This was eight years ago.
A rusty iron lock locked a black wooden cabinet in the corner. Grandma asked me to unlock the lock and said she wanted to take something, but she didn't give me the key. While I was wondering, my grandmother reached out her thin right hand and sank, signaling me to open the lock. I grabbed the iron lock and pulled it gently, but it didn't lock-the original lock spring had long been corroded.
Unexpectedly, the wooden cabinet was empty. I quickly opened the drawer: one was empty and the other was a wooden bowl, that's all. I'm going to close the wooden cabinet again. Grandma said, "pass me that thing!" " "
Grandma is 80 years old, as old as a black wooden cabinet. Can this old black wooden cabinet hide anything precious?
Yes, grandma wants a wooden bowl!
The wooden bowl is made of jujube and is reddish brown. Although there is a protrusion at the bottom, it is not deformed-this protrusion is a "masterpiece" of my father and me.
This wooden bowl is filled with candy that grandma saved in her mouth, fennel beans and hawthorn fruits in her hometown ... of course, it is rich in vegetable soup, sweet potato rice and corn porridge all year round. The wooden bowl is full of my desire and joy, as well as my parents' disappointment and sadness.
However, grandma wants to eat with the wooden bowl that my father and I used.
Grandma picked up the wooden bowl and was in high spirits. She said that when she picked up the bowl, she thought of my childhood father and young me.
Eight years later, grandma, who was nearly 90 years old, was seriously ill and bedridden. Grandma's illness is good and bad, and sometimes she is even unconscious. She relies on infusion to maintain her life.
On her deathbed, grandma suddenly stretched out her hands like dead wood and scratched out of thin air. She murmured a word: "Wood ... wood ..."
I suddenly realized that she must still be thinking about the wooden bowl, so I picked it up and handed it to her. Grandma grabbed the wooden bowl with both hands and died peacefully.
After grandma was cremated, I heard from her generation that my grandfather's nickname was wooden bowl!
Maybe I owe you this life.
Buddha said that it was the wish of 500 years ago that boys and girls meet once in their lives. Looking back 500 times in my last life, I got a close contact in my life. I wonder if we made a wish before the Buddha. If there is, I am willing to use 10 thousand times to meet you. I just want to tell you that I love you ... I am a person in the world of mortals, and I can only say things in the world of mortals. Buddha said, Bodhi has no trees, and the mirror is not a stage. It is also a state of forgetting. But the Buddha is the Buddha, which is incomparable to ordinary people. If a cause and effect decided a relationship in this life 500 years ago, I think we must have owed too much 500 years ago, otherwise you wouldn't owe me in this life. I owe you.
To ask what the world is, everything has its vanquisher.
When I was born, I cried for 56 days. An old gentleman who is very accurate in divination once said that this woman is predestined friends with Buddha. Now that I think about it, maybe he means that I had an epiphany because of the ups and downs in my life, so I saw through it and put it down. However, after living for more than 20 years, I have seen through a lot of things, but I have put down very little. I have always been confident that I am a quiet person, and my heart will not leave a trace because of the comings and goings of others. However, I don't know, the original quiet inside is because I didn't meet anyone who hit you. ...
meet
We met through a traditional blind date. Although the sunshine outside the window was dazzling that day, there was still an unstoppable chill. I was sorting things at my desk when I heard the sound of opening the door. I looked up and saw my parents come in first. There are four strangers of different ages behind my parents. After introduction, I realized that the aunt in her forties was an introducer, the old man in her sixties was his father, a middle-aged man in her thirties was his brother-in-law, and the youngest was him, my future husband. He was wearing a down jacket that day, and dark pants and leather shoes made him look more mature and steady. After everyone has sat down, I will serve you fruits and make tea in turn. Because everyone is unfamiliar, the atmosphere is a bit awkward. My aunt took a sip of water, lit a cigarette, crossed her legs and said slowly, "It's a thankless job to be a middleman in this day and age. If I don't know you two and know that they are basically alive, I really can't care ... I'll just say so much, and let the two children see the rest. Aunt said, my parents and his family also echoed each other, talking about the advantages of children, and even not spending money indiscriminately became advantages. I sat in a chair, smiling and nodding, but a little uneasy. It has nothing to do with this. It's like a salesman selling goods in a trading market. I looked at him from the corner of my eye, not far from me, and my heart was even more angry. What a cow! Still leaning on the chair, there is something wrong with the cervical vertebra. I know you have a big face. I always think his face looks like Zhao Benshan. Later, when I liked it, I found it looked like Wan Ziliang. When we were leaving, we talked in a hurry. Out of courtesy, we left each other's phone numbers.
