After all, even Li Bai was fooled. "Master, I cheer you from the bottom of my heart. Your fame has risen to the sky ... the mountains, how I long to reach you, that's all."
When you are sleepy and tired, you will be "I woke up easily in this spring morning"; If you want to drink, your friends often "you entertain me on your farm"; If you want to travel, just "fireworks will go down to Yangzhou in March" ...
Very enviable.
But every time I know more, the more I understand. Sure enough, heaven and earth are the bureau, and all beings are chess. Everyone has unknown difficulties.
-Classical gentlemen think that nothing is easy except gaining weight.
0 1
In the 16th year of Tang Dynasty (728).
Meng Haoran, 40, came to Chang 'an for the first time.
In this metropolis full of poet legends, he has always been confident and a little heavy.
Everyone in Xiangyang, his hometown, knows that there used to be a saying that "a scholar is not an official" and he was regarded as an alien.
Now, he broke his word and came to Chang 'an to participate in scientific research in order to give his family a confession.
However, it failed again.
When he left home, his mother, brother, and his wife and children, who had no name yet, were full of expectations. If he goes back like this, how should he face it?
He wanted to go back, but reason told him to stay in Chang 'an even if he had the chance.
Flowers bloom, grass grows and birds fly in pairs.
Sitting in the empty lobby, reminiscing about the past, drinking tea instead of drinking.
-Meng Haoran, "Qingming is a thing"
Watching the flowers bloom and fall, the grass grows and the warblers fly, and even the butterflies have been paired, he can only recall the past with tea instead of wine in the lobby of the inn.
He wanted to ask himself:
I used to run away without hesitation, so how did I get into a dilemma?
02
Once a hot-blooded teenager
The five years of Chang 'an (705) was a happy year for the Li and Tang Dynasties.
In the first month of this year, court officials headed by Prime Minister Zhang Jian launched a mutiny, forcing Wu Zetian to abdicate, and Li Jiangshan was rehabilitated and changed to a dragon.
Meng Haoran, who is far away in Xiangyang, is also very happy.
First of all, as a fellow countryman of Zhang Jianzhi, he feels honored;
Secondly, as a descendant of Mencius (the word "noble" comes from the sentence "I am good at nurturing my noble spirit" in Mencius), their family has always been handed down from Confucius to Mencius, so he can finally take the imperial examination justifiably.
So I signed up happily and easily made the list in next year's county exam.
I also had the honor of visiting retired Zhang Jianzhi.
At that time, he was seventeen or eighteen, the best age, full of ambition and high spirits.
He believes that Datang, which was finally rehabilitated, should do the same.
However, it was soon discovered that this was not the case.
Zhang Jianzhi was forced to leave the DPRK, Li Xianzong was fatuous and cowardly, and Queen Webster wanted to be the second Empress Wu Zetian.
While Meng Haoran was waiting for the imperial court to try to open the exam, Zhang Jian, who had been busy building dikes and controlling water after returning to Xiangyang, was suddenly exiled, and the 82-year-old prime minister died in a foreign land on Huangchen Ancient Road.
Hearing the news, Meng Haoran felt very angry and then disappointed.
Then I made a decision that the whole family opposed: strike the exam.
He is weak, maybe he can't change anything, but if he is hot, he will emit his own light.
Not everyone is indifferent, not everyone will only be silent.
But his father thought he was too immature to joke about his future, and they quarreled as soon as they met.
Know, don't know, relatives and elders and even local officials, also to persuade him.
He still hasn't let go, and even said that he studied only for wisdom, not for his career.
Finally, he moved out and lived in Lumen Mountain.
03
Once infatuated son
/kloc-When I was 0/9 years old, Meng Haoran met Han Xiangke.
A singer who went to Xiangyang from Yingcheng to perform.
Talented people and beautiful women captivate countless people as soon as they meet.
One said, "I only came to be a fairy because I was crazy in my balcony dream." (Meng Haoran's "Gift to Han Xiangke")
One said, "swear before tying branches and talk under lilac trees." (Han Xiangke's poem "in my heart forever")
Helpless, I can't do it day and night.
