Later, I read a short article about it written by another female writer friend. This friend said: Although Lin is not a genius, he has surpassed Chinese mainland's so-called bestseller and even serious writer in recent years.
Yes, out of professional sensitivity, we talked more about his artistic achievements. I have healed the wound and stayed away from the pain. So, you can sit and talk, and you can evaluate art carefully.
Looking for Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise, I gradually fell in love with it. When I read on, I found that behind the exquisite language form is "being good at exercise, far more than temperament". Temperament is far from weak, but alienated by language forms. Readers must read carefully, read intensively, deduce from the text and dissect various rhetorical devices in order to see the author's true colors clearly. This is the same as Li Guohua's structure. You have to admit its artistic charm, but you will also get lost in the context. I was very painful and hesitant, but I actually aroused my sexual desire. She said: My writing has degenerated. Then, what kind of emotion is "alienated" by Lin's exquisite artistic language? Did she say, "Love for teachers?"
Li Guohua gave "honesty" to test Fang Siqi's self-esteem. Fang Siqi has strong self-esteem. It must be said that Fang Siqi lost her virginity because of Li Guohua's keen capture and steady progress of human weakness.
After the incident, her world, her body and mind seemed to have experienced a catastrophe in a chair, and other parts of her self were given death, but her sexual desire was completely satisfied because of her confession, and even rose steadily. Can this be forgiven? No, this must be forgiven! "I must love my teacher, otherwise I will be too painful, because the person you love can do anything to you, right?"
As teacher Feng Duo said, "She didn't say no to infringement. She can't find the reason, can't accept the reality, and let herself love. This is actually an escape. "
Another example is the poison of the poisonous tongue movie, sir: "The first reason why sexual assault on girls can happen is ignorance." Then, from ignorance to escape, from the lack of parents' sex education to their own initiative to chew, whitewash and complete sexual assault, what kind of evolution has it experienced? Why didn't the author learn from the pain, live high?
Does she really love the teacher? Yes, absolute loneliness sublimates sexual abuse into irresistible love. Because, at least, it is also a kind of connection, the deepest connection on this issue. But these are all external explanations and do not go deep into the core of the problem.
Ignorance. When I was sixteen or seventeen, I really didn't know anything about sex. I imagine that the closest contact with my ex-boyfriend will be holding hands? At that time, as my ex-boyfriend, he was also my mentor at that time, with the charm of poet's language and the stability of spiritual mentor. At that time, I was deeply attached to and trusted him. Lin said, "I love my talent." The story of talent failure is probably the best excuse. Family changes, denial of the education system, high awareness of loneliness and lack of friends, the shadow cast by the times, isn't it my ex-boyfriend's talent? I remember when that scene happened, there was only such a relatively private space and no relationship was established. However, when there was sudden physical contact, I clearly knew that it was not love, even though I loved him deeply. I'm just loyal to my feelings at that time, nausea, disgust and attack. Maybe Fang Siqi is younger than me, and the situation is even worse. But at that time, I was also a weak and kind little girl, at the stage of being ignorant of good people. And he is tall, 1.8 meters, and I am thin, only 1.5 meters. Maybe I just have a bright refusal. Although I didn't know how to express it at that time, my inner rejection was strong and real. So that once he wanted to kiss me again, he said to me, why does my tongue hurt and my mouth numb when I get close to you? This is probably a true, powerful and brave expression of inner strength. However, slight pain and hints did not prevent his behavior from deteriorating (of course, he also had some reflections).
There is no room for evil in reality, so we use verbal violence to vent our anger instead. At that time, I didn't know why he was so indulgent, willful, manic and crazy. I didn't know until I came to Xinquan to study. Maybe at that time, I replaced him in the role of losing his mother, and I was doomed to replace and compensate at that moment without realizing it. Unfortunately, I don't have enough strength to survive, and the volume is not loud enough. Therefore, my confusion and doubts at that time were the same as Lin's: "How can a person who truly believes in Chinese betray the context of this vast soup for more than 5,000 years?" How can he betray the cultural tradition of this vast soup for more than 5 thousand years? " This is undoubtedly a great irony of * * * belief. Therefore, what hurts Lin the most is not his body, but the shattered faith. "You can't trust anyone's beliefs and people." This problem is too big and serious! !
However, does faith really have to be based on the people and backgrounds around you? Are there any other media? What is the truest evidence?