acquaintance
The first formal meeting with him was at the KFC store a few days later. We sat by the window and talked while eating. Ice cubes are fully blended with cola in the cup, and sunlight shines through the window. It is very warm. Winnie Hin's piano music "Prayer" flows slowly in the room, feeling very comfortable, as if forgetting the existence of others. Although the atmosphere is very comfortable, I am still a little nervous. I sat up straight and ate alone with strangers. I'm not as open as he is. I found out the reason myself: I have no experience, so I will be fine next time. After dinner, we went for a walk in the shopping center. Later, he offered to visit his sister's house. I paused. I shouldn't go to an unsafe place with an unfamiliar blind date, but there is a voice in my heart saying that if I go, he shouldn't do anything to you. Nothing ventured, nothing gained? When you meet his relatives, you will know something about him. Although I think so, I just want to find a reason for myself to go. Perhaps since then, this self-centered little girl has been "planted" in his hands. His sister is also very talkative. When chatting with me, she always praises his little brother intentionally or unintentionally, saying that we are quite predestined, predestined? I didn't feel it. Although I agree, I don't think so, but I can feel that the relationship between their brother and sister is very harmonious. Because his aunt had to pick me up, I didn't come back by the last bus (I had to take the bus for nearly an hour and a half every time I met). When we had dinner together in the evening, he kept picking up dishes and pouring drinks for me, and I felt that he was still very considerate. After dinner, we saw that it was still early, so we went for a walk in the park nearby. That night, the moon was very round and big, and the park was lit up without street lamps. Tired of walking, I sat on the wooden chair and watched the moon chat. He said, "Are your hands cold? Let me see if your hands are cold. " I didn't think much, so I held out my hand. I didn't know it was his first design until he replaced my hand.
conflict
With the coming of summer, we are already familiar with him, and we don't know when we began to like him. The constant warming of feelings makes me feel more and more inseparable from him. The more I do this, the more I want him to make a promise to me, make a decision and take practical actions. But I feel that his words are far from this action, and he always seems to shirk and perfunctory me. I am very angry. If he has something to say directly, maybe I will accept it frankly. But his flashing eyes and fluent words made me feel that I didn't notice myself. If that's the case, falling in love with a man who doesn't love me, then why bother yourself and let yourself lose weight day by day? Every time I look forward to his arrival, I don't miss him when I meet him, and I don't know what to say when I meet him. His words are irrelevant, which makes me feel capricious. He said that every time he came to see me, he would be angry because of my performance and words, but did he know the pain in my heart? In the future, the life of separation between the two places, more than an hour's drive, makes parents very embarrassed. Say you'd better forget it and find a local one. But with one person in my heart, it is difficult to hold another person. I only have one heart. Sometimes when I look at him, I look at him thoughtfully. He doesn't know why I am sad, but he doesn't know my pain! He said, I don't know what to do if you don't tell me, but haven't you ever eaten pork and seen pigs run? I don't know. What else do sophisticated people not know? Do I have to express everything on my own initiative? Isn't it upside down? Alas, this matter, this situation, this scene, is so bitter. Sometimes I lie on his shoulder and think about it all my life, thinking nothing.
It's really hard to love someone.
