Ask for a sentence written on the title page of the diary

Don't speak out of turn about who you pay for and who you sacrifice for. In fact, the ultimate beneficiary of all efforts and sacrifices is yourself. Life is a lonely practice that has nothing to do with anyone. This is a bittersweet road. There must be a gift at the end of the road, depending on whether you deserve it or not. -Kama "Life is a solo exercise"

Every day I live now is the youngest day of the rest of my life.

If you don't care so much and want so much, life will be much simpler.