Maybe it was then that I gained more courage and less cowardice. So it didn't work out in the end. How many tragedies in this world should not have happened because of our cowardice? The escape at the beginning made Lin embark on the inner road of not daring to face himself. Her pain made her torment the outside world deep and cruel, while her own heart was always weak and helpless after learning the painful experience. At first, she hid behind the gentle screen of Poetic Love. In the video, her pink dress was a weak accusation (maybe there was some kind of love), but the "heroic spirit of frost and snow" I expected never happened.
But I don't blame her.
As mentioned above: "Absolute loneliness makes sexual abuse sublimate into irresistible love", which is also the deepest connection she can reach.
I know maybe I shouldn't be too hard on a woman who was sexually assaulted. Different circumstances have created different outlook on life. Fortunately for Lin, his body has not been substantially damaged.
I remember one night, I went to him with a pile of books. I was so tired that I put the book on the sofa and fell asleep. Now that I think about it, I am much luckier than Lin. He really has true love for me, but it is more likely that there is his true faith and great love behind the context and tradition of this vast soup for more than 5 thousand years. At that critical moment, it played a role.
I am very lucky. On the road of literature, I met a female teacher, who is also my teacher, friend and best friend. Du Fu and Su Shi came to accompany me (Du Fu only married one wife in his life, and the husband and wife were deeply in love, sharing weal and woe with Du Fu all his life. At the worst time, "the old lady draws paper to make chess, and the young son wears a needle to make a hook." Su Shi has a wide range of friends and friends all over the world. Although he has three wives and concubines, he is more affectionate to each of them than Jin Jian. ) In real life, I also got a gentle husband. Later, after studying "Parents are One", I realized that "everything is my own attraction", and there may be some lucky factors.
However, I know better that all this does not prove that I am better than Lin Qiang. Maybe it's just because my faith in literature is not as deep as hers, so fate treats me well and only gives me a little bit of bad luck and full goodwill that I can bear. I'm luckier than her. I didn't meet Ponnel and Said, and I didn't have a chance to ponder over those painful problems in literature.
This is a story about a girl falling in love with a seducer.
You said: "I often tell readers that if you feel pain while reading, it is true;" But now I want to say that if you feel beauty while reading, it is also true. What's more, when you feel the so-called real pain, it is all built with words and rhetoric. "The first sentence, in the face of pain. Don't escape, suppress or resist anger, sadness, despair and shame in pain. Recognition and face, through the expression of words to release, through the "beauty" to convey. It emphasizes the beauty of literature and art, and the real pain is only the background. " When you feel the so-called real pain, it is all built with words and sweet words. "The second sentence to the interrogation of literature. On the basis of admitting one's feelings, the rhetoric in expression is sincere.
In the face of such intense and painful interrogation, I saw a gentle and sincere charm from poetry teaching from your reciprocating expression and the low and flowing rhythm of your voice. "My psychiatrist, after knowing me for a few years, told me that you are a person who has experienced the Vietnam War; Then, a few years later, he said to me, you are a person who has experienced a concentration camp; Later he told me that you were a nuclear explosion. " In the face of such great pain, at this time, you still hold a degree of "sorrow without injury, joy without lewdness".
You ask Li Guohua: "Art, can it include rhetoric?" "Art will never be just rhetoric? The so-called artists keep spinning flowers and ropes, creating various deformations and qualitative changes, but will these techniques be just rhetoric? " "I'm not saying I'm doing great things. I think my writing is very depraved. It is definitely not like Baudelaire's flower of evil, which becomes very low and then blooms from the dust. Absolutely not. "
This is an external torture. Will art always be just rhetoric? Point to the great turning point between literature (art) and spirit (core). The person who asked this question is so sincere that the works of other writers can't stand questioning, which is undoubtedly a clear understanding of the relationship between the times and literature.
Yes, literature originally conveys the author's inner spirit by appealing to human sensory knowledge, including all aspects of human sensory knowledge. However, the diversity of language signifiers can create a space that is manipulated, used and distorted in reality.
Your experience is such a manipulation. And your pursuit is a complete "thinking innocence" and "poetic love". However, regardless of fate or morality, this is not the essence of literature, but only one of its functions. In fact, you already know that the essence of literature is only rhetoric, and "establishing its sincerity" varies from person to person. Therefore, in writing, we should consciously establish our sincerity, reproduce the real messy experience and painful life perception, take the absurd life reality reproduction as the writing guidance, and endow the literary essence with the meaning of survival. The reality of existence is so cruel, how can it bloom evil? However, I see that you are surprised by the change of your literary direction based on the cruel existence itself, because of difficulties, you have created an eschatological mandala.
