"I don't believe my life is so bad!" (Back to 80)
-this is a sentence that the newly-married woman cried with Mrs. Wang when she returned to her mother's home for the first time.
She is really unlucky. Having no mother since I was a child, I finally felt at ease when I came to menstruation. Now I have been sold by my father to the evil Sun Shaozu.
-these are all the contents that all readers can see and show in the novel. But that's not the point we want to talk about.
The point of this article is: If you know how much effort Yingchun has made to change her fate, you will know-I don't believe my life is so bad! -the weight of this sentence, how heavy! ! !
I have always been indifferent to the Spring Festival. The reason is that it is difficult for her background to capture her outline.
Looking back at all the details related to the Spring Festival in A Dream of Red Mansions, it seems that Akiki always hides in the crowd intentionally or unintentionally in a way of self-exile. Gradually, the existence of this walk-on made her a vague background. Then, it seems natural that others ignore her.
02
On the fifteenth day, as we agreed in advance, four people gathered in Guo Rong Building: Xing Xiuyan, Xue Baoqin, Wen Li and Li Qi. They all have poetry books as the foundation, and they are very proficient in pen and ink. At one time, there were many more people in the poetry club.
Baoyu was very happy and overjoyed. Now our poetry club is thriving. It's better to pick a day than to bump into each other. Tomorrow, there will be a club on the 16th, which is a banquet for everyone.
Tanchun said, Miss Lin has just got up, and Second Sister is ill again. She is always on tenterhooks.
Baoyu said that the second sister didn't write much poetry. What happened without him? ..... (back to 49)
These are the original words in A Dream of Red Mansions. It's from Baoyu. Didn't he always regard his daughter as a pearl and think that the natural Zhong Ling Yu Xiu only loved her?
In his mind, the word "daughter" is extremely noble, even more noble than Amitabha and Buddha at the beginning! You foul-mouthed people, don't be rude to these two words. This is very important. Whenever you want to say something, you should first rinse your eloquence with clear water and fragrant tea. If you make a mistake, you have to dig your teeth and wear your cheeks. (second time)
He will cherish the agricultural home textile performance girl he met by the roadside; Will give understanding admiration to the cousins who attack others in red clothes; I will never forget the famous tea jade compiled by Grandma Liu, which was specially asked by Yan Ming to inquire in the countryside, not to mention the sisters in the Grand View Garden.
He once said that he died for these people, and he was willing! Chi Yanzhai also said: Baoyu is "sentimental." Where there is ignorance in the world, there is a fascination with consideration (Chapter 8).
It happened that he forgot his second sister who lived with him day and night.
It is understandable that some people ignore the Spring Festival. If even Baoyu can regard it as nothing, then you can imagine the extent to which Yingchun is invisible!
I am curious, what is the cause of the Spring Festival?
When Daiyu first entered the Jia family, her first impression of the three sisters, English, Tan and Tan, should be that all three were beautiful.
The second sister Yingchun is taciturn and gentle. Third sister Tanchun's eyes are bright and unforgettable at first sight. Fourth Sister Xichun, she is just a little girl with makeup! I have to admire Daiyu's critical eyes. It only takes a glance to hit the nail on the head
In A Dream of Red Mansions, Yingchun left little ink. Her first poem was written when she visited her mother in Yuan Chun.
On the Lantern Festival night, there are many lights and fire trees in the Grand View Garden. Yuan Chun, led by Baoyu, toured everywhere, returned to the main hall and gave a big banquet. Knowing that her sisters can write poems, she ordered them to write one poem for each topic and write poems for the "Kaiyue plaque" of Yingchun as follows-
-alas! This is called poetry! ? Although it rhymes, it is not neat. In the artistic conception, I only see my head hidden and my tail exposed. I am passive to Nuo Nuo and Nuo Nuo, and I have no elegance.
This is the first time that readers realize that Yingchun has no talent in poetry.
The second time I exchanged solve riddles on the lanterns with my sisters in Yuan Chun-
Beyond the deep wall, the aftermath of the Chinese New Year is one after another. East Chang 'an Avenue is crowded and noisy, and countless lanterns are bathed like the Milky Way. The inner court of the palace inside the high wall is as quiet as a star. Yuan Chun returned to the palace shortly after visiting relatives in other provinces, still immersed in the happiness of his extended family. So the eunuchs were given a riddle to guess. Needless to say, after guessing, write it directly on paper and send it in for the empress to check. At the same time, let everyone draw a riddle, hang it on a lamp and let the eunuch take it back to the palace.
