To be or not to be? I want to be.

In the past two days, I have been collecting information about the benefits of learning calligraphy in order to complete the essay for the official account of WeChat. In the process of collecting, I found that I couldn't help but want to turn learning calligraphy into my hobby. I started searching for professional learning videos and professional teachers. When I did this, I found that it didn't take a few minutes and a half to learn calligraphy seriously. Do I have enough time? Secondly, I find myself pursuing perfection, and I especially like to trace back to the source. Perhaps for others, if they want to learn calligraphy, they will buy some copybooks and match them with a writing brush. I found that I should not only collect professional calligraphy teaching videos, but also read books written by professional calligraphy teachers ... In this way, my perfectionism began to gradually dilute my interest, because that would mean a lot of time investment, and what I lack most now is time.

There are too many things I want to do, and my hobbies are too wide ... I like reading aloud, reading books, writing articles, listening to music in a single cycle, climbing mountains, running and stretching, listening to classes, making human cases, making short videos, dubbing short videos, cooking, playing with children and observing people ... Now I like calligraphy again, of course, calligraphy is mine. Now I just want to pick it up again. However, there are so many things I like, but I find that I can't go deep. It seems that the energy of my stargate 4 1 needs to be better adjusted and focused, so that my dream can really come true.

Gate 4 1 says: reduce-reduce, because resources are limited, so we must subtract what we desire, so as to concentrate resources on real desires and realize "dreams come true" How nice!

But emotionally, I don't seem to want to lose any of them. I feel happy and satisfied doing what I like, but now the biggest challenge I face is recording courses. Originally, this was something I had been eager to do, but when it was put on my schedule, I found myself under pressure, but I didn't want to start and wanted to delay for various reasons. Friends in the team said that they hoped to finish the course before May Day. If I can't finish it, I have to take at least a few classes. But today is April 20 th, and I haven't started yet ... The reason is that I am too pursuing perfection and always feel that I am not enough. I need time to prepare, I need to study again, and I need to do a lot of things to prepare. Yes or yes, I've always been used to it, but I can choose, can't I?

"In my vast life, everything is perfect, complete and complete." This is the first sentence of Louise Hay's healing article in Rebuilding Life. I especially like it. I like to be able to slowly move towards existence through these therapeutic articles.

Written on April 20, 2022.