In fact, before Li Qingzhao wrote this poem, she already had too much joy.
Li Qingzhao was born into an official family in the seventh year of Yuanfeng, Song Shenzong (1084). His father Li, a scholar and writer, is an official in North Korea. His position is not low, and he is also a student of Su Dongpo. Mother is also a noble family, good at literature. Such a background was very valuable to a woman at that time. Influenced by the official family and political activities, she has a broad vision and noble temperament. Influenced by literature and art, she can perceive life and experience beauty more deeply and subtly. Because there can't be photos handed down from generation to generation, we don't know her appearance now. But according to this background and referring to the charm revealed in her later poems, she should be a born beauty embryo. Almost since Li Qingzhao was sensible, she began to accept the aesthetic training of China traditional culture. Almost at the same time, she was writing, judging others and studying literary theory. She will not only enjoy beauty, but also control it, and suddenly leap to a high starting point, and she is still a girl waiting for words.
Please look at these three words:
[Huanxisha] Embroiders hibiscus and smiles, and leans on the fragrant cheeks of abalone flying ducks. Oh, I don't know On the one hand, it is full of charm, on the other hand, it is charming and hateful, giving you a deep affection. (Baoya, hairstyle. )
[Huanxisha] The spring is chilly, the jade stove sinks the hookah, and the dream returns to the mountain pillow to hide flowers. Swallows haven't come yet, so we are playing games on the grass. The willows are falling, and the plum blossoms are dying. In the evening drizzle, the swing in the garden will not swing. (Shenshui, Xiangming; Fighting grass, a game. )
[Little crimson lips] Stop shaking and get up and adjust your delicate hands. Beside her, the thin Germany hung with crystal dew, and the sweat on her chest permeated with the thin silk robe. As soon as the guests came in, the socks shoveled away. She ran away shyly and leaned against the door, smelling the fragrance of plum flowers. (socks, no shoes. )
An innocent girl, with sweet hair, beautiful face, seeds of love and budding spring, is hard to contain. She lay in the boudoir, or watched Shen Xiang curl up, or got up to write a love letter, and then went to the backyard to play with her partner for a while.
Darling's daughter, the official's home, enjoyed a comfortable life and got a certain education, which is not surprising in the feudal society for thousands of years. Surprisingly, Li Qingzhao didn't know the characters as usual, was proficient in needle embroidery, and then waited to get married. She has enjoyed all her father's books, and the juice of culture makes her beautiful not only externally, but also internally. She has mastered the rhythm of poetry as freely as fighting grass and swinging. And judging historical figures, there is a block in the chest and the atmosphere is like a rainbow.
The Anshi Rebellion between Kaiyuan and Tianbao in the Tang Dynasty and its pacification was an important event in the history of China, and there were many comments from later generations. Jie Yuan, a poet in the Tang Dynasty, wrote the famous Ode to the Prosperous Tang Dynasty, and asked Yan Zhenqing, a great calligrapher, to engrave it on the wall, which was called "Two Wonders". Contemporary with Li Qingzhao, Zhang Wenqian, one of the "Four Bachelor of Sumen", was a famous poet. He once wrote a poem for this monument and sighed: "Heaven sent two sons to the future, and the mountain is ten feet high. Who came into my room with this tablet computer made me dizzy at first sight. " This poem went to the boudoir, entered the embroiderer's home, and reached Li Qingzhao's ear. She immediately agreed with a poem: "Fifty years of achievements are like electric sweeping, and Huaqing Liuliu is in Xianyang Grass. I don't know how old I am in the pile of wine and meat. Hu Bing suddenly fell from the sky, but he was also a treacherous man. Walking in front of the Qinzheng Building, Zhuyu stepped on the fragrant dust. Whatever battle is invincible, it is said that litchi will die. Yao Gong Shunde is like a sky, using just words. It's ugly to write inscriptions, and ghosts grind cliffs. "You see, the imposing manner of this poem doesn't seem to come from a boudoir woman. Describe the scene, evaluate the merits and demerits, lament the world, and don't let Li Bai and Xin Qiji, who are romantic and unrestrained. When Li Fuge Fei first saw this poem, he was very surprised. This poem spread to the outside world and caused a great sensation among scholars. Li Jiayou's daughter has just grown up. The young girl Li Qingzhao quietly enjoys the beautiful aura of being spoiled and talented.
