"Some people say that falling in love with a city is because someone you like lives in the city.
In fact, it is not the case. Falling in love with a city may be because of a vivid thing in the city. The scenery is a childhood memory, a familiar old house.
Perhaps, it is just for this city. , just love." ——Lin Huiyin
In April, in the summer when the lotus blooms, the ancient city of Hangzhou is as ordinary, simple and peaceful. However, with the cry of a baby girl, the light rain falls on the West Lake. The lotus slowly bloomed, and from then on, the woman named Lin Huiyin landed in the world.
I originally thought that this prosperous and proud ancient city would not bow down and smile for someone easily, but she happened to be that alluring woman. Only she can give the poetic and leisurely beauty of Hangzhou and the warm and clean feelings of West Lake.
Lin Huiyin has a beautiful face since he was born. His aura and intelligence are captivating. Born in a family of officials, she inherited her family's elegant and outstanding bloodline, so she was destined to have outstanding talents and peerless appearance in this life.
Compared with Zhang Ailing's coldness, arrogance and alienation, Sanmao's wild and withdrawn nature, and Lu Xiaoman's charming style, her life seems too poetic and rational.
Apart from innate factors, it is more caused by family and growth environment. Her childhood was simple and beautiful, as clear as a piece of white paper, not requiring too much embellishment. Each stroke was pure happiness.
When she was five years old, she was surrounded by the morning sun, the dusk with low twilight, and the bright moon at night. Hold a book and read a few pages of words.
Maybe she couldn’t read anything, but she fell deeply in love with books, the faint fragrance of ink, the beautiful poems, and the elegance of the lotus in the scroll. Clear sorrow.
However, not everything was going well in her childhood. God gave her an elegant and outstanding father, but gave her an ordinary mother.
Her mother received an old-fashioned education and was not good at housework. Such a woman really could not impress her father. Therefore, her mother's complaints and blame for not being favored were all thrown at little Lin Huiyin.
She began to become sentimental, knowing that the seemingly perfect and harmonious life also hid a lot of helplessness. She wants to be a talented little girl in front of her father and grandmother, and a good daughter in front of her mother. Such two sides were too heavy for her little heart.
This woman who seemed to have a plain and carefree life, no matter how much she longed for stability, was too helpless in the war years.
Moving seems to be a normal thing for her, from Hangzhou to Shanghai, Shanghai to Beijing. Later, the family moved to Tianjin, leaving her alone in Beijing.
At the age of thirteen, she may seem weak, but she has always been a strong woman. She can take care of the housework in an orderly manner, and can start writing letters to her father to tell her that everything is fine and that she can take care of her. My own youth.
It only takes a moment to meet someone, but it often takes a lifetime to fall in love with someone.
Most people believe that Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng met later than Xu Zhimo. In fact, this is not the case because the Lin and Liang families were family friends and had frequent contacts.
When Liang Sicheng was seventeen years old, he first met the fourteen-year-old Lin Huiyin at her home and fell in love at first sight. Her freshness, charm and graceful charm left a deep impression on him.
I believe that every teenager has imagined such a pure girl in his heart, longing for the joy of walking side by side and the warmth of interlocking fingers. And Lin Huiyin satisfied his and even every man's fantasy.
Perhaps, Lin Huiyin was not excited when he first met Liang Sicheng, but only felt a touch of joy and shyness. However, this meeting with Liang Sicheng became his lifelong pursuit. Lin Huiyin did not foresee that Liang Sicheng, whom she met at the age of fourteen, would be her lifelong partner.
We seem to have this misunderstanding, thinking that women like Lin Huiyin should stay in the Jiangnan water town all their lives, choose a stable residence, and build a curtain of dreams.
But I think every woman may have to go through some intense experiences to make her beauty more mature and shocking.
Therefore, she will finally say goodbye to Jiangnan and start to migrate from now on. This kind of migration is not wandering, but adapts to the times and is a self-exile.
In the spring of 1920, Lin Changmin went to England for inspection, and Lin Huiyin followed his father to study in London.
London, London, passionate London, where Lin Huiyin met the passionate Xu Zhimo. In fact, many people think that he is not only sentimental, but also ruthless, and even more unfeeling.
