Author Xie Danru
Tu Wang Miao Bai Shizhen
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When we talk endlessly, we give up the opportunity to communicate, but also give up the opportunity to let our soul embrace the world. Although sometimes we are so eager to be understood, we are also eager to understand some people. However, in writing, we always rely too much on writing in order to obtain some certainty and stability, as if the real writing contains truth and truth. But what about the facts? Words blind our eyes and ears, confuse our thinking, and at the same time make our souls heavy and our bodies no longer comfortable and light. Of course, speech also has its moving characteristics, its beauty, wisdom, artistic structure and the flow of soul, but it takes time to understand it. At the same time, I also feel that even if I don't understand, there is nothing to worry about, just like people who don't like reading don't have to worry about it. Because in addition to words, we can completely embrace the world with our souls. On the contrary, words can easily cause some kind of bondage.
Not at all times, words mean the art of communication. In the final analysis, people who use words don't necessarily know the specific meaning of the words they quote. Just like at this moment, although I am talking, I feel redundant, because if I just listen or tell, it is nothing more than thinking of the soul, plus the feeling of words and imagination. Besides, these are not unconditional. On the contrary, people tend to ignore the world in front of them and the inner world. Compared with the real world and real people, this feeling of bound people, restricted readers and lack of imagination and thinking is not cute at all, but a little more ridiculous.
I don't want to talk about it or preach, and I don't want to be disturbed by some people because of my remarks. Therefore, many times, I write, not waiting for someone to see it, nor waiting to be discovered, noticed, appreciated and recognized. Even without these, I will still write, because this is my communication with myself and my soul, facing up to my loneliness and trying to record my current feelings. I wrote about healing, not expression. I don't have any impulse to express myself. For others, I may not be able to touch their hearts. More importantly, I lack understanding of others. I don't need to express myself. My feelings are all the answers. I imagine, think, summarize, discover and explore, and my heart is full of answers.
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A long time ago, when I first met words, I understood that "words are full of vacuum without words." Some people may say that it's because I don't have much literacy, a deep understanding of words, the wisdom of poets, the elegance of artists and the freedom of hermits, which I admit. At the same time, I also understand that this is a kind of prejudice, an extreme, extremely narrow and utilitarian pursuit. Although I am so eager to accurately describe what I see, hear, think and feel, in fact, words have their limitations, and so does language. Therefore, it is a bit of putting the cart before the horse if the accuracy of both words and languages is excessively pursued and the soul itself is neglected. After all, I am neither the creator of words, nor do I need to live by words. In fact, stripping words may not make my life worse, but I can devote more time to other places. Besides, what's the point of literacy? Just like language, even if you can understand it, you don't want to listen or listen for some reason. What's touching about it?
As an independent individual, my energy is limited and my life itself is extremely limited. I don't want to be a vain person, and I don't want to care too much about others. Although I understand the differences between people, so what? What if you know the weaknesses and strengths of others? It is wrong to find your own direction from other people's maps. I am still self-sufficient. How can it be true and false when talking about others? Say it's good for others, but how do you know others need it? If it's only for your own good, why look elsewhere?
In the final analysis, those who have other people's eyes, those who only have their own eyes, are mostly incomplete people. At the very least, he will not be a sound person, so will the people I despise and the people I am afraid of. People in such a narrow sense are bored, and their lives are boring. Although they may hold other people's passwords and their own secrets, what else is there? What's left? Then, are those who ask "the meaning of life" too calm and blindly superstitious? How big the world is, why make a cocoon and draw the land into a prison? It's not the same reason to understand the meaning of life unilaterally from words and languages, is it?
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I understand that people don't want to waste time. However, if it is only because of this, they must do something, prove something, or seek something. It seems to be similar. Even if you lose yourself, the soul doesn't know where to forget. We have been "educated" to be a "useful" person since childhood. No one can tell us who is using it, why it is useful and where it is used. Even suitability is mixed with subjectivity and speculation. As for "successful" people, this is the object that many people yearn for. However, what is the standard, what are the conditions and why, but few people are willing to go into it.
In the final analysis, not everyone can accept themselves, including their own vulnerability, the attributes of life, their own advantages and disadvantages, their educated thoughts, and their affected individual feelings. People don't want to just meet personal needs, and they don't want to be tools of others. The former may be considered selfish and insignificant, while the latter is considered lost, instrumental and impersonal. For yourself or for others, this topic has existed for thousands of years. However, it seems that only in this way can it be called a complete life? It's like being born to do something, whether for yourself or for others. I think it is precisely because of this that some people feel inferior and others are conceited that they feel needed, or rather, needed. As for why? We can look for it from the aspects of history, politics, psychology, human nature, sociology, natural science and so on, in order to seek its reasonable and just reasons. However, we seem to have overlooked something, for example, even if our cognition is "correct", is the basis supporting it reliable? Is it personal or * * * meets the needs of the body? Or, is this the need of life?
Perhaps, more or less, we still care about the height of the soul, such as noble quality, good cultivation, self-worth and so on. But what I want to say is that these are just appearances, and the essence is that people are afraid of loneliness. Whether it is a lonely individual or in a lonely state, there is a lonely atmosphere formed in the surrounding environment. I am afraid of being out of place, but I am also afraid of the evaluation of the world. It is such a contradiction, but it is also self-contained. Therefore, some people choose to escape, some choose to stimulate, and some people can be content with loneliness and enjoy it, but they are also despised by the world, as if it were some kind of inaction. As everyone knows, inaction is closer to nature and soul.
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I have no doubt that people are afraid of loneliness and loneliness, which is human instinct. Only a strong heart can guide the soul. After all, from a historical and natural point of view, it seems to be related to the instinct of survival. But at present, people's needs far exceed this instinct, resulting in a new instinct of "superego". Under this "high pressure", people seem to have fallen into a certain numbness, lacking awe of nature and life, but becoming more and more familiar with the tricks of escaping and deceiving themselves. However, loneliness can't be eliminated, and there will be times when you can't escape. Is this a natural punishment? Is it the curse of life? Or some kind of vigilance and advice? I prefer to understand this as the form of soul, the origin of life, the beginning of all beauty, and the blessing and gift of nature.
We always hope that others will live safely, that the blessed person will live happily, and that this person can be carefree ... At the same time, what are we doing? We pursue an exciting life, and as a result, frequent stimulation numbs our body and mind; We are unwilling to be lonely, and at the same time we are dismissive of everything at our fingertips. We enjoy the process of chasing more than the result of chasing. What is even more frightening is that people who pursue excitement can't get comfort in the process, but they lose themselves and are exhausted in the stimulation. If we can calm down and think about it, will the source and original intention of pursuing excitement be different? These are just a way to get rid of loneliness. Its essence reveals our loneliness and our escape from loneliness.
The heart is the answer to everything, which does not mean that we are not lonely with the answer. On the contrary, I want everyone to understand one thing: "As long as people can master themselves, they will not lose anything." Similarly, "what really matters cannot be measured, and only what can be measured can be measured." Therefore, the heart is the answer to everything, and besides, it is only something that can be measured.