How does Searching for Stars express the poet's mentality and situation when his ideal is frustrated?

The reality disappointed him, and he wanted to find his ideal. Searching for Stars is the declaration of the author's pursuit of ideals. He said that he would "rush into this dark wilderness" and "look for a star" even at the cost of "lying in the wilderness and lying dead at night". The "star" the poet is looking for is "expecting the birth of a white baby". Therefore, in a painful trance, mother "seems to hear the voice of God's permission to pray on the earth, and she seems to hear the voice of angels praising the bright future." To this end, she endured, resisted and struggled, immersed in "the hope of the birth of a completely beautiful baby." Although what is written here is the hope of Chinese mother, isn't it the poet's own hope? A fragrant and beautiful baby is no different from the ideal society pursued by Xu Zhimo in an instant. The poet once said, "No matter who it is, no matter what power it is, as long as it can sweep away a haze that weighs on our spirituality for us, as long as it can give us a new self-awareness, inspire my potential genius and strength to do real creative work, and build a real human life and living culture-no matter who it is, we say that we all fall in love." Lenin, Christ, Rockefeller, Gandhi; Atheism, money worship, an enlightened and good society, the * * * production party and the Three People's Principles; Anything, as long as he can realize what we need and want most-a rediscovered soul of China. From then on, the poet began his pursuit of adventure-pain-failure-disappointment on the road of "bumping left and right" (who knows). In order to realize the ideal of freedom and find the shining stars, the poet went forward without hesitation.