When I met Lin Huiyin, he was twenty-four years old and she was sixteen, married and the father of a two-year-old child. He is cold and callous towards his wife Zhang Youyi who had an arranged marriage, as cold as water. He always wants to climb out of the grave of marriage and pursue the love in his heart.
And Lin Huiyin is the beauty in his mind, the true love he has been looking for throughout his life. He fell in love with her loving and clear eyes and her graceful temperament.
Zhang Youyi lowered her eyebrows and bowed her head for him, and had no regrets about giving birth to a child. But he wrote countless sincere poems for Lin Huiyin, and was willing to be a plant beside her skirt, accompanying her affectionately.
Because of Xu Zhimo’s indifference to Zhang Youyi, Lin Huiyin was nicknamed the “green tea bitch”.
Maybe, she was really wrong. She was wrong because she did not keep her heart as calm as water, but fell in love at first sight with Xu Zhimo's handsome face, elegant demeanor and poet's temperament.
It’s not that anyone is too ruthless, but that people are passionate in nature, and passionate people will plant more antecedents, but they can only bear all the consequences themselves.
Since that encounter, they began to fall in love in the hazy London. Sitting in front of the warm fireplace, chatting about words, music, reality, dreams, yesterday, and tomorrow. There are too many like-minded people and too much sympathy.
I believe everyone knows Xu Zhimo's "Farewell to Cambridge", and many people know about Lin Huiyin and Xu Zhimo's love for Cambridge, and how they supported a long pole in the soft waves of Kangqiao to express their love for each other. The grass is greener and longer.
Without this love, perhaps there would be no "Farewell to Cambridge". This poem describing the soft waves of the Cam River not only expresses Xu Zhimo's reluctance to leave Cambridge, but also his inability to forget that time. A tender feeling like water.
Lin Huiyin and Xu Zhimo fell in love so deeply and romantically in Cambridge that they could hardly forget that their meeting was actually a beautiful mistake.
But Lin Huiyin is a sober woman after all. She had no way to marry a married man, let alone hurt the kind-hearted Zhang Youyi. She had no hostility towards the woman she had never met before, but more pity.
Some people know they shouldn’t love, but they still want to love; some people make mistakes that they know will be unforgivable, but they continue to make mistakes.
However, as quiet as Lin Huiyin, she did not want to make any more mistakes. Therefore, she chose to cruelly abandon this sworn love.
She left London without saying goodbye. However, no matter how heartbroken Xu Zhimo was, she still left him behind. Everyone felt that her turn around was too decisive and too hasty.
She originally thought that by pulling away so quickly, she would not be hurt. However, she was still injured. She fled in a hurry from a first love that she cherished for a long time, and she didn't even have time to say goodbye. How could she remain unscathed if she was so determined?
But like Qing Jue, even if she is injured, she will not reveal the scar to the public hysterically. She hides herself very well.
Because, she finally understood that happiness is everyone’s happiness, and sadness is one person’s sadness. She obviously loves deeply, but she has to pretend to be lighthearted; even though she is in unbearable pain, she still has to hide it deeply.
Some people say that she is a cowardly woman who does not have the courage to pay more for love. However, if she does not choose to bear the pain and give up love, the world will accuse her of being a person who steals love with a knife.
She knew deeply that she and Xu Zhimo were destined to have no good outcome. So she wants to make a gorgeous turn when this love is not falling apart, so that both of them can remember this short-lived but sweet beauty.
Xu Zhimo actually knew the reason for her leaving. He knew that his marriage was a barrier that hindered his pursuit of happiness. He thought that as long as he divorced Zhang Youyi and became an innocent person, he could win her heart back.
But he was wrong. Lin Huiyin was Lin Huiyin. Once he turned around, he could not go back, and nothing could go back.
In the end, he got his wish and divorced Zhang Youyi. In his opinion, even if Lin Huiyin never looked back, the marriage must be divorced. He believed that a union without feelings is the greatest tragedy in the world, even cruel. of purgatory. Only letting go is kindness to each other and a generous relief to the soul.
In this way, Xu Zhimo threw a heartless divorce document in front of Zhang Youyi. Even though she was pregnant at the time, he walked away, leaving her unaccompanied in Boston. .
