Every year, the unit where I work will evaluate employees in need. Most of the people selected are due to subsequent illness or disability of their children. You can imagine that in an ordinary family, there are people who are unable to take care of themselves or need to eat all their lives. Children who need medicine to remain normal will indeed have a difficult life in the long run. But then I think about how those children with disabilities will be able to survive in the future, especially those children who are sick but have normal intelligence. They not only need to overcome the inconvenience of their own disabilities, It is also necessary to build the courage to not be afraid of the ill will brought by the outside world.
However, when reading "Boncha Girl" written by teacher Gan Yaoming, I saw another kind of "disability", which made me feel even more distressed. Although "Bangcha Girl" is just a story created by teacher Gan Yaoming, it made me hide my face and cry bitterly at the end. That kind of sadness is a kind of despair when you think you are about to reach the light but suddenly fall into the abyss of darkness, but you know that even if you are ahead Despite all the hardships, this girl will still insist on moving forward, so you want to give her all the blessings in the world.
Since his debut in 2002, Gan Yaoming has won almost all literary awards in Taiwan. His works include "Mysterious Train", "Water Ghost School and the Otter Who Lost His Mother", "The Summer When General Winter Comes", etc. Among them, "The Water Ghost" "Ghost" won the China Times Top Ten Best Book Award of the Year, and "Boncha Girl" has swept all major literary awards in Taiwan since its publication in 2015.
"Bangcha Girl" tells the story of Gu Axia, an Ami girl who has experienced darkness. She follows Pajiru, who has autism, to the forest farm "Morishaka" to establish connections with the people here and A variety of extended stories. The words in the book will take you into another world, where what you see is more related to the woods, religion, and human nature. The world is complicated, but there is still a ray of light shining in the book.
I have seen reports about how children living in the mountains go to school every day. They wake up early and walk on the mountain roads for several hours just to go to school. Life in "Boncha Girls" The same is true for children in the mountains. They need to ride in dangerous floating cages to go to school. If they are unfortunate, they may be trapped in the floating cages and wait for rescue.
There are loggers who work all year round in the mountains. They use chainsaws to cut down big trees. The wages are high, but the dangers are also great. In "Boncha Girl", there is a logger who was killed by an axe. , the shopkeeper of Linzhong Villa will help him suture his wounds and invite all the woodcutter to mourn for him.
A single mother raised three children with physical and mental disabilities. Among a pair of foolish sons, she taught them to depend on each other and treat each other as husband and wife. One day, one died, and the other still hugged him. Willing to let go.
There lived a group of special people on a farm. They had participated in the war and suffered severe mental trauma. Those who were completely mentally ill could only be locked up in the hospital and walked around, while those who were half-brained could walk around in the hospital. , after treatment, he went to dig stones, build farms and cultivate. They try to stay alive and find family for others.
There is a child with autism, but he likes trees and small animals. When he grew up, he became a somatologist, carrying a big box on his back. He would treat diseases of trees and also He could listen to the sound of trees. When he grew up, he was called Pajiru, which means bread tree, but he finally died in the arms of the tree.
There was a Bangcha girl who "besides beauty, God has given her everything, including countless sufferings." She was trafficked by her mother to others. After many unknown days, she was rescued by her grandmother with her life. , then she immersed herself in the book for five years, followed the Pajiru boy to Morishaka with the intention of running away, and started this story.
These are the characters who appear in "Boncha Girls" written by Gan Yaoming. They seem to live in a corner of this world, with illness, death, desire and suffering surrounding everyone. Look It seems like a character in a book, but it seems to have written the real life of someone in reality.
In fact, it is difficult for us to understand other people in real life. Except for those close to us, most of us learn about it from the news, books or other people’s mouths, and we know in our hearts that some things are true. It exists, but if it doesn't happen around you, you won't put too much personal emotion into it. It's not selfishness of human nature, but a kind of indifference to the things around you.
I often feel this way myself. For example, when a child gets sick or something bad happens to someone in the news, it’s not that I don’t sympathize with it, but one day I suddenly realize that this is just normal life. For others, getting sick is the biggest disaster, but if I have a friend who is heartbroken, , for me, accompanying and comforting her is what I care about most.
I am not a person with great love, so I care about the people around me. In the past, I often thought about whether every difficulty was due to my lack of preparation or my inability to sum up my experience. However, in "Pangcha Girl", I understood that every suffering cannot be generalized by its cause and effect. Suffering will be given to everyone. , but some people know how to find joy in suffering, while some people just indulge in the quagmire.
In Gan Yaoming's "Bang Cha Girl", the children can finally study on the mountain, but in the end they decide to bravely ride down the mountain in a cage because they know that the money for building the school comes from the forest, and they want to protect the forest.
