The world has been quiet for many years, and people gradually don't talk about the lonely city.
The year of Gengzi! The dusk is beautiful, I look out the window alone, the breeze blows, the lake outside the window is sparkling, the setting sun shines on the leaves, making them glowing green. Looking at the tall buildings in the distance, he couldn't help but think of her back then, the person he said goodbye to. Take out a cigarette from your purse, take two deep puffs, and fuck love.
Back in the room, I am most afraid of light in the lonely night. Open WeChat! Those who want to chat have no news, and those who can chat don’t want to talk to them. So I turned on the people nearby, and it was so lonely! I found an avatar that looked good to me, as if I had known him before, without being too reserved or too polite. We all exchanged a few pleasantries without much emotional communication. During that time: two people, one mobile phone and one WeChat, told each other’s affairs. Suddenly one day she sent a voice message. Her voice was so sweet that it softened my heart. I seemed to be in a mystery. My intuition told me that I wanted to fall in love, but I no longer had any immunity.
The weather is very good today, with clear blue sky and bright sunshine. I was also in a good mood, and the usually depressed look on my face turned into a sunny smile. Even my female colleagues were praising me: "Your smile makes me want to treat you to dinner." I smiled and left! Because I have a very good friend, her name is "Zi Jun", I thought: Why is there such a strange name, is it literary and artistic?
What is supposed to come has come. The two people who should meet can't escape fate. We can only accept it. Even if you have never thought about it, she will still break into you like this, so directly, so simply, like a wild horse running wild. .
《2》
We are going to meet. I will get the eggs.
It was a romantic night. The dark light in the room was reflected by the moonlight and the neon lights across the road. There is no haze in the sky tonight, the stars are not so bright, and you can still see a little sparkle, and there is a bright moon hanging in the sky. It is the only scenery after this city has just experienced the epidemic, and it looks desolate. With busy life and suppressed feelings, there are still only a few people on the street even on weekends. I put on a white shirt with black pants and black pants, and walked in the dark night to meet the girl I had been chatting with for a long time. The night is dark! The street lights are dazzling. Light a cigarette, hold it in the corner of your mouth, calm yourself down, and then take a deep breath. Zijun: She wears white clothes. I walked towards it, and the closer I got, the slower my steps became, and I started to observe. Tossing and turning, the woman in white clothes could not be seen. "Damn it, have you been fooled? Is this the end of my first meeting with a netizen?" Suddenly I saw a woman with a good figure wearing a black mask. "Could it be her? She's not wearing white clothes! I don't dare to ask what to do if I make a mistake. I don't have any experience! No matter what, let's go over and have a look first." "Hello! I'm here to get the eggs. "
"I wanted to leave after taking it. I felt so embarrassed inside! I felt that I must be so embarrassed and so embarrassed. How could I do this?"
"This would be the case. Isn't it bad? I took the eggs and ran away without saying anything, as if I had never eaten the eggs."
"Would you like to take a walk? Let's go for a walk by the lake in your community."< /p>
She is braver than me, she came out again! Due to the impact of the epidemic, it is still troublesome to go to their community, and it feels like you have to go through many levels of checkpoints. But I went anyway, but she almost couldn't get in because of her high body temperature. I was extremely nervous at the time. Being treated like that by the security guard was like the police arresting bad guys. I felt guilty for being a thief! After entering, I felt much calmer inside. We didn't communicate much on the way, and we even exchanged less greetings. Compared with our daily chats on WeChat, we had nothing to say. We became silent. I kept thinking about whether I could say something, but I couldn't. , I am mute! Finally, I mustered up the courage and took her little hand. I didn't know what was wrong with me, how could I be so brave.
"What about my reservedness and my face? How could I be so proactive? Am I still a human being?"
Holding hands, I felt that she was sweating. In fact, the weather at that time was Still a little cold. I can feel her, her inner feelings.
I have looked at you for the rest of my life.
The world is far apart, but we go together and return together.
Two people in one house, three meals and four seasons.
Hold your hand and grow old together with your son.
《3》
When two people walk together, most of their hearts are with you, and half of their hearts are looking at the scenery.
We would meet frequently and go for walks on the road together. I became more and more fond of her. We live in the same city and both have stable jobs. I slowly started to want to get to know her more and more. I told her everything about me, and she told me everything about hers without reservation. Even if there were some little secrets, I thought I didn’t need to ask anymore. She would tell me one day. I believed in her as much as she believed in me.
After passing through a small alley, she walked out of the community, and I trotted away. I'm so happy to see her. This is the first time we've walked together on a date. We've slowly gotten to know each other, and we're a little more comfortable than usual, and it seems natural.