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2 reply: ZT beauty god in troubled times (Liang Heng)
Love is the most wonderful chapter in life. It is a ferry, from which a person will start, from teenagers to youth, from the warm wings of parents to independent life, including the continuation of new life. So it is full of anxiety of expectation, sparks of collision, warmth and sadness of failure. It can play the most complicated and shocking symphony. Many great people's lives shine at this moment.
When Li Qingzhao fell in love with all the happiness that a boudoir girl can get, her beautiful life, by going up one flight of stairs, left us a love classic. Her love is not like Romeo and Juliet in the west or butterfly lovers in the east. It's not the kind of sweetness that you can enjoy only after you die, but the starting point is very high. From the beginning, she fell into the honey pot, stood on the top of the mountain and lived in the Crystal Palace. Zhao Mingcheng, her husband, is a dashing teenager, and they are literary confidants and congenial. Zhao Mingcheng's father is also an official, and the two families are suitable. What is even more rare is that apart from the elegance of poetry, chess, calligraphy and painting of ordinary literati, they also have a more congenial professional combination point-epigraphy research. In the feudal era when free love was not allowed, they could only rely on the words of matchmakers and the wishes of their parents. It is a godsend that they can have such a one-in-a-million love ending. Just as Lu You's Hairpin Phoenix left us with the sadness of love, Li Qingzhao left us with the other end of love-the sweetness of love. This love story, moved by Li Qingzhao's wonderful pen, has become the spiritual enjoyment of China people for thousands of years.
Please look at this song "Minus Magnolia":
When you sell flowers, you can buy a spring flower. Tears are lightly dyed evenly, and rosy clouds are exposed.
Afraid lang guessed that a slave's face was not as good as a flower's. The clouds are slanting, and I want to teach Lang Biguan.
This is the sweetness of marriage and the coquetry of her husband. It also revealed her confidence in her beauty.
Look at this farewell work "A Piece of Plum":
Red lotus root is fragrant, and jade is lingering in autumn. Who sent the brocade book, the word geese returned, and the moon was full of the West Building.
Flowers from Shui Piao to water, one kind of lovesickness, two places of leisure. There is no way to eliminate this situation, only frown and mind.
Sadness is inseparable. The deeper you love, the more you think. The other is sweet secret chewing.
More importantly, Li Qingzhao is by no means an ordinary little woman who can only sigh a few words. She practiced literature in an empty room and perfected the art, so this most common way of expressing love became a proposition creation competition between husband and wife and a record of their climbing the artistic peak.
Please look at this song "Drunken Flower Yin Chongyang":
The mist is thick and the clouds are thick, and the days are sad. Kapoor is among the birds in the incense burner. The festival is also a double ninth festival, and the jade pillow gauze kitchen is half cold at night. Dongli drinks until dusk, and faint chrysanthemum fragrance overflows his sleeves. Don't say clear autumn is not a person, the west wind rolls the flag and beads curtain, and the person in the curtain is thinner than that Huang Ju.
This is a letter from the Prime Minister that Li Qingzhao sent to Zhao Mingcheng when he was not at home. I deeply love each other and miss each other, and I am vividly shown by the autumn wind and yellow flowers. After receiving this poem, Zhao Mingcheng Shi Zi was moved at first, and then excited by the artistic power of the poem, vowing to write a poem beyond his wife. He closed the door and collected 50 poems in three days. He mixed Li's poems into it and asked his friends to comment. I didn't expect his friend to say that only three sentences are the best: "Don't forget the Tao, the curtain rolls west wind, and people are thinner than yellow flowers." Zhao bi sighed. This story is very popular. You can imagine how the couple enjoyed the harmony and sweetness of piano and harp in their mutual love. This also makes all talented men and women who can't get the corresponding love quality feel a little sad. Li Qingzhao recalled that life in the preface to the Story of the Stone and said, "I want to remember that after every meal, I have to sit in class, look up the accumulation of book history, and say that something is on the first line of the first page of a volume, and winning or losing is the order of drinking tea. Hold up a cup and laugh until the tea turns over, but you can't drink it. " What happiness, what joy, what a sweet word. This honey-like life nourishes her elegant charm and vigorous artistic creation.
But God has long discovered Li Qingzhao's broader artistic talent. If she is only allowed to write a little bit about in my heart forever's leisure worries in this way, China's history and literature will pass by her in vain. So the universe exploded, time and space stirred, and the new personality test and new proposition creation were pushed to Li Qingzhao together.
