Original text:
Why don't you sit down,
I think it's been a long time.
It's over. It's all over.
Out of this world, ethereal,
I don't know where I am. Seems to have
A lotus-like cloud holds me,
(She has a lotus smile on her face)
Lift it far away. ...
Well, I really don't want to come back,
People say liberation, that may be!
I am like a cloud, a flower.
Pure white, pure white clouds, a little bit
Without weight, the sun supports me,
I am light, a ball of light,
Fly far, fly farther;
What a heavy burden, all the worries,
Kindness, pain and resentment are far away,
It's you.-Please give me some water,
This is an orange, isn't it? It tastes sweet-
It is you! Who are you?
You don't know where to go:
Yes, but only in Guang Xiao.
A green hill, a hairspring,
A subtle halo; Say at most
That's all. You want more.
My cloud can't carry it,
You, you must forgive me, my enemy! ……
No problem, I'm not tired, you let me talk,
I just want you to keep your eyes open, that's all,
Call it pity and sympathy, not love,
Bloom in your tears,
I am intoxicated by their fragrance;
Eventually, I was afraid,
A meeting made me charming,
Please allow me to have you completely,
Just a ring, let your passion,
The sun shines on the first-class stream,
Understand my cold consciousness,
You put your hand on me, like that,
Look at your strength, my weakness,
Please allow me to feel your warmth,
I feel that you are in my blood,
Encourage me to stop for the second time,
Leave an immortal mark:
This is my only and only prayer ...
All right, I'll take another sip. It is delicious.
Thank you very much. Now you listen to me.
But what can I say? Until today,
It was all over,
I just wait for death, for darkness,
I can still see you, snuggle up to you,
Talk like a lover,
Because I can't say that,
Your gentle spring breeze surrounds you,
This is unexpected happiness for me,
I can only thank you. (She closes her eyes. )
Anything is superfluous, because
Words can only explain what can be explained,
The deeper the meaning, the greater the truth.
My friend, you can only be in my eyes,
Admit it in dry tears.
I am an ordinary person,
I can't expect to be in a sea of people.
It deserves your attention in the blink of an eye.
You are the wind: every spray.
You must feel your own strength,
Inspire change from the heart,
Every blade of grass must also have
Bow your head in your footsteps,
Expressing surprise in the trembling of the edge;
But who can stop the future of the wind,
He swam across the sea growling,
Liger swept across the fields,
Now it's infinite,
How could he remember to breathe?
A flower in the waves, a petal in the grass?
Distant is the distance between you and me;
Far, too far!
If one day a night butterfly can fly out of the sky,
Turn gray in the flames of the stars,
(I often say to myself) Then I may, hopefully, get close to your time.
Alas, infatuation, infatuation of women,
You can't believe it, can you?
Sometimes, I feel really strange myself.
Who tied the knot in his heart?
Why can't I open it?
The day I first met you,
You shine like a star,
I'm just a point in the crowd,
A pinch of sand, but when I see you,
I felt a strange vibration,
Attacked my life,
Truth is a flower in the wind,
My heart is shaking,
I think my face is on fire,
I feel happy, a miracle.
The light swept before my eyes,
I feel sad again, I want to cry,
Chaos occupied my spiritual building.
But I didn't understand at the time,
I don't know if this is a relationship!
"Love", really!
Frontier, karma, I don't know what it is.
But since then, I have never been safe.
Poisoned, hypnotized,
The chain of teaching life is locked,
I can't hesitate any longer: I love you!
From now on, one of my petals
Thoughts dye you, and when you wake up,
In my dream, I can't hide if I want to.
I looked up and saw you in the blue sky.
I sing, you are in melodious music,
I want to forget, I run away,
Take another road and meet you again!
Rational diligence is futile,
Because I'm not blind, I'm just stupid.
But I love you. I'm not selfish.
I love you, but I can never be near you.
Love you, but never enjoy you.
Even if you are on my side,
I promise I'll watch you,
But you can't know my secret
I'm not jealous or envious,
Because I know you will always be mine,
It can't leave me, just like me,
I can't avoid you, the love of others,
I don't know, and I don't need to know,
Mine is my own creation,
Just like the leaves of the forest invisibly collect the morning glow and the evening glow,
I also received yours invisibly.
I can, I'm ready,
Don't say a word before I die, because I don't have to.
Death, I have seen it.
The knot of love hit my heart that day,
I will see death,
That beautiful and eternal world.