The wind blows gently, and the skirt flutters with the wind, showing an exquisite and attractive figure, which makes people think about it. I held her hand more skillfully than before. With our fingers intertwined and our hearts and hands touching, we seemed to be one step closer. The walking time every day is very short. Every time I don’t want to be separated from her. I think this is an endless road and I can walk with her for a while longer. The happiest time of the day for me is dusk, because I can meet her, talk to her, and have someone to accompany her in this lonely city.
After meeting her, I felt like I wanted to fall in love. A heart that had been empty for many years was finally filled. I often wonder: Is it destiny? Why did we arrange to meet? I thought this would be like this in this life. When a heart is rekindled, will the fire still appear? Will the persistence still appear? Will the uneasiness still appear? Will the beauty still appear?
She is older than me. In fact, I really don’t have much concept of age. I am not bound by the rules set at birth and dare to pursue what I like. Just like in Liu Yuxi's poem: "The mountain is not high, if there is an immortal, it will be famous. If the water is not deep, if there is a dragon, it will be spiritual." As long as you believe in your own things, believe in your own life, and create your own beauty, then What a tsundere!
We had a great time chatting on WeChat, and she showed me many beautiful photos of herself from the past. Yes! She is really beautiful, my favorite face shape, and she fits my aesthetic. She sent it to me and then withdrew it, and he probably thought I didn't have time to save it. Zijun may not know that the first step I clicked on was to save the photo. I was still too smart and told some white lies, but she never believed me. In fact, I also know that sometimes it is better to be honest, but men always have a little face, and I am the same. She sent me photos of her previous cooking, which looked very nice and appetizing.
I said: Why don’t you post it now?
Zijun: I used to think I was doing pretty well, but then I saw others doing much better than me, so I stopped posting on Moments.
I said: I want to eat.
Zijun: I’ll do it for you if I have the chance.
I said: That’s great.
But when walking with her, she always fails to wear a good mask, and I will remind her frequently. I feel like she is a girl who doesn't like to be obedient. But that's okay. The face that was blurry in my mind at first gradually became clearer, and I could piece together her face through it. I felt like I was living in a dream during those days. There was nothing around me that could attract my attention, except for the beeping sound of my cell phone. My life gradually gained vitality, and I began to slowly pick myself up. I also wanted to change my previous casualness, and I wanted to show my charm again. Hahaha!
《4》
Because people have a magnetic field, they have the feeling that the same sex repels and opposite sex attracts each other! No matter at that moment, or every day and night when I miss you, until now, I really like you! I forgot how I got your contact information. From being strangers at the beginning to becoming familiar with each other now, it seems like a long time, but it feels like we just met a while ago, but there are a lot of things about you! Just because I met you by mistake, you have lived in my heart since then.
What should happen will happen sooner or later! That day we were together!
In a blink of an eye, Friday came and we made an agreement that she would come to my house to cook noodles and I would eat them. I was very excited. She hasn't seen my true face yet, she's only seen it in photos. In fact, I haven't seen her either, but I can only make a rough guess. In fact, I always believe that seeing is believing and photos can always be deceiving. As usual, I walked towards her house and she walked towards me. This road came and went. I had walked it many times. I could walk to the door of her house with my eyes closed. We saw that we went to Zhongbai Supermarket to buy tomatoes, and then walked home slowly, holding hands, but there was still not much to talk about.
Arriving home in a blink of an eye, she took off her mask first, and it looked similar to what I imagined. I liked it very much. At her urging, I also took off the mask. I didn’t know her mental activity at the time, but I guessed: She probably didn’t hate it! She came to the kitchen and started operating it skillfully. Of course she still had to ask me where I put the things! After all, it was my first time here and I was unfamiliar with everything. I helped her cut the tomatoes, and when she was getting ready to fry them, I hugged her from behind. To be honest, I really like this feeling, it comes from my bones. Her waist is very thin, and it is very comfortable to hold her. I wish I could just hold her like this.
The noodles were ready in a blink of an eye. They looked delicious and felt a little salty (you can say anything here, to be honest). I didn’t finish them all, maybe she was too. When you are nervous, the more you try to do something well, it is often unsatisfactory. This is also the law of nature.
We sat for a while without eating. I wanted to put my arms around her, so we came to the room. When a man and a woman were alone in a room, something wonderful would always happen: I stuck my tongue into her mouth to tease her. Tongue, her tongue hooked up with mine, entangled together. Ten thousand words are omitted here
... To be continued
"5"
If you have never loved, there is no need to be afraid of sadness when parting.