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3 Reply: ZT Gone with the Beauty God (Liang Heng)
167 After the peaceful and prosperous times of the "Riverside Scene at Qingming Festival" in the Song Dynasty, a nomadic people appeared in the north. The Jin people destroyed the Jade Garden in Qionglou, the capital of Bianjing (Kaifeng), and took away the Emperor Hui and Qin. A.D. 1 127 Zhao Songcang fled to the south, which started a page of national humiliation in the history of China. Li Qingzhao's love nest in Qingzhou, Shandong Province also fell apart, and the family began a wandering life. In the second year of Du Nan, Zhao Mingcheng was appointed as the health magistrate. I don't want national humiliation at this time. One night, there was a rebellion in the city. As a local governor, Zhao Mingcheng did not take the lead in directing the suppression of chaos, but secretly escaped from the city with a rope. After the matter was settled, he was dismissed by the court. Li Qingzhao, a weak woman, showed integrity in this matter and was ashamed of her husband's departure. After Zhao was dismissed, the couple continued to go into exile along the Yangtze River in the direction of Jiangxi. It's hard to avoid some embarrassment all the way, losing the sum of fish and water in the past. In wujiang town, Li Qingzhao learned that this was the place where Xiang Yu committed suicide after his defeat. She felt a surge of emotion surge, facing the vast river, she sang this eternal swan song:
Live and be a man among men; Die and become the soul in the soul. Today, people still miss Xiang Yu because he refused to live and returned to the East.
The husband listened to the sound of the stone behind him, ashamed on his face and deeply remorse in his heart. In the following year (1 129), Zhao Mingcheng was recalled to Beijing to resume his post, but died of an acute illness.
People can't live without love, women like flowers can't live without love, and poetesss with rich feelings can't live without love. Just as her art tree thrived under the juice of love, God ruthlessly cut off her love. As soon as Li Qingzhao understood love, she was loved by her family. Now she is trapped in a dry river bed. How can she not worry?
After losing her home, Li Qingzhao began three hardships in her later years.
The first big tribulation is remarriage and divorce, and the pain of emotional life.
After Zhao Mingcheng's death, Li Qingzhao had no fixed place and was physically and mentally haggard. I soon married a man named Zhang Ruzhou. There are different opinions about why Li Qingzhao remarried, but the hardship of living alone is probably the main reason. This Zhang Ruzhou is also a polite gentleman at first contact. Zhang took good care of her after marriage, but she soon showed her true colors. It turned out that he wanted to possess the cultural relics left by Li Qingzhao. Li regards these things as life, and The Records of the Stone has not yet been compiled into a book. Of course not. In Zhang's view, since you and I are married, your body and everything you have belong to me and are at my disposal. What will you pursue independently? At first, they had a conflict in the control of cultural relics, and gradually found that their ambitions and interests were quite different. That's weird, strange bedfellows. Zhang Ruzhou was proud of having such a beautiful woman, and then she was angry because she couldn't capture her heart and control her behavior. Finally, he completely tore off the veil of the literati and punched each other. In front of the tent, under the red candle, Li Qingzhao looked at this small white face and was really angry. Once the sea was difficult for water, I was noble and did not bow my head. Li Qingzhao regards personality as more important than life, so she decided to break up with him. But in feudal society, it is difficult for women to get divorced. In desperation, Li Qingzhao embarked on a blind alley, larger foe, and reported Zhang Ruzhou's crime of bullying the monarch.
It turned out that Zhang Ruzhou was so proud to brag about cheating in the imperial examination after marrying Li Qingzhao. This is of course a big mistake. Li Qingzhao knows that only by suing Zhang Ruzhou for a crime can she get out of this trap. But according to the law of the Song Dynasty, if a woman sues her husband, she will go to jail for two years regardless of winning or losing. Li Qingzhao is a person who can't make do with her emotional life. She would rather suffer physical pain than mental slavery. Once she saw through each other's souls, she showed ruthless contempt and deep regret. In a letter to a friend, she said: "The night view of Sang Yu is very suitable for that inferior material." . What a strong-willed person she is, she would rather go to prison than associate with stubborn people. As a result of this lawsuit, Zhang Ruzhou was sent to Liuzhou and Li Qingzhao was also imprisoned. We now imagine the moment when Li Qingzhao stood up in the lobby of Lyon and put her slender and weak hands in chains for the freedom of marriage. Her resolute and peaceful attitude is no less than when Xiang Yu led his neck to the sword. Maybe Li Qingzhao's reputation is too great. At that time, many people paid attention to this matter. With the help of friends from the DPRK and China, Li was released after only nine days in prison. But it left a heavy scar in her heart.
