recently, I found that my poems are getting worse and worse. In terms of quantity, the situation of collecting words is obvious. In terms of quality, there is no natural flow in July and August at all. Poetry is increasingly lacking in agility, and it seems a bit dull and melodramatic.
I wonder, what should words express? Our fantasies, our fleeting thoughts, or the boring days we face.
In addition to beginning to be puzzled by this question, I also began to feel speechless, and there was a kind of anxiety about adding new words. However, I sometimes feel panic.
I haven't stayed quietly for a long time since I returned to Shenzhen. Without this time alone with myself, something invisible in my heart climbs up to my forehead a little, and I always feel a little anxious.
I don't want my words to express such a boring life. I want it to have a little soul of my own. Whether I am not suffering enough or I am numb, the words in my poems reflect my pallor.
There is no sex life, no cigars, no alcohol, no minutes to myself, no joy and sadness, and I feel panic, because too many vulgar people live in such a state and waste their lives in a daze. Will I do the same?
I still have to keep myself awake, although waking means pain, a pain that goes deep into the bone marrow.
Buddhists keep themselves awake, so they constantly meditate, improve, lash the depths of their souls, and discipline themselves with precepts.
Some people keep themselves awake. They run, keep running, and run tirelessly. They sweat themselves with a marathon, and get a moment's sobriety and mental pleasure in sweating.
Some people keep themselves awake, remembering hatred and shame, living a vengeful life and struggling to survive.
in what way will I keep myself awake? My poems, my words, I can't write in a daze, writing some words that I don't feel.
I easily forget my pain, hatred and self-discipline, so I began to fall into confusion.
I need to be sober. I need to strengthen self-discipline and achieve self-discipline.
As far as writing poetry is concerned, I don't just want to finish the day shift. I need to force myself to practice a new poem skill every day.
I keep trying new styles and materials. Only in this self-discipline and innovation can I cross over better.
Generally speaking, first, train a new poem skill every day; Second, constantly try new styles and new materials; Third, cross the river in self-discipline.
first, the skills of new poetry. Generally speaking, the skills of new poetry include: emotional cultivation
Emotion: In terms of emotion, I should not always fall into the current nostalgia and fantasy emotions, but I should write some new emotions. Try in several aspects: first, sad poetry: an attempt at tragic literature, to be a sad poet; Second, fantasy poetry: an attempt to do surreal literature; Third, pale poetry: a poem describing a pale life without emotion. In a word, sad poems, fantasy poems and pale poems.
images: some of the past are concentrated in their own life experiences, and these images are almost ruined by themselves. Try to explore some new images of the combination of reality and reality, some unfamiliar images, and some urbanized images. Imagination of nothingness, strangeness and urbanization.
figurative expression skills: story, picture sense and musical beauty, in which story, picture sense (word color angle: refining words, sensory experience, color and angle of view switching, in which sense, color and angle of view are worthy of in-depth study and practice), and musical beauty, really understand what music is and what is the rhythm of music. In this piece, try to write story poems; Try to learn photography; Try to learn music.
Rhetoric exercises: general analogy, exclusion of reaction, empty versus vague, fu versus xing. Practice 1 poems one by one for each item, which is worth using freely.
summary: emotions-sad poems, fantasy poems, pale poems; Image-a nihilistic, unfamiliar and urbanized image; Figurative expression: story, picture sense (sense+color+perspective switching), music aesthetic photography, learning music; Rhetoric: general analogy, exclusive reaction, empty to Mongolia, fu bi xing.
Second, try a new style: towards Zen; Deconstruction; Surrealism
Third, self-discipline: strictly require yourself to do it every day and train related skills every day
Summary:
Training list:
First, emotions: sad poems; Pale poetry; Fantasy poem.
second, image: nihilistic, unfamiliar and urbanized image;
third, figurative expression: story+picture sense (sense+color+angle switching)+musical beauty
fourth, rhetorical devices: general analogy, exclusion of reaction, emptiness versus obscurity, and fu bi xing.