Lu Yin was first known because of Shi Pingmei.
Lu Yin is a close friend of Shi Pingmei.
She, Bing Xin and Lin Huiyin are also called "three talented women in Fuzhou".
After Gao Junyu's death, Lu Yin often smoked, drank and walked with Shi Pingmei. Even accompanied Shi Pingmei to Taoranting and wept bitterly at Gao Junyu's tombstone. They also invited each other to sing and dance in Central Park. Therefore, Lu Yin was named as a romantic woman writer.
People just watch her degenerate, but who can understand the pain and sorrow in her heart? At that time, Guo Mengliang, her husband who had been married for two years, left her because of illness. She took her daughter to her mother-in-law, but she was made difficult by her mother-in-law. Helpless, Lu Yin had to leave with her daughter. A woman, living alone with her children, can know how hard her life is without thinking. The pain of losing a loved one and the unhappiness of life are like mountains weighing on her heart. Her dissolute behavior was a cry for desperate life at that time, and it was also a way for her to vent her anger.
If Shi Pingmei, a close friend, is her spiritual companion in the journey of life, and Shi Pingmei's death has left her alone in the long journey of life. She once thought pessimistically that "death is better than life".
at this time, I am immersed in the sea of sorrow. I hope to die early. I drink and smoke every day. I try to commit chronic suicide.
Lu Yin said this and did the same. She frantically drugged herself with cigarettes and alcohol.
Later, Lu Yin wrote the novel The Ivory Ring in memory of her close friend Shi Pingmei and the love between Shi Pingmei and Gao Junyu.
In my mind, such a Lu Yin is a woman who attaches great importance to feelings and righteousness, and is depressed and casual.
this impression aroused my inner curiosity. I want to explore more stories about Lu Yin.
A white crane in the clouds makes elegant demeanour graceful.
I want to pay by iou, and I'm smiling at the cloud.
say hello to the crane, but don't go back.
the world is rough, where can Chu Kuang live?
This is a five-character poem "A White Crane in the Cloud" written by Lu Yin under the guidance of a female normal teacher. From what I read, this is exactly the true portrayal of her short life.
Lu Yin has written countless works in this short life.
"A white crane in the clouds makes elegant demeanour graceful. I want to pay the IOU and laugh at the clouds. "The white crane, like Lu Yin himself, stands high in the clouds. Her charm is outstanding, but she is tall and slim. She seems to be out of step with the real society. Unwilling to go along with the crowd made her marginalized everywhere. Life is very embarrassing. Outsiders see her as "overbearing, arrogant, or even too proud to be close to," but friends know that she is "actually an open-minded person." In my opinion, she is just hiding her inner dissatisfaction and pain with reality with the external "arrogance and arrogance". This should also be the reason why she gave herself the pseudonym "Lu Yin": hiding the true face of Lushan Mountain. What Lu Yin wants to hide is her painful and contradictory soul.
The work is the shadow of the author's true self. Lu Yin uses articles to express her innermost self, and uses words to play a game with a society that is incompatible with her.
She is a woman born to write. In Lu Yin's own words, "I dare not forget the creative life I have been working hard for the sake of mechanical teaching career, so in my busy schedule, I write whenever I have time ..."
Her life is either writing or on the way to writing. Until the end of her life, she still didn't stop writing.
Lu Yin's life can be summed up by his ill-fated life. In her own poem, she said, "Speak to the crane, but never come back.". The world is hard and rugged, so there is no room for Chu Kuang. ".
her birth and growth were bumpy.
Lu Yin's father was a juren in the late Qing Dynasty, and her mother was a conservative housewife. To say, her family background was not bad at that time. Unfortunately, her birth coincided with her grandmother's death. The newborn baby should have been loved by thousands of parents, and Lu Yin, born at this moment, was named "disaster star" by her old-fashioned and superstitious mother. Imagine who will care about the life and death of a "disaster star". No one in the family likes Lu Yin, let alone give her the care she deserves. After birth, Lu Yin was mercilessly left to the nurse by her parents.