How ruthless and decisive he was, made people in the world feel that no matter how talented he was, people could not help but feel resentment and blame.
And all this is because of Lin Huiyin. Therefore, Lin Huiyin always felt guilty for Zhang Youyi. In fact, no one is wrong, it's all destiny. You can't avoid it when you come, and you can't keep it when you leave.
Later, Xu Zhimo returned to China and met Lin Huiyin again. Now a free man, he still missed her. He also confidently thought that Lin Huiyin might return to him.
However, he didn't seem to particularly understand how indifferent and forbearing Lin Huiyin was. When she met his eyes again, it was as if nothing had happened. He finally understood that the past was like smoke blown away in the wind, becoming a helpless memory.
Perhaps many men cannot understand that stability is more important than love to many mortal women.
And perhaps only Liang Sicheng could give Lin Huiyin that happy stability.
Liang Sicheng knew very well the subtle relationship between her and Xu Zhimo, but he also knew that he and Xu Zhimo were just plants on the side of Lin Huiyin's beautiful skirt, but he was the first to win, and he and Lin Huiyin They have more time together, and Lin Huiyin also likes the down-to-earth comfort of being with him, even though there is not much romance, there is just ordinary happiness.
It was a car accident that promoted the relationship between Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng. She became distraught when she learned that he had been in a car accident. Dare to go to the hospital to take care of him in a hurry, she began to help him wipe his sweat without hesitation. They had never been closer since their love, and this car accident made Lin Huiyin deeply understand that she and Liang Sicheng could not separate easily.
In fact, we all understand that there are gains and losses when choosing. Choosing Liang Sizheng means long-term success, and choosing Xu Zhimo means poetry. But what Lin Huiyin wanted after all was fireworks and happiness, so he was destined to rub shoulders with Xu Zhi in this life.
Later, Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng both went abroad and studied at the University of Pennsylvania, living a life that was both salty and salty, warm and cold. At this time, Xu Zhimo began to have a beautiful encounter and profound reunion with Lu Xiaoman.
Lu Xiaoman, who had an unfortunate married life, met Xu Zhimo, who was frustrated in love. They were both homeless people in the world. The two lonely and helpless boats found the same docking shore.
Lu Xiaoman is different from Lin Huiyin. Although she is a famous lady in the capital, she is elegant, ostentatious, charming and rebellious. For the sake of love, she would divorce herself at all costs, abort her unborn baby, and vow to die with Xu Zhimo.
In October 1926, Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman finally achieved success after overcoming many obstacles.
We all wonder, will Lin Huiyin be sad? Will you cry? Maybe, but she knew that she couldn't be so selfish. She couldn't fail to give Xu Zhimo a promise and hope that he would silently protect and love her forever. Therefore, she could only wish. Even if you are extremely disappointed and sad, you should hide it in your heart, swallow that cup of bitter wine alone, and not talk about it to anyone.
Perhaps for Lin Huiyin, the combination of Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman can make her marry Liang Sicheng more peacefully. From now on, she no longer needs to feel ashamed of Xu Zhimo, but can also become his lifelong confidant.
Maybe everything should be settled, you have your harbor and I have my destination.
In March 1928, 24-year-old Lin Huiyin married Liang Sicheng. They finally got their wish and got married and lived a long life together.
Before the marriage, Liang Sicheng asked Lin Huiyin: "There is a sentence, I will only ask this once, and I will never ask it again in the future. Why me?" Lin Huiyin replied: "The answer is very long, and I will spend my whole life answering it. Are you ready to listen to me? "The mysterious woman made a mysterious promise, so what reason did Liang Sicheng have not to wait and protect her for the rest of his life?
Life after marriage is dull and happy. Although it does not have unlimited scenery, it is also suitable for mountains and rivers. A happy family and a successful career, I think this is enough to pay for the life she wants.
Among the three men Lin Huiyin loved, the one who loved her most was not Xu Zhimo or Liang Sicheng, but Jin Yuelin. The man who protected her with affection throughout her life. He always stays with her without asking for anything in return. He loves her rationality, calmness and depth of love.
