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? If there is a postman in heaven, will the world miss less? Dad, please allow us to think of you quietly on this special day.
? You handed in your life test paper on the morning of the sixth day of the sixth lunar month 10:20. It's just, dad, you only got 5 1 on this paper. Is this score a bit irresponsible? In this calm and prosperous day, you chose to sleep.
? Four and a half years, on the road to anti-cancer, you persisted for four and a half years, a little longer than the doctor expected. A family of three cried at the gate of RT Mart, which is the beginning of the story. At that time, I didn't believe in God. God never cares about good people, or he is often blind. We gave everything to the doctor, to fate. Since then, I have embarked on a dead end of chemotherapy, radiotherapy and immunotherapy. Yes, this is a dead end. Getting narrower and narrower. The more painful you walk, the more powerless you are. Finally, he became a little old man who weighed less than 70 pounds.
? 1 2, you basked in the sun at the door and wore a black hat. I didn't recognize the man in the car. I'm still wondering who this little old man is and mistook him for my grandfather. How long, two months? My mother-in-law said let me see you for the last time, and it really became the last time. How much I reject her saying that, I think you can endure until my baby is born. You smiled and told me that this year the government gave you more than 10,000 yuan at a time, more than in previous years. You also asked mom to buy me a pork belly to take home. Eating pork belly is good for the baby. The cherry I bought for you said it was delicious, but the pure milk I asked you to drink said you didn't like it. I want to give you a hug, but I dare not.
? 1 9, the day after you left, you weren't on earth, but we were all there. It is foggy today. I wonder if you have found your way home. Are you cold over there? Brother is wondering why you can't wait a few more minutes. He is downstairs! I can't believe you keep saying that my brother can't let his fart out for a long time. He is the one who has been crying since you left. I always thought it was a dream yesterday, and I always wanted to wake up. Looking at your WeChat, I can't touch it. Today, I just want to sleep in my dream. There is no you in the dream, but there is no fact that you are not there. Dad, please tell us how to move forward.
? 1 month 10, the third day after you left, it rained. We are still in this world, suffering, and getting used to not seeing you. Mom doesn't have to worry about eating more or less. You left her a lot of private messages last year. She is very enthusiastic. In fact, I always thought you were abusive, arguing and fighting until you got sick. Grandma is as open-minded as before, and last night's voice didn't recognize any sadness. You know, my brothers won't treat her badly. Finally, you left us nothing. Mom said, you know there is no money at home, so you can liberate everyone. I told you, I gave you a bonus, and I have made up my mind that this money will enable you to spend the new year. I dream of my hometown these days, but I can't dream of you. Have you found your home? Have you seen us? So thin, should not be bullied? I dare not look at your photos, but I want to see you and ask my brother that you have not come to anyone's dream. What are you up to?
? 1 month 1 1, on the fourth day, I remembered that you were no longer in tears and discussed the future with my mother. She said that she would continue farming, and you told her that the country had made a lot of money for farmers this year. She will continue to guard your fish pond and give up some of her vegetable fields. Will you be relieved to hear this? You have always opposed her growing vegetables. After you left, she woke up. We are all looking for the way slowly, so you should find the way in time. If you want to be a man in the next life, you must join a better family, not necessarily whose father, but whose son, who is disease-free and prosperous. We will get used to not seeing you, live our own lives and miss you with a smile.
? "Pear blossoms reflect poplars, which are all life and death." Please give this letter to the postman in this sunny Tomb-Sweeping Day. Since then, you have slept, and I often think that you are well.
-written on the evening of April 4, 2022.
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