My hometown is Lingshan, Guangxi. The village where I live is called Guimuyuan. I have four brothers and sisters. Dad is a construction foreman, and I am the son of a farmer. It's a bit difficult to get ahead! Being born in a big family, I feel a little helpless. But judging from the views and practices of some family members and the thoughts of some poor relatives, I have been over-consumed by lawless idlers over the years.
People are great because of dreams, and I also have dreams. But there is a distance between dreams and reality, and hobbies and specialties should be separated. Don't think that you can write novels, know eighteen musical instruments, write beautifully in calligraphy and draw beautifully, just because you can't bend over for three buckets of rice. Society is very realistic. If you have no money, acquaintances don't ask if they see you. They are afraid of your famine.
I like a lot of girls, most of whom have never been in contact with them. Because I don't know how to maintain feelings, I try to fall in love with someone and get married. Later, I found out that I was like a real villain. I was cheated too much and didn't want to be cheated again. I don't even have the courage to love, because I don't believe in love anymore, and I don't believe in any woman. I hate women. I regard women as my enemies. Maybe one day, it depends on who can enter my heart and read the world inside me. I am silent because I have nothing to say! Whether to get married or not depends on whether God cares for me. I'm afraid his old man's house has forgotten me as a dream-chasing child.
After working for six years, I'm still a little uncertain. I feel very insecure about my life. I thought I could be a senior accountant after studying accounting, but we men are not as good as female secretaries and bosses who sleep all night. So there is temptation, and those who can't stand it will become' outsiders', not their original selves. I am timid, which is true. When you meet a stranger, your palms will sweat, and when you see the opposite sex you like, you will blush and your heart will beat faster. So far I dare not sing love songs in public! He also said that there would be a concert in the future, and tens of thousands of people would come to listen. Are you still scared? I still want to make movies in the future. A crew can't do it, and it has no dignity. What about the Guangfu family? I am proud to be a useful person to society, and my vows are just words?
I am like a floating boat, floating there, and there is my home. I decided to settle in Yangshuo, Guilin. Now I want to understand many things, do my own thing, live according to my own ideas and live the life I want. Many things are not what I imagined. I'm not talking about treating people. Everyone will be honored to have dinner together. So I know that nothing in the world is perfect. I will think it over before I do anything. Is there any meaning or value in what I have done? I don't need everyone to like me and support me, as long as most people pay attention. If you stay in the circle of the poor, you will continue to be poor, stay in the circle of acquaintances, and live like this in your life. So I made a cruel decision, closed the blog that had disturbed people, and qq and Weibo stopped playing. The mobile phone that communicated with the editor of the publishing house was also smashed, and the mobile phone card was washed away in the toilet.
I decided to break up with people who know me, not break up. It's not only temporary, I hope it's time to make some achievements and contact acquaintances and friends again! Otherwise, I will still be dragged down by them, and I can only protect myself for others first. My family wants me to get married as soon as possible, but I want to say: I'm in no hurry. What's your hurry? You can give me advice on my affairs, but you can't force me to make a decision. Now it is a legal society, and I don't want to or like arranged marriage.
The novel stopped writing and the song stopped temporarily. See if I can let go of my heart disease for more than ten years. Always think of some bleak fragments, such as: toothache without money to cure, such as: money is not enough to spend, hungry to write novels; For example: a person walks to travel; For example: I can't find anything to do, no one reads my manuscript, no one listens to me sing, I'm lovelorn, I'm unemployed, and Shen is lost. In short, bad things have come, and they are all good luck. There were a lot of bad habits when I came, and it was hard to get rid of them. Rome wasn't built in a day. I am down and out. Not a failure. I always stumble. How can I not be afraid to walk?
Tang Lei, who sings Lilac, wants to cooperate and have a chance to talk again. Hong Kong artist Jordan chan wants to help write a new song, but I'm not in the mood to write it. Hong Kong directors Huang Baiming and Richard Ng both want to make my novel into a movie. I want to say that I'm a little tired. Is money really that important? Family members respect me if they have money, but despise me if they have no money? I'm chilling! I feel very sad to lose my family because of money! If I sell novels to film companies and make a lot of money, I hope those people won't approach me for it. Not many people know me, but I will rest assured of what they have done. I will double the reward for being good to me, and belittle me for hurting me. I can only pretend not to know them.
Don't go home if you have nothing to do. Yes, it is long overdue. So as not to see too much horror, some ugly pictures and ugly satire. It's hard to go home. It's also a crime to go home. What an ugly thing to say! Do what you like! Maybe I prefer to live alone, eating alone, sleeping alone, shopping alone, shopping alone and traveling alone. In short, a person's life is free and unrestrained, and I like it very much!
I decided not to have any connection with the Internet. After writing these words, I bid farewell to my immaturity on the virtual network for six years. I once scolded people on qq and misunderstood people on qq. Qq can connect people together, but it can also lead to misunderstanding. Obviously, it is not the rude words spoken by the other party, but the parties will take them seriously. My life is under the internet. I will never chat online or touch blogs again. I live under the internet and live a real life. I hope people who have nothing to do will not bother me. I just want to live a simple life. Maybe without the internet, I can keep a diary and sort out my life experiences. . . .