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I have no way of imagining that Liang Sicheng loved her so generously. He said to Lin Huiyin: "You are free. If you choose Lao Jin, I wish you happiness forever."
After hearing these words, Lin Huiyin suddenly realized, how could she be greedy for temporary novelty and abandon this man who gave her stability and happiness?
When Jin Yuelin knew what Liang Sicheng said, he said: "It seems that Sicheng really loves you. I can't hurt someone who really loves you. I should quit."
< p> From then on, the three of them became lifelong friends.In fact, none of the three of them really loved her. Xu Zhimo's love was lingering and passionate, Liang Sicheng's love was peaceful and warm, and Jin Yuelin's love was affectionate and touching.
Jin Yuelin’s love for Lin Huiyin really lasted his whole life. After Lin Huiyin died, Liang Sicheng replaced his student Lin Zhu. But Jin Yuelin never married because of her.
We meet each other everywhere in life, but sometimes we turn around, it really lasts a lifetime, and we will never see each other again from now on.
In 1931, Lin Huiyin rested in the mountains due to lung disease, but that year was also the saddest year in her life.
Xu Zhimo took a plane to attend her lecture, but unfortunately it crashed. Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng never waited for his arrival at the airport.
Just like that, the man she loved passionately in her youth left her forever.
Some people think that Xu Zhimo’s death was Lin Huiyin’s fault. If he had not attended her academic lectures, such an accident would not have happened; others say that it was because of Lu Xiaoman, because Lu Xiaoman was extravagant after marriage. He has to run around to make money, and he will not take cheap and unsafe planes.
However, Xu Zhimo’s death was not his fate. God gave him an unparalleled talent, and he must exchange it with his most precious life. It is said that beauties have a bad fate, and God is jealous of talented people. So we should cherish our ordinaryness.
Xu Zhimo’s death was undoubtedly a great pain for Lin Huiyin. She burst into tears countless times without us knowing.
Each of us is the most generous to his first love, and it is also the most unforgettable. So maybe Lin Huiyin spent the rest of his life carrying the guilt for Xu Zhimo.
Many people may not know Lin Huiyin’s career achievements. For the sake of her architectural career, she and Liang Sicheng traveled thousands of miles to study ancient architecture day and night.
During the war years, she followed Liang Sicheng everywhere with her sick bones, experiencing hardships and hardships, but never complained.
Although she longed for stability, she still lived a wandering life. However, she was still defeated in the face of the disease. Her strong body could no longer support her love for architecture.
The lung disease that had been bothering her broke out during the journey. However, this disease lasted for four years, and she was bedridden for four years. She is no longer an April day in the world, and her face is increasingly haggard.
However, she still could not let go of her career. She stayed in bed and wrote "History of Chinese Architecture". She was hired as a first-level professor at Tsinghua University and participated in the design of the national emblem.
In order to design the national emblem, she forgot to eat and sleep every day, which exhausted her physical strength. With her personality, she would not hesitate to advance her future and shorten her lifespan.
As for the last few years of her life, she made countless achievements in architecture. In those years, she seemed to have stopped thinking about the past, putting all her energy into her career, no longer immersed in vain emotions, and no longer care about success or failure.
This seemingly weak woman actually has a stronger heart than anyone else.
There is no such thing as a feast that lasts forever, and this bright star that bloomed in April was ultimately unable to withstand the torment of illness and died in the April day in the human world that she had loved all her life.
She has loved three men in her life, loving them soberly and calmly.
Xu Zhimo wandered around Cambridge for her, lovingly waiting for an old dream to return. Liang Sicheng walked hand in hand with her through thousands of mountains and rivers, and met each other to fulfill their mission. Jin Yuelin never married for her and stayed with her forever.
You are the April sky in the world, the clouds in the April morning, the white lotus that you look forward to in dreams, love and warmth... The woman who wrote this poem is Lin Huiyin.
As for the evaluation of her by future generations, whether it is praise or criticism, whether it is a "green tea bitch" or a "white lotus", maybe we should all look at it with a generous heart. After all, she has turned into a butterfly among the flowers, blooming on the sunny day in April with Zhuang Zhou's dream from more than two thousand years ago.