Although the Meng family is not rich or expensive, it is also a prominent scholarly family in Xiangyang, which is definitely not something a singer can get started with.
But whose first love is willing to give up easily?
After the success of the struggle, Meng Haoran left home completely, went to Han Xiangke's hometown Yuncheng, and married Han Xiangke.
Bai Juyi has a poem, "If you are hired as a wife, you will be a concubine. You can't bear to worship apple flies. "
At that time, a marriage that was not recognized by parents was not married by the Ming media and could not enter the family tree.
But two people, one is married and the other is married.
From then on, Han Xiangke became Meng Haoran's wife and Meng Haoran became Han Xiangke's husband.
Although, there may be no birthright.
Before you, I never thought about getting married. I haven't thought about anyone since I met you.
Being together is more important than anything.
04
Life is most afraid of being too late
Life is bound to be unhappy.
At the age of 26, Meng Haoran's father died.
He never forgave his son until he died.
Meng Haoran, who once thought his life was still very long, suddenly found that life would really be too late.
Before he could make up with him, he lost his father forever;
Before his wife and children met their families, they completely lost the possibility of being recognized.
After three years of mourning, Meng Haoran decided to end his mountain life in Lumen Mountain.
"The forest around is boundless, and the city doesn't smell it."
"Fishing and sitting on a rock, the water is clear and the heart is idle."
……
Such a quiet and beautiful life is really desirable.
However, everyone has his own responsibility and destiny.
Father's wish to worship his ancestors has not been realized, so he can't continue to hate the grave;
And wives and children who want to be recognized can also die through a piece of paper.
At that time, Emperor Li Longji of the Tang Dynasty lived and worked in peace and contentment, and the Tang Dynasty flourished.
In addition to taking the imperial examination, going to frontier fortress to make meritorious deeds, being the staff of others, or being recommended by the emperor to enjoy the Imperial Palace at dusk, are all ways to enter the official career.
For Meng Haoran, who said that "writing is not an official", it is undoubtedly the most ideal way to be recommended by a saint.
Although he was a little sensitive at that time, he was confident.
Knowing that Zhang Yue (now Yueyang), the hero and former prime minister who helped Emperor Tang Ming to kill Princess Taiping, was on a business trip and passed by Xiangyang, Meng Haoran went to visit.
Although they are twenty years apart, their appreciation of each other's talents still keeps them in mind.
Later, they traveled together and enjoyed the scenery of Hunan.
When crossing Dongting Lake, Meng Haoran gave Zhang a poem with infinite emotion:
The autumn water rises and almost blends with the shore, mixing water and sky with the sky.
Ozawa's water vapor transpiration on the cloud soil is white, and the waves seem to shake the whole Yueyang.
I'm going to cross the water to find a boat and paddle. It's a shame to return home in the sacred age.
Sitting around watching other people's hard river fishing can only envy the fish caught in the fish.
This poem, which is a message from Dongting Lake to Premier Zhang, must be memorized in the textbook.
Unfortunately, at that time, Zhang said that there was a bad blood with the emperor, and the recommendation was temporarily stranded.
Is it necessary to take the road of imperial examination?
Meng Haoran, who was confident that all roads lead to Chang 'an, still couldn't let go of his inner reserve.
05
If the heart has no place to live.
Wherever you go, you are wandering.
In 724, Meng Haoran finally got the chance.
This year, Li Longji, who thought that he had brought the Tang Dynasty to its peak, planned to retreat to Mount Tai to show off his literary martial arts.
Of course, some people objected, but Li Longji, who was still here just now, came directly without making any reply, and moved from Chang 'an to Luoyang with a team that looked pleasing to the eye.
In order to make good preparations, Qi Xin made concerted efforts, and we also issued an announcement to recruit talents for the whole country.
For a time, many literati gathered in Luoyang, and Luoyang instantly became a political and cultural center.
Among them is Meng Haoran.
But compared with the hustle and bustle of Luoyang, he seems to love the literary spirit of Luoyang more.