I feel like my tears are almost dry and I cry once or twice every day. Life can be destined to be lonely. On this quiet day, I miss you again. I feel so empty in my heart. Tears spread in the corners of my eyes, making me breathless. I wish God was doing this to me. A joke, but this joke made me miserable. Just thinking about you quietly, looking through the previous chat history, and thinking about what you said. I want to know what you are doing; I want to know if you miss me; I want to know if my figure crosses your eyes when you stare into the distance; I just think of you quietly, on this ordinary rainy day, because Thinking of you, this rainy day becomes beautiful and depressing. I pray, pray for the peace and eternity of this moment.
If there really are past and present lives, maybe there really is cause and effect. Maybe you really owed me in your previous life, so you feel sleepy, confused, and helpless because of me; maybe I really owed you in my previous life, so you feel miserable and tired because of you. Because you are still sad and helpless. Life is short, take pleasure in the moment. There is nothing in this world that can't be let go of, or anything that can't be let go of! It’s just that I haven’t met the person I love. I once naively thought that I would be an infatuated person and might never fall in love with anyone else again. Until I met you and came into contact with you, it was happiness from the bottom of my heart. It was an unprecedented feeling and experience. Until one moment, my heart moved and my heart trembled! It starts to pulse, it starts to have fantasies, it starts to become addicted to it.
Hiding in bed, writing quietly, with thousands of thoughts! Suddenly I found that I couldn't write anymore. I was very confused and in a bad mood (I went to light a cigarette to sort out my thoughts).
"6"
Speechlessly, I went up to the west building alone, the moon was like a hook, and the lonely phoenix tree locked the autumn in the deep courtyard.
Constant cutting and confusion are the sorrow of divorce, not the ordinary feeling in the heart.
The sunshine in the morning is just right, warm but not dazzling. I woke up early, not feeling sleepy at all, and sent a text message to my wife. She asked me to sleep a little longer. I couldn't sleep. Thoughts were flying wildly in my mind, bumping here and there. . We made an appointment to cook together today. She is very good at cooking. In front of her, I can only do odd jobs and help her prepare dishes. I also like doing these things. I always want to help her with something and always want to treat her. Be beside her and see how serious she is when she is busy (at this moment, I will be the happiest person in the world). In fact, in my mind, she is already my wife. I feel it naturally and very kindly. I have never had this kind of experience before. Everything is done as I wish. She also told me not to waste food, as I would have nothing to eat in the future. I was deeply touched by such a simple sentence. As long as it is the food she cooks, I will try my best to finish it, because I found that now I have become a listener, and she has completely changed my views and cognition of things. I can learn a lot from being by her side. As long as I am in front of her, I am very indulgent. (That’s because she loves me and tolerates me)
I went to pick her up as usual, and my wife looked a little haggard. I wanted to ask her, but I still didn't say it. She didn't sleep very well, and it would affect her bed position, worries, and light. During that time, I felt there were a lot of little conflicts. I was also a Muggle, so I wouldn’t say anything she didn’t like to hear! It must be said! But there is no other way. I want to share with her everything that happens in the day. I want to tell her. I want her to know that wherever she is, there will be me. That’s why I still linger. Very strange! As soon as we meet, we will hold hands and walk together. We will not remember anything. We only have eyes for each other. We are all adults. We are still like children who cannot grow up. (You love me and I love you too. What a beautiful picture! Big hands holding small hands, whoever surrenders first is the dog) But why do we have to say goodbye! Why! Why! Why! If you walk before parting, you won't be sad! Wandering in this world together, eyes colliding with each other, but tears will still roll down.
The autumn of this year came a little late, at least that’s how I felt. During this period, I thought about too many possibilities. I want to know your true thoughts in your heart. I’m very sad. It’s useless, it’s so useless that I can only express my inner thoughts in this way. I am happy when I miss you, just like when I pick up my pen to write now, my mind is full of you. During those days, whenever I sat alone on a chair, I would habitually light up a cigarette, take a deep breath, and then exhale. If possible, I would like to get into your head and see what you are thinking; if possible, I would also like to enter your left atrium and see what that heart looks like; if possible, I would rather be a A bird can fly to the branch in front of your window, so that I can be closer to you. I can feel your breath. I won't sing, but stand silently in front of your window, quietly. Looking at you quietly, I like that kind of time looking at you so much, I will be very leisurely and I will be very proud.
October 8, 2020 AD.
The weather is very good today, the temperature is suitable, and it is suitable to go out. I went to pick up my wife as usual, but I was a little more worried than usual. I still passed that familiar road and watched my wife dragging her suitcase. I felt very melancholy. I had a different feeling in my heart. I felt uncomfortable and wanted to cry. I held back the tears and didn't let them appear in my eyes.
We are back home and I want it so much
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