I'm in a trance all the way, and I don't know where I want to go. I've never felt this way: I just want to escape. From the weekend when I didn't wear a condom with my husband, the feeling of insecurity and swaying has always filled the girl's heart. What is she running from? Fight what? Naively used her body to resist the one-hundredth chance of being pregnant for her lover when approaching the critical period, but she was afraid that she would lose the pleasure of cheating because she was pregnant with her husband's child ... She always wanted to control things well, but impulsive thoughts surged up, and finally she was forced to breathe by her excuse to follow her feelings. She doesn't want them to have sex, just want to lean on her lover's shoulder quietly, feel the heat of his chest, find the open space given, comfort her soul and light the way.
Even though she didn't want to tell the boy about her troubles, she was absent-minded, but she was thinking about her own thoughts when she repeated them. She really didn't want to be seen through by him. After seeing through, her father seemed to want to solve her problems and feel bad for her. But it keeps cutting and the reason is still chaotic. Love, how can the parties solve the troubles you have given me?
The girl plans not to meet him for a week, so as to calm her mind.
The girl has set herself several lines: she can't have sex with him in her own bed, she can't be seen before they meet, and she can't know too much about her love history with her husband. Because they are all carrying the first half of their lives, bearing the existing love and family, it is an extravagant hope that ordinary people can meet and enjoy another love. If we want to implant each other too deeply in the past, we are afraid that we will eventually get lost and become more dependent on each other so that we can't separate. Really can not be separated, although it will not reach the paradise lost, but it will also hurt people around, just for selfish pursuit of pleasure between two people.
But a girl can't do it. She can never resist her feelings, even if 99% of her reason tells herself: No! In the end, I can't even defend my own position. For him, she only has a naked open mind and can't resist it. I bet hard on my lips that I don't want him to come to my home, but I imagine how I feel after it really happens. Pay attention to your past photos unconsciously, and always have the impulse to send them to him; At the invitation of his two short messages, I took him around her school and took the bridge south river. On the one hand, she really wants to keep him in the memory of the beginning of their understanding. On the other hand, because she loves him, she is eager to share all the past with him. God, is this the impulse of love? As a result, the high school campus, the north gate grove, the playground, the riverside, the house, and even having sex with my husband are all labeled as "bugs".
boys feel the entanglement of girls and often show their uncontrollable possessiveness, but girls don't. She also keeps digging up the boy's sexual history, hoping to prove that I can give him the greatest happiness; She was full of curiosity about his wife, and unconsciously compared herself with her, trying to imply that I would do better than her. Of course, the girl knows that the reason why they have the same strong possessiveness is because of the sublimation of feelings. From the emotional development stage of traditional ideas, perhaps it is time to have the desire to walk together. However, this is no ordinary love! It has always been their tacit understanding that they only designed the story with the beginning but not the end. Even, they all avoided taking photos together, and the end may have been arranged to walk away quietly.
When the boy said that he was hired by a headhunter with an annual salary of 8,, the girl suddenly became speechless. What should she say? Stay! Don't go! Or impulsively say: Go ahead, you are worth the price! In what capacity, it seems so inappropriate to say it from her mouth. For his decision, she only needs support. No matter whether she leaves or stays, she can only be a partner in his life. This is her position. At different stages, life has different meanings, different ways and different pursuits. We can't expect two people to support each other for life like husband and wife. Maybe at some point, one of them has to change his current lifestyle because of his family and career. Their feelings can only be like the roast chicken on the New Year's Eve dinner of poor families, which is a luxury and something to miss each other when conditions are not ripe.
But the girl thinks: Your extraordinary reason can always inspire me to move forward bravely, and you are my lamp, pointing me in the direction when I am utterly confused. Our love is healthy, and we like to explore the truth of life with you and look for spiritual happiness. What I get is far from repeating mechanical promiscuous words and 5-degree climax, but really understanding my heart and trying to protect my bosom friend. Feelings have never been worthwhile or worthy. It is precisely because of your similar personality that your guilt is deeply experienced in me. It is precisely because you love each other deeply and care too much about each other's feelings that your desire to satisfy yourself becomes guilty. Your back and your eyes are enough!
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