In "Bangcha Girl", he wrote, "Bangcha has a habit. The living return to the place where the deceased worked or lived for many years to get more comfort so that they can have greater survival for the rest of their lives. Motivation." The dead lumberjack's children came to the forest farm. When they knew they were his children, everyone sang songs with solemn faces and asked them to lead everyone to burn incense and pray for good weather.
A single mother who lost a son told a story after burying her son. She said that people often told her that she suffered in this life because of her karma in her previous life. But she heard a story, because these children are angels, they don't know how hard the world is, so God chose the strongest parents in the world for them to protect them.
Among the group of traumatized soldiers was a man named Wu Tianxiong. Before he helped many people around Taiwan, he also carried another comrade named Wu Tianming. In fact, he He was supposed to die on the battlefield, but he created a partner for himself, a blue bird named "Ah Zhu", who accompanied him and protected him in his most difficult time.
Not long after Guaxia, a girl from Bangcha, came to Morishaka, she wanted to build a school on the mountain because of the opportunity of rescuing students who were trapped due to a faulty flow cage. So everyone in the villa knew about it. Someone made a bet with her, and she started to pick up a pen to write and contribute. Then twenty-seven children donated their change, and some even robbed the watch of someone who had borrowed money and refused to pay it back in order to help. Brother's money. As you can see, she won the bet.
Pajilu likes to stay in the woods and also likes Gu Asya. He accompanied Gu Axia to find the donor Wu Tianxiong, rescued the children in the bus that was about to explode, sold the forest to the Japanese to help her build a school, found fire-proof trees in the fire and saved everyone, and helped his senior brother win At work, he has been caring for the forest and Gu Axia in a seemingly clumsy way.
People are fragile, especially those with scars in their hearts. But in the face of love, people appear particularly tall and strong. What everyone experiences is particularly significant and profound from their perspective, so destruction and rebirth are just a matter of thoughts. I have always known that people's words can be scary, but I also know that people with inner strength will move forward bravely regardless of wind and rain. They will not only help themselves go further, but also help those around them get out of trouble.
I like the protagonist Gu Axia in "Boncha Girl", not because of her enthusiasm and selflessness for others, but because she was not pushed into the abyss by them after going through a period of dark time, even though her The body left a traumatic reaction, but she has been working hard to overcome it, and even picked up a sincere heart again. What she has is no longer a simple understanding of the world, but a gentleness after seeing the world clearly. She has a kind of Strength is also the inner strength that I am trying to gather.
At the end of the book "Boncha Girl", some seemingly natural things are explained. For example, it was written that the children were finally brave enough to go to school under the mountain in order to save the forest. The lumberjacks returned to work on the farm, forgetting nothing or deliberately remembering anything. After hearing Gu Axia's story, Wu Tianxiong decided to start a serious life, marry a wife, have children, and live a quiet life. Pajiru's mother bid farewell to the earth when she climbed to the peak. Perhaps only a few people will be sad. Gu Asia misunderstood Pajilu and went to other places. When she wanted to forgive and prepared to go back to find him, Pajilu was crushed by a big tree when he was sawing it, but he managed to break free. Then he stayed in the woods forever.
There is a sentence in "Boncha Girl", "Life is not about getting good bread every time. Eating it is a process, and you will definitely be rewarded." If it were in the past, I would definitely agree, but here I disagree. Gu Axia led me into her world. What I saw was given by the beauty in her heart, but we all know how difficult it is to get through every step.
In the process of building a school that everyone is not optimistic about, if it weren’t for the help of the children, if it weren’t for the help of her relatives, if it wasn’t for her sincerity that moved others, what we see in this story would be a failure. And a pity case.
When going to churches and Buddhist temples to raise funds, if it weren’t for the understanding of others, if she hadn’t been willing to put down her dignity, and if she hadn’t truly understood a sacrifice, she might not have been able to truly feel the kindness and warmth of the world. .
When she got along with Pajilu, if her heart had not been purely infected by this piece of wood, she would not have gotten the flower that "walked through a sun, a moon, a river, and six mountains" The scarlet mountain hibiscus will not get the man who will love her wholeheartedly.
But such a good girl, despite going through the most difficult years, still chose to believe in the world and treat everyone in the most gentle and sincere way, but in the end she lost the person she loved most. This is such a dramatic but real life. If she knew that what she faced after going back was a loss, and she didn't even see the suicide note "Faridas Don't Cry" carved on the cypress, she would still be able to persevere. Go down? I believe you must know that she will not be defeated by this moment, because she remembers all the love.
I remember once seeing a mother and a child with Down syndrome walking one behind the other on the street, both with smiles on their faces. That was the first time I saw happiness overflowing all around disabled children in real life.
I suddenly understood at that moment that no matter what the child looks like, the guidance and care of parents are the most important, and who has not been fighting this life with his life? They are like this, Gu Axia and Pajilu are like this, and so are you and me. I think this may be the meaning that Mr. Gan Yaoming wanted to express when he wrote "Boncha Girl".