The pace of time keeps walking on the long road of years, and I have quietly reached the age of 30. As the saying goes, you stand at thirty, but now you have accomplished nothing. When I say nothing, I don't just mean work or career, but everything is fine.
In the silent night, listening to the songs I heard together in those years, holding a cigarette that burned to the end in my hand, I recalled my dribs and drabs over the years with loss. Trying to find the only thing that makes you successful, it turns out that success has become the thing you despise most.
Silently watching my childhood partner get married, from the child of that year to someone else's parents.
Quietly watching my parents' temples gradually show white hair, my back gradually bends down.
Looking at my colleagues and friends in those days quietly, they all took a step towards success and became the bosses of others.
It should have been a fruitful era, but it was mixed with debt. Let yourself get confused gradually, even lose the direction of life.
When you see childhood friends and have your own happy family; When you see your friends achieve what you want, and then when you see your parents' eyes full of vicissitudes of life. Can you still eat yourself to death? Even if everything starts from scratch! You have to come out and put up with it.
Although some peers have put themselves far away, they have no choice. Although it takes unimaginable efforts to realize this illusory dream, I have no choice. Maybe only at the moment of success can the dream I had today be transformed into a dream. If it is broken, it is a dream, because I have no choice.
Sometimes I keep asking myself in my mind that if I hadn't been lazy, I might not have encountered such a difficult choice today. Unfortunately, there is no turning back time in the real world. What has happened is impossible to change. The only thing that can be changed is who I am now. Since no way back, there is no need to return it. When faced with the final resistance, perhaps a person's true potential can be truly stimulated.
Since we are determined to start from scratch, let's add a sentence from now on!
In the process of remembering, I have also thought about my own problems, but until now. My most serious problem is that I like procrastination. I still remember the first time I gave myself an excuse for procrastination: "I have something to deal with in my hand, and I'll start when I'm done." In this way, I gradually got used to procrastination and making excuses for myself.
Until now, I really realized that the perfect and exquisite excuse. You can never cheat in real life, but you will pay a heavy price for the excuse of cheating. So there is no such thing as starting tomorrow, only practical actions from now on. Only in this way can we make up for most of the regrets left before coming back.
Secondly, it is no longer just three minutes of heat, three days of fishing and two days of drying the net. Just because I have no extra time to waste for myself now, if I waste one more minute, I will spend a hundred times as much time to make up for it. Think about parents' expectations and their responsibilities. What reason can they choose to waste?
Conclusion:
Are you glad that you have made a decision today, or are you laughing at your daydreams today? Look at your actual actions now, there is nothing to be afraid of. The terrible thing is that you don't have nothing. At that time, maybe I will be afraid!
I also wish you, who lost yourself like me, find yourself as soon as possible. Set foot on the road of progress again. In the future, I won't regret today's decision.