Death, I am willing to invest,
Because it is the birth of light and freedom.
From then on, I despised my body,
Not to mention the prosperity of the world,
I just expect a little longer.
It's time to catch my breath,
The bright stars are my eyes,
My hair, crystal clear,
It is a cloud that covers the sky.
The broad wind hovered between my armpits, chest and forehead.
The waves washed my calves and ankles,
Every god who stirs and pours out brilliant light!
Take electric fire as my thought,
In the sky, snakes and dragons dance,
Lei Zhen, my voice,
Suddenly, I woke Chun.
Wake up life.
There's nothing to think about, oh, nothing to compare,
The inspiration of love, the power of love!
Just as the rising sun swept away.
The fog of the field, the coming of love.
Nor is it ordinary, humble and
All vulgarity invades the mind,
Its original green Pingyang.
Didn't I say dead? Not afraid,
No more doubt, no more meanness.
This body is like a treasure;
I use my time bravely.
I said, use my time? Jesus Christ,
How many years have I lost!
No friends, leaving home,
I devoted myself to that lonely desert city,
Learn to be an old farmer among the old farmers,
Wearing cloth and sandals,
Mulberry trees are planted green, kapok trees are planted white,
Get up before dawn,
My hands are stirring the mud, and I'm wearing the burning sun.
I'm working and I'm sweating all over.
Enthusiasm to resist fatigue;
But gradually I became interested,
A handful of grass is like a treasure,
Seeing my face in the mud,
Covered with mud, in a frank cloud shadow.
Don't show some shame before.
Nature is my enjoyment.
I love Lin Qiu,
I like the breeze,
I like withered reeds to tremble in the late cool,
Half-broken red leaves fall to the ground,
The crow's shadow intrudes into the aperture of the setting sun.
What is even more lovely is the bell of the temple in the distance.
Hand in the fake cigarettes and have a quiet night!
I finished,
I walked home slowly,
There are flying insects in the dark,
There are stars in the sky,
I also have light in my heart!
At night, I light candles,
Reflected in the swaying red flame.
The only portrait on the wall,
Jesus, alone in the wilderness,
Because I don't have yours except the one hanging in my heart,
In the dead of night, I knelt down,
Looking at the portrait, praying for yourself,
Sometimes I sing in a low voice,
Give me a warm feeling,
Plumes of smoke rose into the sky.
But who heard it? Who had pity?
You're sitting at the pinnacle of fame,
There are thousands of people clapping for you,
I, accompanied by cold and night,
I was in tears, kneeling alone in front of the bed!
Year after year, year after year,
The new moon sees the circle, and the circle sees the remnant.
The cold geese lined up in words and dispersed.
Light grows on the tree I planted with my own hands,
Also known as a gust of wind blowing into dust.
I got to know Hou Ji,
The mystery of the moon and night, the power of the sun,
I began to understand the earth,
It can turn a seed into beautiful magic,
I also know everything about survival,
Reptiles, birds, grass by the river,
No matter how interesting the villagers are,
I know him, too,
Their simplicity and truth,
I know all about it.
Acquaintance is a pleasure and a kind of love.
No longer afraid of loneliness.
During those three years, although my skin became thicker,
Burn your face,
Stripping bodies, carving hands and feet,
I only have gratitude in my heart.
Because the way to light me up is love,
The lamp of the gods,
Poverty gave me energy again,
Push me forward,
Let me be willing to bear greater poverty,
The risk is greater.
Are you surprised that I have this ability?
Carelessness is the inspiration of love!
I heard that there was a filial daughter in ancient times.
To save her father,
Dare to violate the divine right of the king,
It is pure love that makes me believe.
I also heard that in medieval France
There is a country girl named Joan of Arc.
One day she suddenly took it off.
Her country clothes, the loss of her sheep,
Put on your uniform, take a knife,
Leading 100 thousand soldiers, shouting "kill thieves",
We broke through the encirclement of the enemy,
Saved the whole country,
It must be love!
Because only love can give.
Somehow brave and fearless,
Only love can open people's eyes,
Know the truth, know the value,
Only love can make people give full play to themselves.
Forward, for a goal,
Forget that fire can burn and water can drown.
Just like there is no light and heat on the earth.
There is no life, but for love,
The source of light and heat of the spirit,
All the bright and magical things
You can't have it.
Ah, I know!