It was not until the evening that the eunuch came out to send a message: the former queen did it, and the second lady and the third master guessed it was not. Everyone else guessed. The right person got a palace poem tube and a tea basket, but Yingchun and Jia Huan didn't. Jia Huan is bored. It's a joke to welcome Spring, and he doesn't mind.
For a long time, I didn't understand what Yingchun meant by "don't care about trifles". Is this indifference that seems to surpass winning or losing free and easy, or slow?
With this puzzle, the process of reading added new doubts ... Until the 73rd time, the emergence of "Tai Shang Induction" made everything suddenly clear. It is like a key to open the life history of Spring Festival, which dispels the doubts that existed before.
After all, this is the only book that has appeared in Yingchun's life, which has attracted the attention of senior researchers and naturally deserves it. However, the vast majority of people's understanding of the book "The Induction of the Emperor's Father" has always stayed in the vague concept of this book, that is, the so-called "misfortune never rains but it pours, and it is fortunate to be unlucky." The report of good and evil is like a shadow.
I have also seen it in some researchers' articles, such as the words "merits and demerits" in induction, which have always influenced Yingchun's life. However, I have never seen an article that clearly demonstrates why this book has such a profound impact on the Spring Festival. What is the track of its influence on Spring Festival travel rush?
03
Yingchun grew up without a mother. Although she grew up with my aunt's sisters, she is the eldest sister of all, only Baoyu and Daiyu, and the old lady is still in pain. Aunt is busy outside, so many brothers and sisters. Even though this place has given her a clean life, Mrs. Wang is not a bodhisattva after all. How can she share the responsibility of taking care of the children equally with each of them? Her worries are beyond description.
She is not smart enough and has no talent for poetry and lyrics. Therefore, she has no capital to show her talents. She wants to fight for fame and fortune. How? Jia's daughters are all outstanding, but they are not as good as them. I can probably imagine how urgent it is for her to change her mind!
After reading this, there will be repercussions.
Finally, she came across a wonderful book that could change her fate-The Induction of the Emperor's Father. I think she must have read Yuan Lefan's Four Disciplines, regulated her behavior by learning induction, and urged herself and her family to do good deeds every day, thus changing her destiny! So she believed it. I don't know when she started, but all her actions were based on the good deeds in the book to accumulate merits for herself-
With the experience of her predecessors (teacher Fan), she firmly believes that doing good will definitely change her luck. Therefore, in her riddle, we can see the poem "Nothing is too good to meet".
It is an established fact that there is no talent and no wisdom. The only thing I can hope for is to do more good deeds and make my fate better, and maybe I can recapture a city.
At that time, there were very few people who had access to a good family. The only person who can make her practice so convenient is the person closest to her. Therefore, in order to change her luck, she gave her life to them without hesitation.
This is probably how Jia Zheng felt when he guessed that her answer was an abacus.
I am convinced by the abacus and disturb my life in succession. Being manipulated has become the main theme of Spring Festival life-
After moving into the Grand View Garden, the two sisters were bored. Tanchun saw that both sisters could write poems, so she started a poetry club and invited them to write poems. Yingchun knows that poetry is not her strong point, but when she sees other people's achievements, such as her own, she doesn't spoil the public's interest. She was invited to be there, and she was very happy that she was the vice president of rhyme only.
I have also read some opinions in some articles: they think that the reason why Yingchun draws lots to limit rhyme can be attributed to her inactive attitude towards life. I don't want to just think. Random rhyme restriction by lottery is a very common rhyme restriction method in ancient literati's elegant collections, so it can be considered as a negative attitude towards life and far-fetched. But refusing to pay more attention to this aspect is indeed a sign of weak participation.
Gradually, fade out of people's field of vision, you can imagine.
After reading the Red Chamber for a long time, you will find many phenomena worth pondering. It is not surprising that Yingchun, Tanchun and Xichun study and grow together. It is not surprising that Xichun had no mother since childhood and was taken in by the old lady. Mrs. Wang is the first mother of Tanchun, and naturally she was brought up on her knees. Yingchun has no biological mother, but her biological mother is still there. There is only one bowl of soup between the two families, and Yingchun is not raised by Mrs. Xing. This is very interesting.
