Very uncomfortable. I have been sitting for 40 years. As a member of the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference, her suggestion is that colleges and universities implement barrier-free facilities. "Zhang Haidi said," I am very painful, but it can also satisfy people. It is full of poetry.

Trouble after becoming famous

Twenty years ago, Heidi had an excellent reputation. This kind of reputation is an actor, a star, a seemingly out of reach. It's a pity that Zhang Haidi and Zhang Haidi have a strong will and a fragile soul.

She is a writer now, but she said, "Over the years, I know very well that my literary reputation is greater than literary creation itself ...". She also said, "I don't care about these things, I only care about literary creation itself. How can I write my work better ... "But everyone can see that she cares. She has always felt that their works are not good enough, and that the sales of this book are squeezing herself because of his fame, not because of her own works. But as a disabled person, her contact with society is too limited, so she desperately digs into your own heart, fantasizes, and is helpless in newspapers and periodicals, Zhang Haidi, which is even more painful. She said, visible physical pain, inner pain, Zhang Haidi was speechless, so far as to say that no one would care.

Heidi said, "Twenty years have passed. Looking back now, I always face the media frankly. Most importantly, when you suddenly face so many flashes, laughter, applause, adjustments, what to do or what to do, my heart has always been like a pool of clear water, so blue and so deep.

My external feeling is very friendly. I called my sister and aunt. In fact, in my heart, the deeper thing is silence. This disease and reading gave me. I think it's beautiful. What should I pursue? I have always believed that women with important thoughts are the most beautiful, and knowledge changes fate, which impressed me the most.

Looking back on those days, I am grateful that150,000 Xin didn't respond, but it was always in my heart. I want to thank all the people who love me and care about me. I understand why people like Heidi. Because of the courage of illness and difficulties in front of her. This is the pride of my life, maybe I haven't done enough in other aspects. But I believe she is a strong and brave woman. Whenever she doesn't give up her dreams and wishes, she doesn't give up her efforts every minute. Looking back, every time I left, I didn't live in vain.

When I have no voice, it is a long and difficult journey in the river of my career. Many friends around me said to me, Heidi, why do you refuse all kinds of interviews, which will make people distrust. I don't think I should have a say. First of all, I am a million ordinary people. Next, I am a writer. This profession doesn't need to be at the front desk. I perform, think, study, research and write behind the scenes. The writer's life is rich and colorful. Needless to say, I also belong to the kind of writer with great difficulty in writing. "

About walking

Walking is actually very simple, only three props are needed: a pleasant idle scenery and healthy legs. These three, Zhang Haidi, but she can still walk, her husband Wang Zuoliang.

Walking: Wang Zuoliang pushes Zhang Haidi, so his legs. Avoid the crowd and take a walk in your own home, feeling very idle. As for the pleasant scenery in Zhang Haidi's mouth. Relying on her husband, Zhang Haidi described the scenery she thought of, trees, willows, willow green, a lake, a telephone pole, a gust of wind, the rain of this disease ... vivid scenery, Zhang Haidi's description.

For 20 years, the couple once said to each other. /kloc-For 0/0 years, the reason why Wang Zuoliang didn't go out often was that Zhang Haidi made his hair style himself. For 20 years, Zhang Haidi lived a poetic life and a pure world. Wang Zuoliang is a poet.

Referring to her husband, Heidi said, "He is a very quiet person. Looking back on my 20 years of marriage, I feel very happy. We have lived a quiet life in our respective jobs, and we have never deliberately made all kinds of hype. I think time will tell. I am also surprised that after so many years of marriage, when he went to Canada to study, he was separated by the vast sea. Our correspondence is really interesting. I have never. "

About if

-if not, the reporter found you, or you have no social influence, would you like it? Besides, Master Hat, have you written so many books?

If this is true, if it is, I am a healthy person. I think I will do better than now, whether it is better than today or better. My contribution to society is even greater than today.

-If you can stand up, what's the first thing you want to do?

-I think I'll try dancing. It's true. This is a person's greatest wish is the heart. I have been dancing for so many years, but I have never stopped dancing in life. I think it may be a better dance than reality.

-If you stand up, what is the first thing you want your husband to do?

I think many housewives prefer cooking to sitting like this.

-If you leave, what is your greatest wish?

If I leave, should I love him or find someone to accompany him, and then accompany a healthy person?

In an interview with The Art of Living