In Japan today, the study of Natsume Soseki has long become a prominent scholar, equivalent to the volume of studies on Lu Xun in my country.
This late-blooming master wrote many heart-warming stories and had good intentions towards human nature, but he rarely had easy days in his life.
During his entire life, Natsume Soseki could not get rid of his intense anxiety and was always in a state of mental sensitivity.
In addition to neurasthenia, he also suffered from severe gastrointestinal diseases, suffering mental and physical torture all the time.
Soseki's adoptive father began to instill in him the concept of "love needs to be reciprocated" from a young age. After he became famous, he came to his door many times to ask for money, always talking about "the money he deserves". This made Soseki very painful.
Soseki’s sister was frail and sick, and her husband was cheating on her and causing domestic violence. She often asked Soseki for money. Soseki was angry and resentful, but there was nothing he could do.
The brothers were even more dissolute. They looked down on Soseki's literary dream before, but then came to rely on him shamelessly.
My wife is also mentally unstable and often yells at him.
Soseki no longer looked forward to the warmth of his family, but he couldn't bear to abandon his miserable family, so he suffered in silence all his life.
The shadow of depression, like a dark fire, gnawed away at Natsume Soseki's fragile life. It was not that he had never thought of dying. During the most desperate days in England, he also He had suicidal thoughts, but fortunately he did not execute them. After that, he recovered temporarily and returned to China. However, his neurasthenia kept recurring, which seriously affected his life and social life.
After returning to Japan, Soseki saw the Meiji Japan that advocated "departing Asia and joining Europe". He was filled with melancholy and helpless. He knew that total westernization would cut off the country's culture and Japan would be completely destroyed from the inside out. You will lose your independent personality, but what can you do?