As the days go by, we are still so leisurely. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm so tired. If two people are more tired than happy together, then why waste so much? It's better to separate. I wanted to give up, but I really moved. Can I really wave my sleeve and take away a cloud? I waited for his call for those two days. If he can say something, I will stay and stay for him. But he didn't. I see. Maybe I'm not very important to him. I picked up my backpack and got on the train to Beijing. There is a lot of noise in the train and the atmosphere is very lively. Looking at the energetic students visiting Beijing, I suddenly feel old, although our ages are not much different. I was in a daze for 18 days, and my body was exiled, but my body and mind were still imprisoned. No matter where I go and where my eyes stay, my image will appear, and I am very angry with myself. Why is it so disappointing? Just one person. What's delicious? There are many good people in the world. Why can't I let him go in my heart? Later, he also came to Beijing, but I didn't see him. I didn't tidy up because I was in a mess. Meeting here won't solve any problems. Let's finish where we started. I gave him a call when I got back. After all, we're not officially over. It's better to call out of courtesy. On the phone, I told him the time and number of trains to go back, but he didn't say whether to pick me up or not. I don't want to answer, so I will die even more! It was raining in Mao Mao before getting off the bus, but it stopped raining after arriving at the station, but it was still drizzling in my heart. Father and brother came first and told me he was here. The moment I saw him, my heart seemed to come alive again, and maybe it will never die. What "brave words", when to heal the wound, and why not contact him resolutely are all nonsense. Forget it, I surrender. Don't ask him if he really loves me, even if it is hypocritical, but I feel it is true. I'm so stupid. I'm a moth to a fire, born to die. He took my baggage without saying a word. We talked all afternoon that day and looked at the man in my eyes who made me happy and worried. I thought a lot and felt it after more contact. The more moved, the more irrational. If you are less rational, you will be emotional. In the face of this man who moved me for the first time, the man who can stay in my heart, and the first man in my life, it is enough for a stupid woman to forget. Once dribs and drabs hung in my heart like beads-after a quarrel, we made up. It was dark and windy, so he dressed me. I watched him wearing a light coat and couldn't bear to accept it. Later, he wrapped me in clothes. What he said to me was too straightforward, like auditing accounts. I can't stand it. I broke up. Knowing that he was wrong, he bought an everlasting rose to apologize to me, leaving me cold with a straight face. Going out for a walk and standing in the mountains, he shouted for love. I asked him to translate 584 13 142 1. He was so stupid that he didn't know what it meant until I prompted him. He put his arms around me from behind and whispered in my ear, I swear to love you all my life. When there is only enough for one person, he will always give it to me, but the result is always half of us. -I once read a newspaper, which said that when a woman tells a man that she wants to have a child for him, the man will have two situations: one is to change his face immediately and then run away from home, so as to play the missing game with you; The other is that he will work harder to make money and be a good person after listening to it. But when I told him about it, he was very moved and looked at me affectionately, saying that he would love me and hurt me all my life. I just wanted to test his reaction, but these were not the two situations mentioned in the newspaper, and I was shocked at that time. When the bus was cold, he covered my ears with his hand, and when he got off the bus, his ears turned red with cold. My hands are always warm in winter and cool in summer, so when it is cold, he will cover my left and right hands and pass on his temperature to me. When I am tired, he will let me lean on his shoulder. Actually, I know he's not feeling well, and neither am I. -once he said that when I was eating at my house, I touched him and felt my concern for him. Hearing this, my heart trembled and it hurt. Yes, I am only used to letting him take food, but I don't care about people, let alone people I love. Yes, but can you learn this? I always feel that I haven't grown up, so let him take care of me. -I foolishly circled his rest day with a pen. Ring three times when you make a phone call, which means I love you. Write down his favorite food, shirt size, waist size, shoes size and trousers length, and tell him what he likes to do and eat from time to time so that he can remember. It's really hard to let go. I can't forget it. I can't let it go. I really don't want to let it go. Since you said it was difficult to integrate into my family, why didn't you go? Why do you always look at your watch and wait outside? -Can't I sit for a while? -Newcomers are of course guests. I leave at 3: 30. It's only three minutes before 3: 30. Let's leave now. Goodbye! -Do you cry? -I will cry, but not now, not in front of you (in fact, I have tears in my heart and can't help crying). -You'll be mad at me. ...
final
In fact, this is not the last, because life goes on. We got married, which is the only thing I think will happen soon. It took less than 10 days before and after, which made us in a hurry. He was so happy on his wedding day that he always grinned. Just like the day I got my marriage certificate, he solemnly asked me to raise my hand and swear in front of the Civil Affairs Bureau. What the hell? He also swore that I was angry. He quickly smiled and explained to me that their colleagues were like this before applying for the certificate, and then he raised his hand in front of me and swore that I was like this. In fact, it's not that I don't like the pledge of eternal love, it's just a moment's feeling. It is most important for everyone to live in peace. In the days after marriage, everyone is adapting to each other. After all, there is no one else in their life track for more than 20 years. But there was an accident. I gave up our first child because of my illness. He likes children very much. He always said I wanted to be a father. What do you think you will be like as a mother? I remember him putting his ear to my stomach and listening to the sound with dignity. In fact, he can't hear anything, but he will say that I heard it. I couldn't help laughing when the baby called dad. I want to get better soon and give birth to a healthy and lovely baby for him. I like Xi Murong's poem "When every girl is born, there will be a boy waiting quietly in a corner of the earth", which makes me believe that the boy waiting for me will definitely appear. "A Flowering Tree": How can I meet you/at the most beautiful moment in my life/for which I prayed in front of the Buddha for 500 years/begging for it to make us have a dusty relationship/The Buddha turned me into a tree/growing/blooming along the only way you have to go ... I read this poem again and again, thinking that life is alive, and we have been kneeling in front of the Buddha for hundreds of years, but we didn't know that? Is it easy to come to this world once? Is it easy to meet once? Whispered: Honey, is it easy again? So we should cherish this hard-won happiness and cherish the people we have. I don't know and dare not say what will happen to us in ten, twenty or thirty years, but I know that it is enough to seize the present and seize this moment. Let him know that although I am willful sometimes, I really love him. I gently touch his sleeping face and want to say to him, "Husband, maybe I really owe you in this life!" " "
Kuaile bicycles
1
In the village where our family lives, people call bicycles "foreign cars", not bicycles. Not only do you call bicycles that, but many other things are also used to adding the word "foreign" in front of them. For example, matches are called "matches", kerosene for lighting is called "foreign oil" and pickaxes are called "foreign picks". My eldest brother was the first person to call a "rickshaw" a bicycle. Therefore, it has attracted much attention among children.