I said "I know" and I'm not ashamed:
Because God knows I've been here for years,
Lonely, a weak woman,
Devoted to famine areas,
Walking thousands of miles,
Being close to hunger and cold is cruel.
And all the indescribable
Suffering enough to write a few books,
What is this for?
For what? I put every elderly victim
Don't ask him if he is an old man or an old woman.
Treat it like a biological parent,
Every child is himself.
Bone blood, even if you can't give it to them
Recovery, at least a few blows.
Strong sympathy for them.
Face, call them from my hand.
Feel a complete love.
The same kind living in purity?
What would you like to sip?
In the daily diet that beggars despise,
Swallow decay and filth.
Like delicious paste beams.
Willing to work in a village where the stench of dead bodies can poison people.
What do you see?
For what? Just because "I know",
Friend, do you believe it? I don't say, and I can't say,
Because there is an impossible love in my heart,
So that the heat of pregnancy is released to the other direction,
Maybe even if I don't know love
Can do the same thing, who knows,
But I have to thank you,
Because I got the consciousness of life from you, me and the bright spot in my heart,
From the sinking of consciousness to a spiritual world,
From then on, the faint light of wisdom will lead to endless spiritual courage.
Ah, if you can imagine me guarding the disaster area all night!
The same sky, the same starry sky,
I was alone in the wilderness,
Look up at the bridge or hedge where there are some vines with residual flowers.
At that time, every light in the sky meant something to me.
I appreciate their beauty as much as music,
Wonderful charm flows to the internal organs and bones,
I am calm, and I am not shy and ashamed to accept this gift.
Because I know that if I don't work hard for myself, I will be tired.
But it can erase our mental orifices like glass,
It will promote the unimpeded sky.
I went too far, didn't I?
But I've told my last look,
Even if you are tired, you should listen to it.
Because other opportunities won't come again,
Look at my face,
Burning red flowers like pomegranate;
This is the last flame of life,
Thank you for putting some sweet water in from time to time.
Infiltrate my throat,
Otherwise, I would have suffocated.
Your understanding is my happiness.
I don't have much time,
I can't help being anxious.
I just said how I studied agriculture,
How to reach out a weak and struggling hand in the cave of famine,
I also said that my mental health won't make me feel guilty about the stars.
But after all, I am a human being and a weak person.
Soon my body became ill,
The poison of wind and rain is soaked in the slightest,
It has become a craze.
My brother took me home from blindness,
I'm surprised I didn't die that time,
Maybe because of another sin, I will suffer on earth.
They asked me to get married, and I couldn't get rid of it.
I may have to resist. If my love for you is inferior,
But mine can't be measured by time and space,
I don't care if this minute is long or short,
I became a bride and a mother,
Although god forbids my blood to continue to exist.
I have been making puppets for many years.
A pile of clay at the mercy of others;
Although I think of you sometimes,
But I think of it as if I thought of the western Ming Xia or a flower.
No, less, not much.
Nausea at the same time, reply over and over again,
It's eating away at me, and I'm ready to die,
Embrace a beautiful secret,
Bring eternal light to
Infinite gloom.
If I had a mother, I might keep it from her,
But she is dead, and I am not attached to her;
Every time I think about it, I can't help laughing and quarreling.
I want to turn my secret into a kind storm after I die.
Into a rainbow pointing to hope,
Moss on the stone,
Lush cover up their stubbornness;
Into a dance of wings in the dark,
Turned into a bird song in farming season;
Become a beautiful article on the water;
Into waves,
Always preach that the universe is well informed;
The miserable green moon adds a lot of color to every sleeping child's dream.
Into the wonderful music among the stars ...
The final change was unexpected;
The sky let my ideal wish fail and leak in the heat.
Pearl in my arms!
But I never dreamed that you would come,
Your flesh and my blood,
Actually, when I left,
Taoran's snuggling,
I said, listen, listen, I said.
That's weird.
The gathering and dispersion of this life!
Now I can really, really die,
I want you to hold me like this until I leave,
Until I can't open my eyes,
Until I fly, fly, fly into space,
Dispersed into sand, dispersed into light, dispersed into wind,
Ah, pain, but pain is short-lived,
Is temporary; Happiness is long,
Love is immortal;
I, I want to sleep ...
1completed at 6 pm on February 25th.
reference data
Xu zhimo Complete works of Xu Zhimo's poems. Beijing: New World Press, 20 14.