Although I have been dealing with words all my life, I don't have any decent works and I haven't joined any local cultural organizations, so I'm not a scholar. Familiar people classify me as a literati series, mostly because I studied Chinese and my work is related to words, so I am often praised by my friends. I should be a literati. People in the industry know the truth at a glance, but they just pretend to be literati in front of laymen.
I still feel a little guilty when I meet a regular literati. Although I don't recognize their works, I can't come up with better works, but I can only hate myself. If I hadn't borrowed it from the landlord, I wouldn't even be qualified to attend such a pen club. Therefore, I have nothing to say without my place in the forum.
This pen meeting, of course, once again met many familiar or unfamiliar literati. People know me mostly because of my previous position or because of the admiration of local people. Scholars who are familiar with me only know that I am a master at playing Go, and others seem to have never heard of it. Yes, I can't write, calligraphy is hard to get into the eyes of the Fang family, poetry couplets are hard to get rid of, and painting is even more ignorant. What a scholar. Even go can only play a second-rate or third-rate role in the local area.
Therefore, I have some stage fright for such a pen meeting. I took part because there was no general in Shu, and Liao Hua was the pioneer. In this scene, who will go to hell if I don't go to hell? However, if you make achievements, you won't let others take charge of the cultural affairs in the village. My fault is so-called general but not refined, such as writing, law, chess, and people.
From this, I thought about my driving again. I got my driver's license fifteen years ago, but I haven't dared to go on the road yet. As soon as someone gets a driver's license, they can go on a rampage everywhere. The reason is that my foundation is too poor to drive. As I wrote, it's ok to entertain yourself, but it's always off the table.
As for writing, I have never been famous. Besides my poor foundation, another important factor is the lack of training, especially the lack of experience in communicating with experts. Dare not compare with the master, this is my biggest mental obstacle. It is a common problem in the world to want to win and be afraid of losing. If you often associate with superior people, the pattern and realm will be improved, and your ability will gradually emerge. If you often associate with laymen, you will eventually be buried with everyone! Whether it's a mule or a horse, pull it out for a walk! If you don't even have the courage to walk out, how can you take the lead!
A piece of gold, if it doesn't shine and can't be recognized by the world, is not gold!