He made friends here: He, Zhang Jiuling, Wang Wei, Qi (qí), Bao Rong and Yuan. ...
I went to Luoyang to meet Yuan, a talented person, but I didn't expect him to become an exile in Jiangling.
I heard that plum blossoms bloom early. How can it be better than spring in Luoyang?
-Meng Haoran's "Visit to Yuan"
He seems to be more keen on visiting relatives and friends than seeking a career.
I don't know if it's because I don't pay enough attention. After three years in Luoyang, Meng Haoran's career is still slim.
Seeing that the emperor had closed his retreat and moved back to Chang 'an, there was no reason to stay in Luoyang, so at the invitation of a friend, Meng Haoran planned to go south to wuyue and imagine in the great mountains and rivers.
It is worth mentioning that during this trip, Meng Haoran gained a fan brother Li Bai.
They had a wonderful time together in Liyang.
Strong husband or not, nine times out of ten.
I brush clothes with Jun, and Wan Li soars together.
-Li Bai's "Visit the North Lake Pavilion in Liyang, Look at Wawu Mountain, and Stay with You" (excerpt)
Heroes are underdeveloped, and it is getting harder and harder.
However, who cares? Let's brush off the clothes together. Wouldn't it be more beautiful for Wan Li to take off?
Meng Haoran has tasted the taste of life after all. After being young and frivolous, he certainly won't think so.
Soon, he and Li Bai said goodbye to each other. One went north to find his own Jianghu, the other went south across Qian Fan, and then returned to the starting point.
On the eve of 40, Meng Haoran returned to his hometown in Yuncheng, where his wife and children were located.
Travel far across the sea and return to the mountains.
Looking at the trees in the evening, Xiangguan is in Ke Fan.
Trouble follows the river and happiness enters the door.
Looking at Santo around me, I still robbed him.
-Meng Haoran's "Return to the Left"
Doing what you want to do and taking the road you want to go is youth.
Doing what you don't want to do and taking the road you don't want to take is life.
It is said that 40 is not confused, whether it is success or failure, let's be the last blog.
06
Pretend to like it
Really tired
We all know the result.
Most of the time, things don't go as expected. He failed the list and was caught in a dilemma of whether to stay or not.
It is false to say that you are not sad, but I don't know why I am a little relieved.
At that time, there were many cultural gatherings in Chang 'an, and in this gap, he was invited to participate in the joint sentence activities of the secretary province with many friends.
After three rounds of drinking, each person has a poem.
And when Meng Haoran slowly revealed:
Wei Yun is a river of light, with raindrops and phoenix trees.
The whole audience was suddenly silent, and soon the activity was over.
In the view of Wang Shiyuan, Meng Haoran's contemporary, the chair can't be held, and the pen of Xiange is unsustainable.
As a failed student, Meng Haoran's name as a gifted scholar finally spread widely.
What finally made him famous in the world was his active contact with Xuanzong of the Tang Dynasty.
That day, Wang Wei saw Meng Haoran alone and invited him to his office.
Unexpectedly, when the two chatted happily, Tang Xuanzong suddenly visited.
Feast can't be seen casually, and anyone who is not careful may be convicted. In order not to implicate Wang Wei, Meng Haoran hid, but was found.
Fortunately, Xuanzong was in a good mood at that time, because many people mentioned Meng Haoran's name in front of him and asked: Are there any new poems recently?
This is an opportunity to show it to the emperor. How many people can't wait? It is not impossible to come up with a good answer.
But Meng Haoran read the first song when he returned to Zhongnanshan at the end of the year:
Don't write to the North Yard again, let me go back to the old hut in the old Nanshan.
I have no reason to decide to give up my point of view. My old and many sick friends have stopped practicing.
……
Before he finished reading, Emperor Xuanzong of the Tang Dynasty told him to stop: "You don't want to be an official yourself. How can you blame me? "
("You don't want to be an official, but I didn't abandon you. Why do you accuse me? " -"New Tang Book Literature Biography")
Then, swing your sleeves and leave.
