Is it modesty or self-esteem to call "I"

I am a person with few virtues, which means "a person who has not done enough morally". It is the humble title of ancient monarchs and princes. In ancient China, people paid attention to "ruling the country by virtue" and "matching heaven with virtue", which meant that the power of monarch and minister was given by God, but God would only give the world to people with virtue. If you lose your virtue, you lose your dignity, so you call yourself "I am a widow".