Today, the separation of men and women is legal and reasonable, but in the Song Dynasty, a woman, especially a scholar, remarried and divorced, which would cause great discrimination from public opinion. At that time and later, many historical records affirmed Li Qingzhao's talent, and at the same time, they were all recorded as "not ending the festival", "not doing exercises" and "wandering around the festival". What is a festival? That is, no matter how good or bad, women have to follow this man, but you are not allowed to pursue individuality. It can be seen how much psychological pressure our poetess suffered at that time. But she's not afraid. She insists on independent personality and high-quality love. In two months, she cut the gordian knot, got rid of Zhang Ruzhou's "embarrassment" burden and devoted herself to the compilation of Jin Shilu. Now that we have read this historical material, I can't believe it happened in the Song Dynasty nearly a thousand years ago, but it seems like a new anti-feudal woman in the May 4th Movement.
Life is only once for a person, so how many times does love have for a person? Probably the most beautiful and worrying thing is only once. Love is an extremely dangerous experiment in the boat of life, an experiment that gambles youth, talent, time and career. Only a few people succeeded the first time. Like the lucky ones who won the lottery, I am secretly glad of my luck and call it "fate". At the same time, he looked at the failure or semi-failure of other beings with sympathy and compassion. Li Qingzhao originally belongs to this type, but if God wants to be famous, he must first seize his feelings and suffer his heart. So I kicked her out of this happy family. First let Zhao Mingcheng leave her, and then sent a Zhang Ruzhou to test her mind. She sailed a lonely boat of life to meet the evil waves of the world, and made a good war with the courage to cross the rubicon. It turns out that love failed once and then succeeded again. There are many more beautiful people, such as Sima Xiangru and Zhuo Wenjun. Li Qingzhao was going to climb Ai Feng again, but unfortunately, she didn't climb this ridge. This is a tragedy. The spark of love in a woman's heart goes out forever. How can this not make her depressed and worry?
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Li Qingzhao's second major ordeal was physical and mental displacement and fleeing everywhere.
11In August of 29, her husband Zhao Mingcheng just passed away. In September, Jin Bing committed a crime in the south. Li Qingzhao began to flee with heavy books and cultural relics. She basically followed the escape route of the emperor, and the monarch was the representative of the country. But the poor and hateful emperor Zhao Gou didn't realize this. He represents not the country but his own life. He fled from Jiankang, passing through Yuezhou, Mingzhou, Fenghua, Ninghai and Taizhou, and fled all the way, drifting at sea and crossing the sea to Wenzhou. Li Qingzhao, a widowed woman, eagerly pursued the direction of the monarch's departure, hired a boat for help, visited relatives and friends, and carried books and cultural relics collected by her and Zhao Mingcheng all her life, so she struggled to persist. Zhao Mingcheng entrusted these cultural relics before his death, even if he laid down his life, he could not lose them. Moreover, The Story of the Stone has not yet been published, which is the spiritual sustenance of her life. She also had an idea that it was really difficult for her to preserve these cultural relics in the war, hoping to catch them and give them to the court, but she never caught up with the emperor. She wandered to Quzhou in June of that year165438+1October, and went to Yuezhou in March of the following year. During this period, her 2,000 books and 2,000 rubbings stored in Hongzhou were burned and looted by the invading southern nomads. When I went to Yuezhou, five boxes of cultural relics I carried with me were stolen by thieves. 1130165438+In October, the emperor saw that too many people behind him were not conducive to escape, so he simply ordered his dismissal. Looking at the dragon flag dragon boat disappearing into the vast sea, Li Qingzhao was even more disappointed. According to the concept of feudal society, the state is land, monarch and people. Today, the people account for half of the country, and the monarch makes the people flee in a hurry and the people are displaced. The country is no longer a country and the king is no longer a king. She is a person with nowhere to stand, how can she not make a big fuss? Li Qingzhao's body and mind are suffering in the oil pan of history.