No matter how young a child is, he will have his own perception. Perhaps it is because the indifference of family members has hurt Lu Yin's young mind. By the age of two or three, Lu Yin could not speak or walk. At the age of two, Lu Yin got sores on her feet, perhaps because of her family's disgust. The nurse took her little Lu Yin to live in the beautiful countryside for a period of time. I think, at that time, Xiao Luyin, who was far away from her family's disgusting eyes, should be happy.
Lu Yin's father may also be a simple and rude person. He hates young Lu Yin as much as his mother. On the way back to her parents, Lu Yin was afraid because of the mental injury she suffered when she was young. Crying became the only way for her to resist her fear. Father grabbed her because of her crying, and threw her directly into the endless sea. Fortunately, there was a policeman present at that time. It was he who saved Lu Yin from the sea.
After her father died, Lu Yin went to live with her mother at her uncle's house. Because her mother hates her, she can only watch her cousins go to school, but she can't set foot in it. My aunt became her first teacher, but she didn't treat her well. Beating has become a common occurrence for Xiao Luyin.
Because of the name "Disaster Star", almost all people don't like her. Whenever there is something important at home, Xiao Luyin is the one who is locked in the cabin and is not allowed to come out. The damage caused by all these things to Xiao Luyin is irreversible. At an early age, she actually thought of such a heavy word as "death". For the first time, she felt that "death is better than life". In her life, she has had this idea many times. It is conceivable that the road of her life is so bumpy.
Good love is what every woman yearns for. Lu Yin was born for love and died for love. She is a woman who is affectionate and full of water. However, her love path was not smooth sailing.
When she was a girl, Lu Yin met Lin Hongjun, a poor family, at her uncle's house. In seed of love, she saw the handsome Lin Hongjun. Perhaps it is because Lin Hongjun's helplessness made her feel like appreciate each other. Because she borrowed a book "Jade Pear Soul", she had a hazy feeling for this young man who didn't read much. However, my mother and brother are not optimistic about this poor teenager.
The opposition of her mother and brother aroused Lu Yin's rebellion. On the road of pursuing freedom of love, she made up her mind to fight against her mother and brother to the end. The result of the struggle was that she successfully got engaged to Lin Hongjun.
However, with the continuous expansion of knowledge, she found that Lin Hongjun and she were not on the same road. How can two people who live together without the same language be happy? Realizing this, Lu Yin took the initiative to dissolve her engagement with Lin Hongjun.
At one time, Lu Yin made up her mind to be single. However, when she met Guo Mengliang, her determination collapsed instantly. Guo Mengliang is a married man. You can imagine how difficult it is to fall in love with a married man. However, in Lu Yin's view, "as long as there is love, there is no problem". Breaking through many obstacles, she combined with Guo Mengliang. However, the good times did not last long. Their marriage lasted only two short years, and Guo Mengliang died. Lu Yin's heart fell to the bottom again.
A few years later, Li Weijian, an optimistic poet who is nine years younger than her, pursued her fiercely, which rekindled the spark of love in her heart. Love once again gave her warm sunshine. Her heart is also bright.
After the marriage with Li Weijian, although their lives were poor, it was these four years of poor marriage that brought her light. These four years should be the happiest time in her short life.
For the sake of love, even in such a poor living environment, she is willing to have children with Li Weijian. However, what happened later was not what she could think of. Her life ended because of this birth. She has thought many times that "death is better than living". At the moment she left, she was a souvenir for the world. Because here, there is her love
I believe in love, because it is bright, because it is sad, and because of it, I lost my life. This is Lu Yin, a woman with the highest love in my heart.
Lu Yin, such a graceful woman as a crane; A woman born for creation, a woman whose love is supreme; A woman with a rough life and full of tragedy.
for such a woman, I am distressed not only.