You can't experience the abundant glory of God. You can't follow this spiritual path according to your own will and bloodline. You find it impossible, and it is getting harder and harder. Because you don't look to God to open the way for you, you need to be deeply humble and repent before Jesus, make Jesus your savior and Lord of life, patiently seek God's plan and guidance for your life, and quietly wait for the Holy Spirit to enlighten you through different channels.
Only by walking in God's perfect will can everything flourish and experience God's presence, love and great grace, making your life valuable and meaningful.
I don't want to be a confused Christian and waste my time. Making friends with the secular world is often more controllable than the physical self, and is led by lust and selfish desires to indulge themselves. Today, many Christians live in the comfort and lust of the body, but they have never entered the real spiritual life renewal, and they can't witness the masters from generation to generation.
Many people keep their eyes on the world instead of looking up at the glory and glory in the sky. God chose you, but you don't know how to glorify and serve God. I hope you are a really smart child, not a stupid Christian.
Grasping the time God has given you in the world is to serve and glorify God.