Shouqing, the son of the village chief's family, disobeys my eldest brother's leadership and has always been against my eldest brother. There is a reason why Shouqing dares to be so arrogant. According to my second brother's analysis, there are three main reasons why Shouqing dares to do this: First, Shouqing thinks he is the son of the village head and has always regarded himself as the successor of the village head among his children; Second, he is proud of his death. Although he is afraid of the three of us in his heart, he is the head of a child in the west village, and Shouqing has to carry it with my eldest brother, otherwise his prestige will be lost; This third point is particularly important. Shouqing likes Shan Mei in their West Village, and his eldest brother has been thinking about her. In this way, eldest brother became Shouqing's "rival in love". Keep clear and dare not retreat. If he does this, he will be a bear, and Shan Mei looks down on him.
The first time I saw a bicycle, it was the village postman who came to deliver letters in the village. Letters will naturally be sent to the village head's home, so the first Youth League will be the first to see them. He told the good news to his close friends, but kept it a secret from the children in the East Village. Shouqing's despicable behavior aroused the strong indignation of the children in our East Village. My eldest brother got an insider's report that the postman was coming to deliver the letter, so he led us to ambush the postman on the mountain bag at the entrance of the village. At that time, we were armed to the teeth and wore hats made of tree strips, like PLA soldiers in movies. He has a weapon on him. It's a pistol made of sorghum stalks. The eldest brother led his brothers to lie on the hillside for more than two hours, and everyone almost got heatstroke. My eldest brother frowned and encouraged everyone as seriously as the head: Comrades, we must hold on. Victory belongs to us. The eldest brother glanced at the second brother and said, Li Zhengwei, give us a cheer!
Li Zhengwei is my second brother. He is the political commissar of our team. Big brother calls me second brother at the critical moment. My second brother can play and sing, and he is also good at ideological work. My eldest brother's team has just been built, and there is an urgent need for talented people like my second brother. So, in this spring, my second brother was elected as the "political commissar". Second brother, cheer up and say I'll tell you a ballad. The second brother licked his lips dried by the poisonous sun and recited on the "position": Li Shangen, riding the pier, beautiful: why do you want to marry a wife? Light a lamp and talk. What are you doing? Sewing clothes and socks. What are you doing? Blow out the light and touch mom.
At this time, a little soldier reported that the position was out of water and could not hold on. Big Brother banged his fist on the ditch and said, What a lazy donkey grinds shit. A monitor led two soldiers down the mountain to find water. Remember, you must pay attention to safety, go and come back quickly. In fact, everyone is thirsty, just pretending to be strong. The first monitor was our neighbor Xu Changsheng. As soon as he heard that there was a task, he stood up loudly and replied: Please rest assured that the commander comrades will complete the task!
Xu Changsheng came back soon after going down the mountain. Xu Changsheng stammered, no ... OK, commander ... Comrade, the enemy escaped ... and then left ... by another way. Eldest brother's hand immediately rolled into two cylinders, observing the distant path in the trench. Eldest brother's "telescope" worked normally, and sure enough, he saw a green postman riding a green bicycle gradually drifting away. Eldest brother made a decisive decision and said to me, damn it, we were played by the enemy. Everybody, set off the explosives. Come with me.