And what does this phenomenon bring to readers? Fortunately, I stayed in menstruation for several years (the 80th time). Before I passed by menstruation, how did her biological mother, Mrs. Xing, treat her?
That day, because the wet nurse was convicted of gambling, Yingchun felt bored and uncomfortable, and she heard someone calling her mother outside. Spring brings tea, and Mrs. Xing reprimands-
How come everyone else's is fine? Our people have done such a thing.
-You're not feeling well. He should say, since you have broken the law, you should identify yourself as a young lady. If he dares to disobey, you should come back to me. Now until outsiders know what this means.
He wants to lock up his boss. I'm afraid he will borrow some clothes and shoes from you as capital. You are soft-hearted, and you may not be able to meet him. If I am cheated by him, I will have no money, depending on how you spend your holiday tomorrow.
-You didn't fall off me. Your own brother and sister-in-law don't care about you What does your life have to do with me? However, I have no children and daughters all my life, and I am totally honest, so I can't make people laugh.
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-this is moody's several reprimands. I wonder if there are any kind readers who can appreciate a mother's half love for her daughter? I'm sorry I'm all thumbs, but all I see is shirking responsibility, scolding him for hurting his face and being glad that he has no children under his knees.
What kind of education this should be! This happened after Yingchun came of age. Then how should Mrs. Xing treat her when her mother has just died and she is still a female doll?
Probably only when you know that Yingchun has such a mother can you perceive what she means by saying "fortunately, I have lived a clean life here for several years"!
04
In the development of her life, the influence of induction on her deep bone marrow can be seen everywhere-
Granny Liu entered Guo Rongfu. Grandmother Jia hosted a banquet in the Grand View Garden in honor of Granny Liu. Yuanyang and Xifeng made fun of her on purpose. When Grandma Liu said in public, "Lao Liu, Lao Liu, eats like a cow and doesn't look up after eating an old sow", all the people present, except Baochai and Yingchun, couldn't help laughing.
Baochai has her own age and prudence. Is Yingchun's unresponsiveness just numbness? Of course, this is also an explanation. But how can I see it? Isn't this also following the principle of caring for the widowed and accumulating good deeds that can change your luck for yourself?
& lt In Preface to Jin Yuanyang San Xuan's Elegant Names, Jia Mu, Aunt Xue, Xiangyun, Baochai and Daiyu are all worthy of scrutiny.
..... Yuanyang said that the "four or five" on the left turned into nine flowers. Yingchun Road: Peach blossoms bring rain. They all said, it's time to punish! It doesn't rhyme right, and it doesn't look like it. Yingchun took a sip with a smile. It turned out that both Xifeng and Yuanyang wanted to hear Granny Liu's jokes, so they deliberately made mistakes and were punished. (40th time)
Yingchun's reaction is to take a sip with a smile. What Cao Gong wants to express is that welcoming the Spring is the first order of right and wrong; Or was she the first to listen to Yuanyang and Xifeng's arrangement and deliberately make a mistake?
Making wine with the poems and songs of "Four Books" and "Five Classics" is usually confined to the pastime of literati, and Jia Mu and others will not and do not love it.
Even a girl who can't read, Yuanyang can be an official's tooth card order, which must be a well-known form of entertainment in that era. As grandma Liu said, when the dealer is free, we often have several people to do this, rather. Let me have a try (40th time). So simple that even grandma Liu, who can't read, doesn't deserve the order. If it doesn't work, it will be unbearable. Isn't it worse than an old country woman?
I prefer to believe that this is because she deliberately listened to Xi 'an and Yuanyang's arrangement. Isn't it her pleasure?
She respects the old and loves the young. Although Mrs. Xing has never been kind to her, she still does not forget to maintain Mrs. Xing-
Wang Zhu's daughter-in-law came to Yingchun to intercede with her mother-in-law, saying that because his wife had given Xing Xiuyan a month or two's money to her parents, they had to fill in at least thirty taels for such a long time. When Yingchun heard that this daughter-in-law sent a private letter to Mrs. Xing, she quickly stopped: Stop it, stop it. Can't take golden phoenix, don't make a fuss. I don't want that phoenix either.
Yingchun is kind to others, enjoys kindness, helps others in a hurry and saves lives. Her wet nurse knows that she is a soft-faced and annoying character. Because she lost money in gambling, she took his tired chicken to pull a gambling book. She only said that her wet nurse would bring an emergency and return it in a few days. Even if she doesn't return it, she won't pursue it.
