Why is spiritual warfare so painful and my heart feels like needles pricking me?

Justify God's name

I believe in God, because in my opinion God created this world, and for God, we should love him, fear him, and rely on him. And I admire Nietzsche and admire his anti-Christ spirit and courage.

Why does such a "contradiction" arise? That starts with Christianity. I believe in God, but I don't believe in Christianity. Because I know that God is in my heart and by my side, and He is influencing me all the time. But I also know that reverence for God cannot be described by a simple religious definition.

It cannot be denied that Christianity is an extremely important part of Western culture. It is also reflected in the spiritual core and quality of Western civilization, Western philosophy, values, literature and art, educational ideals, politics, law, and economy. Institutions, social customs, science and technology, and social development are all closely related to Christianity. But it is just a religion, and it cannot be separated from its social aspect. As a kind of religious consciousness, it is impossible to get rid of its inevitable connection with the dirty side of human society (that is, man's original sin and other evils). We can say that God exists eternally, and Christianity was created by people (or saints). Although Christianity and belief in God are closely related, we cannot equate the two because of this.

In the religious consciousness of the Old Testament, what occupies an important position is the motivation of man's insignificance and slave-like obedience. In the religious consciousness of ancient Greece and Rome, what still dominated was the painful awareness of man's powerlessness, that is, he would be at the mercy of the Almighty God or suffer an unpredictable fate. Christianity can never get rid of the idea that all existence, including its own existence, is "attached" to ruthless and indifferent forces, and therefore is full of trivial emotions and "panic" fears. It is this kind of thinking that makes those Christians always submissive in front of God. Their fear of God is even greater than their respect and love for God. The best example is the people under theocratic rule in medieval Europe. The Renaissance movement that followed and the introduction of humanism (that is, emphasizing human independence, nobility and pride) were also a subversion of this religious consciousness.

As mentioned above, because of its man-made creative characteristics, Christianity is bound to have a connection with society and politics. Moreover, this connection is very interesting when we look at it today. Close. Christianity places great emphasis on the idea of ??religious hierarchy, the consciousness of rights, and the consciousness of hierarchy. There are words in the Bible, "But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's own people, that you may proclaim the message of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light." Virtue" (1 Peter, 2.9), and there are related descriptions in the Gospels: the true light that came into the world "gave power to become children of God" (John, 1.12) to those who received it. In Christianity, the ideas of class, power, and untouchability are clearly promoted. Under the Christian system, ordinary people are always in a position of being thanked and ruled. Regarding God, they need to convey their reverence for God through the so-called "representatives of God" and seek God's protection and protection. Bless. In Christianity, God and man are separated by another class, and this class naturally becomes the nobles, crown princes, heirs to the throne and high-ranking clergy.

However, God does not communicate with people through a certain class, let alone the secularized church. Christ also had the revelation that God is a loving Father. To me, God, the protector and defender of man, the preserver and representative of good. He must treat human beings, his people, or his creations with a heart of fraternity, equality, and freedom. In the eyes of God, everyone is equal and everyone has the right to seek blessings. God is everywhere, He is our Father, and He is in our hearts. As long as you listen carefully, you can hear God's call. God is always caring and connected to you. The connection between God and man is the connection of love. This origin of God is also the basis of human existence.

However, in Christianity, God no longer provides relief to the world. He is lifted up beyond the limits, and every god is "deified". He ceased to be a father and became the supreme power that ruled the world and the giver of power to the earthly kings. In Christianity, God no longer has his own words, but the vulgar words of mankind. God no longer sees human suffering, but instead offers simple atonement. God, the Father, is like a puppet, like a symbol, he is no longer spiritual, although "God gave us his soul." We have to say sadly that God is dead. That great God is dead. Under the oppression and blindness of Christian worldliness, God died.

People always have to have faith. Throughout thousands of years of human history, people have been constantly searching. Finally, people heard God’s voice and felt God’s favor. However, Christianity distorts all this. I believe in God and I believe it deeply. But I am opposed to Christianity and to the secularized and utilitarian faith. Because I believe that faith is pure, direct, and available all the time. And God’s love and care must also be direct and extensive.

The boy said something disrespectful, may the Lord forgive my sins, Amen