Lu Xiaoman used to remember Xu Zhimo's poems.

Heartbroken people have not lost their sense of piano, and this heart has been sent for a long time:

Over the years, I have realized the taste of cold more and more. I wrote that lakes and mountains are always lonely.

Crying and rubbing

Text/Lu Xiaoman

I am convinced that no pen in the world can describe how sad I am now, let alone my own pen that can't be moved easily. But other than that, I have no chance to vent my inner sadness.

Now, I hope Mo's soul can also help me. God gave me this thunderbolt, and I was so numb that I couldn't even cry, only numb in the waves. I didn't wake up until today, knowing that you really and.

I will always say goodbye. Mo! If you say it's you, even heaven can't know how painful and sad my heart is now! I used to laugh at people's hypocrisy when I talked about "heartache". I think how can people's hearts feel pain? Just ...

It's just a nice talk, but who knows that I really tasted the cramped taste in my heart today. Guess what? I remember when I was a little sick, your voice was next to me to express my condolences. Okay, now my pain is killing me.

Without your humble condolences. Mo, do you really have the heart to abandon me forever? Didn't you say before that your last breath and mine should be connected to be worthy of our love? Why didn't you tell me earlier?

Am I flying? Until now, I still don't believe you can really fly. I'm still here looking forward to your coming back with me every day. Hurry up and do the unfinished business, and go swimming outside the cloud with me. You don't want it.

I'm alone, forgetting that I'm still waiting in the boudoir!

Isn't this a dream? You are alive and kicking, but you left me, leaving me alone to struggle in this thorny future. Shima, isn't this too bad? What did I miss? But looking back,

Looking at my white-haired old lady, I can't help but feel sad, and I dare not envy your leisure, and love your leisure. How can I have the courage to see her dying person and fly to the sky with you to surround the glory?

The stars are jumping, like an unattached plum blossom bird, forgetting the sufferings of the world. I'm afraid I haven't enjoyed this kind of happiness yet! I know that my sins in the world are not full, and there are still many pains and sins waiting for me to endure.

Suffering? My only hope now is that if you can come to my pillow quietly and sadly in the middle of the night, give me some silent whispers and let me know you in my dream! I really came home to see you.

No, your love is coming. At that time, I will never worry again! Don't panic, no one will bother us. If you let me see your lovely face again, I will have the courage to live this lonely life. Come on, Mo! I

Waiting for you.

I don't complain at all now. Who should I complain about? Who do you hate? The five-year reunion between you and me is just an illusion. I don't blame you for leaving, but I'm not blessed to stay. I'm so unlucky. In the past ten years, I have suffered thousands of mental pains.

The destruction of my heart broke my heart beyond control, and today it has really changed, and it will never shine again. Fortunately, I have tasted the excitement and gentleness of life, and I have endured it. Now once again,

Accepted the most terrible death in life. Immortality is inevitably a gaunt petal. Goodbye, sun and dew. From then on, I can never know that there is still my laughter in the world.

After many twists and turns and difficulties, we reached the day of integration. You and I were very happy at that time, forgetting how high and thick the sky was and the word "sadness" in the world. Happy days pass as fast as flying. Who knows?

Soon we entered Tiantu again. Illness has been bothering me. It brings all the trouble and a lot of pain. At that time, I was in unspeakable pain physically, and you fell into depression mentally for no reason. I know you have met.

I groaned and turned to bed. You have unspeakable pity in your heart and infinite sadness in your stomach. You comforted me, but I can't let you live a comfortable life again. Mo, you ruined your poem and lost your essay for me.

Xing, criticized by ordinary people, I just hate myself silently, and there is no way to make you laugh as before. Who knows that you are desperate to comfort me all day, telling me not to look at the future in darkness just because I am sick.

With you by my side forever, don't be afraid of all unnecessary nonsense. I just listen to your calm maintenance, and I just hope that God will have pity on us for several years and give us a comfortable future. Who knows now everything is an illusion, our illusion.

Dreams will never come true. If I'd known today, why bother to support me? Isn't it wonderful that I died the year before last? You often say that God won't close one door, but he will open another. Just keep it, but I don't know that God never shuts one door but he opens another.