Embroidered orange and Siqi asked her to ask the wet nurse to return the goods, but she just refused. Only her urgency and kindness directly led to the arrogance and indulgence of servants. Zi Ling Island has become the most unruly and chaotic place in the whole Grand View Garden. All the minions dare to make a deal with her and make a scene in her room openly. When Yingchun saw that she couldn't stop, she took the "Tai Shang Induction" to see it.
In the book, everywhere is Ying Chun's forbearance and deception. ...
So in Baochai's eyes, she has become a dead person without self-care ability. In the mouth of a slave Xing Er, she is an idiot who can't even poke a needle.
It's just that all her efforts to change her destiny were not favored by fate, and finally she was given to the wicked by her father. No wonder she complained bitterly-
I can't believe my life is so bad!
Didn't you say that doing good can change your destiny? But why do I try my best to be perfect all my life and only have fun in the joy around me? Why does fate treat me like this?
Everything she has done in her life is based on "telepathy". She thought that her shortcomings in talent and ambition could be made up by the change of fate, and finally there was a lost corner and the ending of Sang Yu. But the result is like this. So what are these "good deeds" that she gave up half her life and has been doing with the will of others?
This is a woman who is unloved and whose values collapse.
05
It seems that in the novel, Yingchun only lived for herself once.
After the crab feast, Xiangyun nailed the poems to the wall one by one, and everyone was thinking about the topic-
Cao Gong deliberately described this moment, which is the first and only time in my memory that Yingchun is on an equal footing with other gold hairpin. At the same time, it also helped me find the long-forgotten reason for her existence as a twelve-year-old woman.
Immersed in my own small world for the first time, happily doing what I want to do. Although it was only a moment, it was also a rare touch. As Mr. Liu said in his article
At that moment in time and space, all her dignity was revealed. Didn't the universe show its profound reason for existence because of her instantaneous behavior? The best literary works are always full of philosophical thoughts and always raise the spiritual realm of readers to the height of religion. Yingchun is by no means a walk-on in a dream of red mansions. Through her tragedy, Cao Xueqin still deeply touched our hearts. He made us think deeply about how to respect the weak life bit by bit and make people's life on earth more reasonable and poetic. Those modern young women who love A Dream of Red Mansions, who among you will wear a string of jasmine flowers with needles, accompanied by soft music, as a religious ceremony to mourn those beautiful and fragile lives like the Spring Festival?
06
The end of the Spring Festival is extremely sad. Before her verdict, there was a picture of a wolf chasing a beautiful woman, which seemed to have a desire to vomit.
My son is a Zhongshan wolf. If he succeeds, he will be crazy. The golden boudoir is full of flowers and willows, and she goes to Huang Liang with one load. She was married for only a year, and then she died.
I think, the night before she died, she might feel that the energy of life was rapidly flowing away from her. I can't feel the pain in my body before.
Yingchun is almost speechless.
As I lay dying, the stars in the sky flickered, as if winking at her kindly, just like Niang's loving and gentle eyes. Yingchun felt excited and gloomy at the thought that I would see her soon.
Starlight and night gradually disappeared in her eyes, just like the grand view garden, which has fallen into a silent night at this time, as far as the eye can see.
Yingchun stopped breathing.
At the moment of dying, should she regret it?
She should hate "feeling too much" and miss her life. I hate myself for giving up myself so decisively in my life, and it didn't end well in the end.
It's just that what she may not know until her death is that kindness and kindness are not the same as being a good person.
Just like Amitabha, the three saints in the west who lead the world of bliss, Guanyin Bodhisattva is on the left and Wisdom Bodhisattva is on the right. This is telling the world that compassion must go hand in hand with wisdom.
A truly complete good deed is not connivance, not accommodation, but righteous words and a clear distinction between right and wrong. Kindness without wisdom is just stupidity, which not only can't judge others, but also can't add blessings to yourself. On the contrary, it encourages the stupidity of others and does not help Sanskrit.
However, Yingchun never had a chance to know.
Additional comments:
I have occasionally read some fragmentary words about Weiqi in historical materials. It seems that in the Wei and Jin Dynasties, Weiqi once had nicknames such as "talking by hand", "forgetting worries" and "meditation".
When you enter a game of chess, you won't realize that half a day has passed. People often sit in it, not only forgetting their troubles, but even forgetting their own existence. This is called solving troubles.
Perhaps this is the author's intention to give chess to the Spring Festival.