About when she took refuge in Wenzhou, she wrote this song "Adding Words and Picking Mulberry Seeds":
Who planted banana trees in front of the window? The atrium is overcast. Yin fills the heart, Ye Er relaxed and affectionate. Sad pillow night rain, a little light rain. A little rain, worried about the loss that northerners can't understand.
What kind of people are northerners? They are vagrants and extinct people, and Li Qingzhao is one of them. In the history of China, most foreign invasions were from the north to the south, so the flight of "northerners" is not only a literary phenomenon, but also a historical phenomenon. "I am worried about hurting northerners and I am not used to listening." What did we hear? I heard Zu Ti's cry of hitting the water in the middle stream, Lu You's sigh that "the adherents shed tears and looked south at Julian Waghann for another year", Xin Qiji's helplessness of "looking back, there was a crow club drum under the beaver temple", and I seemed to hear the sad song that "my home is on the Songhua River".
In A.D. 1 134, the Jin people invaded the south again and abandoned the capital and fled. Li Qingzhao's second exile in Jinhua. The national fortune is difficult, and I am worried. Someone asked her to visit the nearby Shuangxi Scenic Area. She sighed and didn't want to travel.
The wind has stopped the dust, the fragrant flowers have blossomed, and I am tired of combing my hair at night. The thing is that people do nothing and feel like crying. It is said that Shuangxi Spring is still good, and it is also planned to make canoes. I'm afraid the ship can't carry much worry.
Wulingchun
Li Qingzhao has no fixed place in exile, the country is divided and the situation is different in different places. The worry is that a boat can't walk. This reminds us of Du Fu's poem "The petals flow like tears, and the lonely bird mourns" in his escape. Li Qingzhao's sorrow at this time is no longer the family sorrow and emotional sorrow of "a kind of lovesickness and two leisure places". Now that the country is ruined, it's really old worry, and it's hard to find it if you want to find it. At this time, she is the worry of "Mi Li" in The Book of Songs, the worry of Xin Qiji's "knowing the taste now" and the great worry of the country and the nation. She is worried about the sky.
Li Qingzhao abides by the old adage "Poetry expresses ambition, Song always speaks". What she sings in her poems is mainly an emotion, but what she directly expresses in her poems is her own mind, ambition, likes and dislikes. Because of her name, most people only see her sad side. If we read her poems, we can better understand the anguish, struggle and pursuit behind her words and know what she is worried about.
In A.D. 1 133, Emperor Gaozong suddenly remembered to send someone to the State of Jin to visit Huidi and Qin Emperor and ask about the possibility of making peace. But when I heard that I was going to enter the realm of tigers and wolves, no one dared to violate it for a while. Seeing this, Minister Han Xiaoyou volunteered to take a risk. Li Qingzhao cares about state affairs day and night. She was very excited, and her sadness suddenly turned into hope and pride, so she made a long poem as a gift. In the preface, she said: "Those who have a comfortable home are all from the Han family, but now their family background is declining and their son's surname is humble, so they dare not look down on the public car dust. Poor and sick, but the immortal is not weak. When you see this big list, you can't forget the words, write a chapter about the past, and write a poem. "At that time, she was a poor, sick, haggard, single and widowed woman, but she was still so concerned about state affairs. Needless to say, she has no position in the DPRK, and even in society, it is not her turn to discuss these things. But she still stood up and loudly praised Han Xiaoyu's awe-inspiring move: "I am willing to serve heaven and earth, and I am willing to serve the palace master. "Take the purple mud imperial edict and go straight to Huanglong City." "Stripping has been warmed by Hann, and it is not easy to leave Song." As a folk widow, she wants to send a few parting words: "where is the married woman?" She poured her blood into writing a book and said, "I don't want anything from Sui and Zhu, but only new knowledge of local customs." "In recent years, my children and grandchildren have traveled south and gradually drifted away from others. I want to send blood and tears to the mountains and rivers and sprinkle a mound of soil on Dongshan. "
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Jinhua, Zhejiang is a famous building named after eight poems written by Shen Yue in the Southern and Northern Dynasties. Li took refuge here and went upstairs to see the rest of the southern part of the country. He couldn't help but feel in the breeze:
The eternal romantic eight wings, Jiangshan left behind. The water flows three thousand miles south, and the barometric river has fourteen states. The name of the Eight Wing Building
We only look at the momentum of this poem, not like it was written by a wandering woman. Just like a general who is eager to recover lost territory or a courtier who cares about the country and the people. That year, I went to Jinhua to pay tribute to this famous building. Over time, this building has been squeezed into a deep alley by later houses, but it also stands out from the crowd and its character is not reduced. An old man who looks after the building is also a fan of Li Qingzhao. He told me several folk versions of Li Qingzhao's story and gave me several pages of newly collected handwritten Li Ci. I looked up at the dangerous building and looked down at the alley. I deeply feel that the poet's soul can't walk away and grow up in the world. During her refuge in Jinhua, Li Qingzhao also wrote a poem "The Ode to Motor". "Beating horses" was originally a gambling game at that time, but Li used the title to give full play to the allusions of famous ministers and generals in history, described the momentum of Jin Ge beating horses, and condemned his incompetence. At the end of the article, I expressed my martyr's ambition in his later years:
"Mulan is a good girl. She is old and has no ambition. I hope to cross the Huaihe River! "
From these poems, we can see that she is really "too modest to worry about the country" and how much she cares about the country and the people. "I wish I had crossed the Huaihe River" reminds us of Zuxun's "Smell of Phoenix Dance" and Zong Ze, a famous anti-Jin Dachen in the Northern Song Dynasty. Before he died, he sat and shouted: Cross the river! This is the cry of a poetess and a "married woman"! This is quite different from her early carefree sadness. This kind of worry, the pain of the nation, and how many political worries there are.