The bike is too fast, and everyone tries to catch up with the postman. Watching it gradually blur into a small black spot in our sight. In the post-war summary, eldest brother sadly summed up the lessons of this battle failure and held a grand memorial service for a monitor. Every time we fight, Big Brother has to make some people "sacrifice". This not only reflects the cruelty of fighting, but also makes our life full of human feelings. Everyone can enjoy the joy of victory and the sadness of losing his comrades. Xu Changsheng, the monitor, was exhausted because he ran down the hill first and then up the hill. When he charged, he was left behind by everyone. Such a hero who first discovered the enemy's situation, once sacrificed, will undoubtedly arouse our nostalgia and sadness. So, under the arrangement of the eldest brother, a squad leader was unfortunately hit by an enemy mortar shell, his head was injured and he died gloriously. When the second brother gave a eulogy, Xu Changsheng, the monitor, was moved to get up several times to show his determination, but he was pushed down again by the kind soldiers and "died" again.
Speaking on behalf of the superior leaders, eldest brother asked everyone to turn grief into strength, resolutely and thoroughly smash the plot they celebrated, go deep into the study and find out how powerful the bicycle is.
A few days later, the postman went to the village head's house to deliver the letter. The green bike is beside the toilet in front of the village head's house. Eldest brother immediately assembled troops and headed for the West Village. From a distance, you can see that the road next to the mill road in Nishimura is heavily guarded, and the children in Shouqing and Nishimura have tightly blocked this area. They ambushed us as soon as we appeared. Behind the woodpile, under the stone wall, the soil is flying. I was too scared to show my face behind my eldest brother, for fear that the bullet would miss my eyes. Big brother is majestic and fearless in the rain of bullets. He walked all the way to the edge of the mill, and his men backed away in fear. Eldest brother righteously, loudly advised the enemy with soil to put down the butcher's knife and become a Buddha. Big brother went straight to the green bike. Unexpectedly, Shan Mei, a female guerrilla lying in the toilet, hit him on the forehead with a piece of clay. Eldest brother fell to the ground in an exaggerated way.
Let's go and save Big Brother. Fortunately, Big Brother was only slightly injured. Eldest brother slowly opened his eyes in the call of the crowd. Shan Mei was so anxious that she almost cried. Shan Mei said: "I just want to hit him in the stomach, but I don't want to have a bag on my forehead when the gun goes off." . Second brother cursed loudly, asshole, what kind of marksmanship are you? I tell you, if our commander dies, we will desperately look for you. Eldest brother said feebly, Li Zhengwei, don't blame her, she is also a good comrade, just cheated by the enemy. My brother's words were full of emotion, which completely touched Shan Mei. My eldest brother has recruited Shan Mei since this bicycle-watching battle. If anything happens to the children in the West Village, Shan Mei will take the initiative to report to my eldest brother.
The village where we live is called Gangwan ditch, Donggou is a jar, Xigou is a bowl, separated by a river. The whole village has a population of more than two thousand. My eldest brother was the first person to call foreign cars bicycles.
2
The name of the bicycle caused great controversy among the children in the village.
The children in the village finally formed two factions, one is the "rickshaw" faction represented by Shouqing and Shan Mei, and the other is the bicycle faction with Big Brother and Second Brother as the backbone. Big brother pie, including second brother, can't explain what it means to call a bike. You said it meant riding alone. The postman sometimes obviously takes people in the back seat of the car. Ask big brother, big brother only said that calling a rickshaw is a traitor anyway, and only calling a bicycle is a good name. No matter what his name is, my second brother and I will support him unconditionally as long as the eldest brother calls.
That green bike was seen enough by us that day. The second brother wanted to touch and defend the doorman to the death, and finally called the postman. The postman pushed the green guy away and ran for two steps. One foot stepped on the pedal and the other foot turned his fat ass over the seat from behind. This guy is really proud, riding a green bike and stealing all the scenery in the world. What everyone wonders is that this car has no legs and only two round wheels. How can it ride down and run like a fart?
Second brother, as a political commissar, has been paying close attention to Shan Mei's sneak attack on Big Brother. The second brother is very vindictive. He has been waiting for the opportunity to clean up Shan Mei. Second brother knows that if you want to completely defeat Shouqing, a foreign automobile school, you must first clean up Shan Mei. My second brother specially held a secret meeting, only me, my second brother and Xu Changsheng attended. Xu Changsheng didn't become a monitor this time because he died in the last battle. His second brother called him deputy political commissar. Questioning the identity of second brother Feng. The second brother said, if you are, let you be, and I won't let you be an outsider. Our third son worked his ass off and followed me all day. Now he is still an ordinary trumpet player. This is organizational trust, you know? Xu Changsheng said, the commander comrades don't know, it is impossible. My second brother said it was a special date. If you don't listen, I will shoot you on behalf of the party and the people, lest you reveal organizational secrets. Xu Changsheng was afraid, said political commissar, I still can't do it.