Is there any poem that describes that I really want to go back and take responsibility for rebirth?

You ask, "What is the poem describing wanting to go back but not going back?" A: Wild geese come without evidence, and the road is difficult to dream.

Wild geese come without evidence, and it is difficult to dream a long way. Meaning: Hongyan has flown back, and the news is unfounded. It's a long way to Xiu Yuan, and it's hard to form a dream of going back.

The poem comes from the poet Li Yu's "Qing Ping Le Bielai Spring Half".