Wilderness road

? When I think of what happened today, I can't help but think of what the Israelites experienced when they left Egypt in the Bible. ? We could have reached the beautiful land of Canaan in 40 days, but it took us 40 years and nearly a whole generation died because of the sins of the Israelis.

I am like this, because of unforgivable mistakes, I personally ruined my upcoming beautiful life. And there is no future. In fact, that's it. I'm already suffering from it. I'm complaining. Any complaint won't help. When my wilderness road comes, I must finish it myself. It's just that I can't make way for longer, even without end. I'd rather be the one who can walk in the wilderness than fall in the wilderness.