Meng Haoran knows that from now on, he will miss his career.
Why give up a great opportunity?
He couldn't say for sure, maybe it was because Zhang Jian died in a foreign land, maybe he saw too many hypocritical masks in social affairs again and again, or maybe the ambition of the emperor when he closed his eyes and meditated was far from the imagination of the monarch who longed for talents. ...
In short, he was bored, he didn't like it, and an impulse became like this.
07
The most beautiful scenery in life
It is inner peace and calmness.
Clouds roll and clouds are comfortable, flowers bloom and fall.
Meng Haoran has returned to Lumen Mountain for seven years.
During this period, the Han Chaozong that Li Bai wanted to know ("I don't need to seal every household, I hope to know Han Jingzhou") finally persuaded Tang Xuanzong to see him again, and he stood him up.
"You have an appointment with Mr. Han!"
"How can I worry about him after drinking all the wine?"
(Or: "Jun and Han Palace have regular meetings." Haoran said angrily, "I have already drunk, and I pity him!" " )
During this period, Zhang Jiuling, the last famous figure in the prosperous time of Kaiyuan, was asked to be his staff when he was the secretariat of Jingzhou. He went there and ran back a few days later.
But these are not as good as his Lumen Mountain.
The water meets the fairy source, and the mountain hides the ghost valley.
Come to the lost place again and ask the fishing boat under the flowers.
-"Dao Mei Taoist Water Pavilion"
This old friend prepared a delicious meal and invited me to his hospitable farm.
We look at the green trees surrounding your village, and the outline of the green hills is inclined.
-"Passing the Old Village"
Success or failure,
Now the days let him unload all the troubles, relaxed and natural.
If you are unhappy every day, what is the purpose of living?
In the past seven years, many friends have come to see him. He will take them to see his garden full of fruits and vegetables, and then the host and guests will have a good time.
Li Bai came over and said:
Master, I cheer you from the bottom of my heart. Your fame has risen to the sky.
In the rosy youth, you gave up the importance of hats and chariots and chose pine trees and clouds; Now whitehead.
Drunk moon, sage of dreams, bewitched by flowers, you turned a deaf ear to the emperor.
Gaoshan, how I long to reach you, that's all.
He really wants to say that you have never seen me struggle.
However, this is just a smile.
All the flavors of life must be tasted by yourself.
Last time, it was Wang Changling.
At that time, he recovered from a serious illness, and the doctor said: avoid drinking and eating.
But how can a friend come all the way to see you?
Doctors often exaggerate!
It happened that there was a seafood in the dining table that he particularly liked and hadn't eaten for a long time, so he moved his index finger and took a few bites under everyone's persuasion.
Time to drink, time to eat, time to eat, time to meet friends. After seeing Wang Changling off, Meng Haoran, who was very satisfied, lay happily in bed and never got up again.
Leave a box of poems to tell his ordinary happiness in Lumen Mountain.
Leave a last word that I just want to be buried in Lumen Mountain, and leave calmly.
08
Not just an earth-shattering life.
It takes effort.
A few years later, Meng Haoran's collected works spread all over the world, with four volumes and 2 18 poems.
In the world of fame and fortune, he was naked all his life and did not achieve success in the secular sense.
In the spiritual world above ordinary material life, he lives forever, emitting a quiet and peaceful light.
Remember a passage:
We are so eager for recognition from the outside world that we finally realize that the world is our own and has nothing to do with others.
We were so eager for the waves of fate that we finally found that the most beautiful scenery in life is actually inner peace and calmness.
Not only earth-shattering life needs hard work, but ordinary happiness also needs extraordinary efforts!
There are two kinds of happiness in the world:
One is to know what you want; One is knowing what you don't want.
If you don't know, stick to it.
Because sometimes you don't know what you want before you persist, but after you persist, you will gradually understand what you want.
There are two kinds of courage in the world:
One is to fight for what you want, and the other is to give up what you don't want.
If you still can't decide, you can at least choose a good mood.
Gradually figure it out, then put it down or draw a conclusion.