Later generations' evaluation of Li Qingzhao often ends with her melancholy, but I don't know that in her heart, she always braved the spark of resistance and shouted for her ideals. She is worried that she can't see the way out! She doesn't obey powerful people and doesn't do anything against her will. She is a relative of Qin Gui, the powerful minister of the dynasty, and Qin Gui's wife is her second uncle's daughter and cousin. But Li Qingzhao has nothing to do with them. Even in the most difficult time of her marriage, she would rather invite distant relatives than visit the Qin family. When Fu Qin was completed, she refused to attend the grand banquet of relatives and friends. She is not satisfied with "learning shocking sentences in poetry", but "sending blood and tears to mountains and rivers" She hopes to recover lost ground and "go straight to Huanglong City with purple mud". But what did she see? It is the false prosperity of the capital of Qing 'an, the strange thing that the court suppressed people with lofty ideals and persecuted loyal officials, and the cry of blood and tears of leading soldiers and national righteous people. 1 14 1 year, that is, when Li Qingzhao was 58 years old, Yue Fei was imprisoned and killed by Qin Gui. This case shocked the capital and shook the whole country, and dark clouds enveloped the city, causing sorrow everywhere. Li Qingzhao was restless, and our poetess fell into deeper sadness.
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The third great tribulation that Li Qingzhao encountered was loneliness beyond time and space.
The pain of emotional life and worries about the country and the nation pushed her into the deep sea of suffering, and she swayed helplessly in the wind and waves like a lonely boat. But if there are only these two points, it is not the most painful, loneliness and cold. Originally, it was inevitable for divorced people in life; Loyalists and ministers are abandoned and passed down from generation to generation. What's more, she is a weak woman, born in troubled times? The problem is that it is so difficult for her to realize the value of an ordinary person besides suffering from national disaster and emotional troubles. In her twilight years, Li Qingzhao, childless, guarded a lonely small courtyard and had no relatives around her. State affairs are difficult to ask, and family matters are afraid to be mentioned again. Only the autumn wind sweeps the yellow leaves in front of the door, and occasionally one or two old friends visit. She has a friend named Sun. Her little daughter is ten years old and very smart. One day, when the children came to play, Li Qingzhao told her that you should learn something. I am old and willing to teach me what I have learned all my life. I don't want my child to blurt out, "It's not a woman's business to have talent." Li Qingzhao couldn't help but gasp. She felt dizzy and held the door frame to avoid falling. The child's words are unbridled. It turns out that talented women in this society are really redundant. However, she cares about state affairs, writes books, preaches and teaches to solve doubts, and has always been extravagant. She has a large collection of cultural relics. She learned a lot in Beijing and used many words. In the end, she ended up with nowhere to serve the country, nowhere to trust, nowhere to study, and others looked at her strangely. Li Qingzhao felt as if she had fallen into an abyss irrelevant in all directions, and a terrible sense of loneliness came to her. No one in this world can read her mind. Like Sister Xianglin, she walked blankly among the fallen leaves and yellow flowers in late autumn in Hangzhou and sang this song "Slow Voice", which condensed her life and pain and established her position in the history of China literature:
Looking around, lonely and sad. It's the hardest to stop breathing when it's warm and cold. Three glasses and two glasses of wine, how can you compare with it? It's too late to worry. Guo Yan is very sad, but this is an old acquaintance. The yellow flowers are piled all over the floor, withered and damaged, and now no one can pick them. Looking out the window, how can you be alone? Indus is drizzling, and at dusk, it is falling. This time, what a sad sentence!