And isn't this fate that I take the flat road? What else did you say? Mo, it's not that I still blame you today. You love me. You shouldn't be a smart man. I have quarreled with you many times by plane, but you still forget everything about me.

I fly to the sky alone.

It's over, it's over. I will never hear your whisper again. Do you know the sadness in my heart? I need you to mend my broken heart, you know? Alas, does your soul come back to see me sometimes? A few days ago.

At night, I saw you running towards me in the dim light, but it was gone in a flash. When I am dancing and calling you, there are no more vague shadows. Well, how can I spend this lonely sun and moon from now on? It's really amazing

God should not silence the earth. How could God give me such cruel punishment? From then on, I don't believe in heaven and human heart. I hate this world, I hate the sky, I hate everything. I hate why they took you,

Living, living, left us two moving hearts, and I have nowhere to touch my half-blood heart from now on. You see, my half is still bleeding bright red and covered in blood. This scar was removed.

Make up for it with half the effort. What else can I do to stop her from dropping DC? It hurts. Who knows? One day, after bleeding, it will wither. If sometimes the breeze blows back and you see me for you all day.

A warm-blooded heart, I don't know how to pity and how to be embarrassed. I know you are watching two kittens screaming like eyes again. I hope you can speak louder so that I can hear you. You know I'm just losing my temper.

Tu, sometimes people call me loudly, but I still look around and don't know where the sound comes from. Greatly, if I am close to my dream, don't be afraid to disturb my dream soul, and don't dare to disturb me as usual. You know I will.

I won't scold you, even if you bother me not to sleep, I won't complain again, because as long as I can get you into trouble again, I can ask them why they lied to me that you didn't come back, and they can't leave me when they look at my motorcycle, good boy.

Good boy came back to accompany me. This time I will hold you tightly and never let you fly out of my arms again. Oh, God have mercy on me, let you come back again! I didn't offend you. Why should I be punished? Mo! I am here.

I'm calling you. My throat is screaming like blood. Didn't you hear me? I still have the heart to wait until the Cycas blooms and the dead trees sound. If you don't come back one day, I will scream all day until I can't breathe.

Give up this only hope slowly.

Your departure not only broke my heart, but also made my friends shed many sad tears. This really makes people feel that the world is terrible, and the world is very sinister. The purest and most naive days are rare.

The person I met took it away and died forever. Now you can go to heaven, where you can still live your happy life, but you ruined me from now on. Didn't you say you wanted me to be by your side like a breeze? Okay, now.

Now, you fly to the horizon with a breeze. I hope you can blow it back and help me do some unfinished things sometimes. As long as you are patient, you'd better wait for me to finish the things in the world and fly away with you so that my friends can get together.

Friends will only hear our wind forever, but can't see our figure. Let us fly freely in the dark forever.

I really don't understand what kind of cause and effect you and I have in Buddhist scriptures. Why are we together and scattered in the middle? Is there some kind of fate? I remember when I was in Beiping, I didn't know you. I've been here all day.

Live a tearful and fake smile. I have always had a sincere and pure heart for people, but I was ridiculed by many people as a result. It can be said that no one can understand me and see through me. A person is suffering unspeakable pain when

However, I can't help feeling world-weary, so I just hide my sincerity day after day and deal with this turbid society with an empty heart, and I no longer hope that anyone can really understand me and understand me. From then on, I am willing.

This is almost the end of my life. Who knew I would meet you at that time? It's like seeing a ray of light in the dark, and the dead people are relieved, and life has turned in a different direction. Momo, you have to understand me,

Really thorough. You seem to be in my heart all day. Until now, you are the only one who really understands me. I remember that every time I was insulted, you always comforted me and forced me to treat you.

Give birth to an unspeakable feeling. I always say, with you, I'm afraid who will scold me; You always say that as long as I understand you, your people are mine alone. Why worry about other people's criticism? So even though I suffer all day

The entanglement of disease can no longer be resentful. I'm just sorry for you, because our ideal life was completely broken by my illness, which made you live that gloomy life all day. But I haven't seen it for two years.

You have some resentment, and I don't see you being a little cold to me because of this. No wonder Wenbo wants to say that your love for me has come.

That's right. It's just that I really have nothing to do with you, so I have to report to the future.