It is said that The Untamed has "ten regrets", one of which is his failure to protect the teenager Jin Guangyao. # Jin Guangyao #
Jin Guangyao, whose real name is Meng Yao, the most taboo word in his life is "prostitute". For him, that is the bottom line and the most untouchable past in his heart.
But why should we say that he lived a full life?
One reason is the past.
For Jin Guangyao, the most ridiculous thing is that he and Jin were born on the same day. One enjoys all the beauty in the world, while the other bears all the desolation in the world.
From Jin Guangshan's words in the play, we can know that although Jin Guangyao's mother is in a low position, she pays great attention to the significance of reading to life and educates him that "A Yao, a gentleman should be well dressed".
Because of this sentence, Jin Guangyao wore a hat all his life until he was buried in Kannonji.
When he was a child, his mother taught him to be a gentle son, but in the eyes of those aristocratic men, he became a humble expression. His life experience makes him feel inferior, but his gentle mother is a rare memory, and his contradictory self can only go astray.
Second, the reason is clear and eager.
Desire can be divided into two aspects, the desire for love and the desire for hate.
The longing for love belongs to Lan Xichen.
Because of his childhood experience, he was discriminated against countless times. Even though it is normal for him when he grows up, he still can't help feeling resentful.
There is a saying: "Even if you live in a sewer, there are still people looking up at the sky."
For Jin Guangyao, Lan Xichen looks forward to being what he failed to be. Dirty life has infected his soul, but after meeting Lan Xichen, that trace of clarity is particularly clear.
He knew he couldn't turn back, so he tried his best to keep Lan Xichen safe.
The desire for hatred originated from Jin Guangshan and extended to Wei Wuxian.
Jin Guangshan only regarded Jin Guangyao as a servant from beginning to end, and didn't give him any birthright, let alone take care of him as a father.
At the end of the story, Jin Guangyao took pains to explain why he decided to plan everything: not because of the moment he was kicked out of Jinling Terrace, nor because of the gossip of domestic servants, but because of Jin Guangshan's sincere words in front of a group of singers.
For Wei, Jin Guangyao was envious and jealous, but in the end they all turned into hate.
He is jealous of Wei's status as a "son of a domestic servant", but he still has the love of his younger brother and sister. He envies that he can be free under any circumstances, but he also hates that they are from similar backgrounds and have opposite roads.
Three reasons to plan for the future. In The Untamed, Jin Guangyao planned a series of things, such as releasing, killing Jin, changing the instructions, and copying Nie Mingjun invisibly with chaos. All kinds of deeds are just paving the way for the future.
He clearly saw his future as a "Meng Yao", but the dissatisfaction in his heart did not allow him to stop there, so he became a "Jin Guangyao" and became the governor of Xianfu step by step.
Under the influence of such an environment, he deeply understood the absolute right to speak of power. He doesn't care what other people think, but only what they can't choose to obey.
In fact, looking at the whole story, Jin Guangyao's story is regrettable. No one can deny his mistakes, but also pity his ending.
Compared with many people in the story, he is always sober. He has a step-by-step plan for his career and knows his likes and dislikes. He knows mind-reading and uses it as a weapon, but he can't avoid falling into the loess.
If I can do it all over again, I hope someone will protect him when I was a teenager, so I don't have to deal with the future step by step.