Life is just an illusion, nothing is worth it - "Xibao"

Jiang Xibao, a talented law student at Cambridge University, has been dependent on her mother since she was a child. Her father or her husband are like liars to her. They support each other, rely on each other, and live independently of each other. Life was relatively peaceful, and Xibao turned twenty-one.

The gears of fate go round and round, and the love-hate entanglement of all fates begins with a meeting on the plane. Returning to Hong Kong from London, she met Xu Conghui, a rich girl. She was watching "The Complete Works of Xu Zhimo" ", and Xibao is watching O. Henry. Is this small detail already announcing the difference in their worlds? Years of material poverty, poverty of love, everything, accumulated until now, have made Xibao practical, smart, sensitive and sophisticated. By chance, Xibao's enthusiasm, innocence and intelligence quickly led Xibao to meet many members of the Xu family. Who is interested in her? Who is wary of her? Who likes her? Which one is naive? Which one has a city? Xibao thought silently in his heart, and it became clear after a while. I have to say, what man doesn't like a smart woman like Xibao?

She is so real, real living, real struggling, real breathing. Being close to her is like being close to the vitality, being close to her is like being close to the light of life. Therefore, even a person like Xu Cunzi, who is over fifty years old and looks very beautiful on the outside, can't help but want to get closer to Xibao when he sees him. The two of them met in the back garden of the Xu family. Xibao's inferiority complex was impacted by the Xu family, and under the influence of alcohol, Xibao couldn't help complaining to a middle-aged man: "Of course Xu Xu Conghui is definitely cuter than me, Jiang Xibao, because Xu Conghui has the conditions to be a lovely person. She was born with a silver spoon in her mouth. She doesn’t have to struggle to live. She can stay innocent forever because she has a rich father. Now She will be engaged to a good young man... But what do I have? I came to society with my bare hands. If I don't trample people to death, they will trample me to death. If others are not killed for their own sake, it is better for him to die than for me to die. So Jiang Xibao. Not as cute as Xu Conghui, of course!”

At this time, Xibao didn’t know that the person in front of him was Xu Cunzi, Xu Conghui’s father. Perhaps it was because of Xibao’s directness and authenticity that she was the one. The most special one among Xu Cunzi's mistresses.

Xibao once said: I don’t mind selling my youth, and I can survive without selling my youth. I don’t know if this is a distortion of values. Maybe everyone’s attitude and way of life are different, so I won’t criticize here, I’m just shocked. What is it about a young girl that makes her become so realistic at such a young age? , even said to be transparent. Maybe everyone knows the answer, but I still feel sad.

Even Xibao didn’t know why so many people suddenly came out to like her, including the bartender in her ex-boyfriend’s bar, the boys she met by chance in the bar, university professor Hansen, the young master Xu Congshu, and others. Xu Conghui’s fiancé Song Jiaming, including Xu Cunzi of course, Xibao said: A woman should be like a painting, not a piece of clothing. Men try it on over and over again, but no one buys it. When it is worn out, it will be 50% off. Selling is still difficult. Xibao is like a painting, and everything is like a play. Whether it is wonderful or decadent, the beholder has his own opinion. Life is just an illusion and nothing is worth it. ”

Regarding the love between Xibao and Xu Cunzi, what I want to say is just a poem:

Before you gave birth to me, I gave birth to you and you are already old.

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I wish I could be with you every day at the same time

Maybe this is fate. In the beginning, Xibao was afraid of Xu Cunzi, and Xu Cunzi was bound to Xibao. Later, I felt sad. My only hope was that someone would love Xibao well. There was a lot of love, but Xu Cunzi couldn't satisfy Xibao. No matter how much he liked Xibao, it was just a transaction. So. Later, they fell in love with each other, but at this time, Xu Cunzi's health was in terrible condition, and no one was with him even when he died, which was pitiful and sad.

When Xibao met Xu Cunzi’s previous mistress, she had to borrow money because of gambling, so Xibao had the opportunity to see her, and looking at her was like seeing his future self, " A long time ago, I was as young, as innocent, and as ignorant as you. Now look at me, look at me." Do you know? I would say, "Life is just an illusion, and everything is not worth it." At first, Xibao longed for love, but when she couldn't get love, she wanted money. When she got a lot of money and couldn't spend it all, She found that there was only endless blankness and emptiness left in her life. She walked on the street and had nothing to buy anymore. She no longer believed in others because their approach might be because of money. This was really... Sadly, at this time, the most important thing in life seems to be passing time. Yes, everything is not worth it.

I have to say that "Xibao" made me realize that having money is not necessarily a good thing. I would rather not have too much money and just have a career that I strive for all my life. That would be great. Life is empty, but suddenly a fragment came to mind. Xibao wanted to learn to carve seals, but she didn't know calligraphy. So she said she wanted to play cotton. Playing cotton was a very beautiful job in the past, with the monotonous and charming sound, the confused sweat on the workers' bodies, the sun shining into the shop, the dust in each shop, and the helpless sadness. , more like being a human being, meaningless, dispensable, eliminated long ago, not missed, but for now we still have to keep working, keep working. This is also a sad thing about life!