Yes, her worries about the country, her family, her feelings and her studies are really a word!
What is Li Qingzhao looking for? From her life experience and poetry articles, we can at least see that she is looking for three things. The first is the future of the country and the nation. She doesn't want to see the mountains and rivers broken, don't want to "drift away from people" and "want to send blood and tears to the mountains and rivers". At this point, she has something in common with Yue Fei, Lu You and later Xin Qiji. But as a woman, she can neither gallop on the battlefield like Yue Fei, nor engage in a lawsuit like Xin Qiji, nor have political and literary friends like Lu and Xin, and can beat the railing with pain. She doesn't even have a chance to associate with them, she can only be alone. The second is to find a happy love. She has a happy family and a happy love, but it is broken in an instant. She also had a dream of finding true love again, but to make matters worse, she was even shackled and jailed. It was also recorded in the history books as "never last night's sacrifice", and he was humiliated by this kind of shame before and after his death. What can she say? Only one person is sad. The third is to find your own value. With extraordinary talent and diligence, and with the help of the power of love, she completed her masterpiece Jin Shilu academically, reaching an unprecedented height in Ci. However, that society is not strange and does not take credit. Even the ten-year-old girl said, "Talent is not a woman's business." Even later, when Lu You wrote an epitaph for this woman named Sun, she thought it was a good statement. Patriotic poets with Lu You's lineage also believe that "talent is not a woman's business". What else did Li Canqing say? She had to chew her desolation alone, and there was only one kind of sadness.
Li studies epigraphy and cultural history. Of course, she knew that from the Song Dynasty, there were very few talented women with works, and she was the only one with superb ci skills. It is said that things are rare, but she is regarded as heterogeneous, rebellious and redundant. She looked around for two thousand years, and the night was like a rock, and the wind and rain were gloomy. Who does she know? Lu Xun has a poem to give the singer: "Deng Huazhao's banquet is rich and charming, and the charming girl waits on the jade bottle and wears strict makeup." I suddenly remembered the scorched earth of my home and looked at Luo socks covering her tears. "Li Qingzhao is a singer enslaved by feudal society. She is serving the society with strict makeup and beauty, but suddenly she feels that all her pursuits are gone, and her song has not been realized in the capital. She felt sad and had to "pretend to say yellow flowers and autumn wind"
The tragedy of Li Qingzhao is that she is a literate woman born in feudal times. As a woman, she was at the bottom of feudal society, and as an intellectual, she was at the commanding height of social thought. She saw many things that others could not see, and pursued many realms that others did not pursue, which inevitably led to loneliness and sadness. It turns out that in the 3,000-year feudal society, how many people come and go are alive with peace of mind and go with the flow. You see, after the southern crossing of the Northern Song Dynasty, there was another storm, and it was 152 years! Although Lu You, a contemporary of Li Qingzhao, shouted angrily that "officials and officials have arranged for Zong Ze, but no one used Yue Fei." But aren't North Korean adults still officials and having parties? You see, despite the troubled times, how many literati have never folded their fans, never recited romantic stories, and spent their whole lives painting and calligraphy? You see, how many women, just like the woman named Sun, don't learn any words, don't pursue any love, and don't live the same way? However, Li Qingzhao did not. As a commoner, she thinks about the responsibility of the public and the affairs of the country. As a woman, seek equality of personality and respect for courtship. No matter how she treats politics, studies, love and marriage, she will not go with the flow, and will inevitably have loneliness and unavoidable sorrow that transcends time and space. She bears a heavy cross, which is a combination of national difficulties, family difficulties, marriage difficulties and academic difficulties. All conflicts and hardships caused by feudal autocracy in politics, culture, morality, marriage and personality are reflected in her thin body like yellow flowers. As the name implies, "before the bright moon shines, the crystal stone shines on its stream", and what Li Qingzhao pursues from her bones is a detached and refined personality, which is bound to be like Qu Yuan's "Everyone is drunk, I wake up alone."