"This is a story about a girl who falls in love with a seducer." Yes, I saw it. This is your own udumbara. After experiencing such a powerful violence, your heart is still full of love, and I finally see the true bearing of the cultural context and tradition of this vast soup for 5 thousand years. "There is love and tenderness in her heart." You are sober, but "you know what you can't do." No matter how fake this fake is, you compare it to Hu Lancheng, which is the sublimation of your precious true love. You are really innocent, and poetry teaches others.
Literature has finally become the backing of your love. Just because you live out true love, animals are like teachers, even if they are just lewd, you can still love. The teacher's expression of love for him is actually his love for himself, and Lin is just a prop for him to express narcissism.
I saw you holding true love to the death. Love is not the love that you were timid, attached to and cheated your conscience when you were young. You have jumped out of the teacher's magic circle, out of concern for personal suffering and reached the conscience itself. It is the way to go up, the wake-up call and the existence of love.
"I used to be a big fan of Zhang. No matter how much I hate Hu Lancheng, I still have to admit that the chapter "Women of the Republic of China" in my life is still one of the most thorough articles describing Zhang Ailing in previous dynasties. "
This is a deeper level of calm thinking. For literature and love, Zhang Ailing is luckier than you. Aileen was at least once loved by Hu Lancheng and nourished by literature in the true sense. Even if there is only one love, there is only one literary lamp. Your family may be luckier than Zhang Ailing, but such a serious and beautiful girl was brutally murdered when she met a major proposition in life. ? Love is sexual and was seduced and killed by a "teacher" who had a good impression on it; Literature has been deceived and abused by its own "teachers" who have a good impression on its talents. However, with extraordinary courage and willingness, you dare to face it and live out your love than Zhang Ailing.
"You can ridicule again, so righteousness is benevolence again." Being teased is actually being tolerated and tolerated. However, who is tolerant? In Hu Lancheng, she was embraced by Zhang Ailing. She thought it might be full of unconditional love, so she untied herself. This is a clever and cruel method. Li Guohua, as a fake, got your true love, which is tolerant and severe, and is judged by your true love.
"A true literati should be tempered with sincerity. In the end, returning is just an erosion." Your words, that is, the presentation of food colors, are refined with sincerity. "Don't ask Siqi if she loves it, of course Siqi loves it", because she is a real scholar.
"This story, it tortured and destroyed my life. Over the years, I have polished and polished my pen, and even when writing, I consciously and soberly want to reach some so-called artistic height. My aesthetic point of view is that I think content and form are inseparable, or in andre gide's words, expression and existence are inseparable, and content exists. " The depth of expression reflects the depth of existence, and the depth of existence should be transformed into the depth of expression, which is necessary for "twists and turns". This kind of expression undoubtedly needs repeated consideration and scrutiny, and it needs your painstaking management and bleak management. "It is in this story that the author often misuses allusions or replaces words in the usual sense with ambiguity, which is different from Fang Siqi, a girl who is obsessed with literature but stays in the stage of swallowing dates."
If Fang Siqi's "Paradise of First Love" is an artistic expression of suffering and chaos, then "allusions are often misused, or ambiguous words have no ordinary meaning" is Lin's deconstruction and redistribution of artistic survival. In China's poetic tradition, the misuse and ambiguity of allusions are common in the poems of poets such as Du Fu, Han Yu, Huang Tingjian and Chen Shidao. When Du Fu was alive, he was not well-known in the poetry circle in the prosperous Tang Dynasty. The comprehensiveness and uniqueness of his poems even surpassed the value of Li Bai, and it was not until the Song Dynasty, many years after his death, that he was recognized. Han Yu, who has been in decline for eight generations, is also lonely enough to write love letters to crocodiles. This creative technique, which takes the old as the new and the vulgar as the elegant, has achieved great success in the hands of Huang Tingjian and Chen Shidao. We can see that the variation of this expression in literature corresponds to the cramped living space and almost absolute loneliness.
You mean the tradition before the Book of Songs? Speaking of "Fang Siqi, a girl who is obsessed with literature but stays in the stage of swallowing dates", mentioning this image means that you want to go back to the 13-year-old Lin who is obsessed with literature but stays in the stage of swallowing dates. Who can love you from 13 years old? Rewrite this life?
"We all know that after Auschwitz, poetry was barbaric. After knowing me for a few years, my psychiatrist told me that you are a person who has experienced the Vietnam War. Then, a few years later, he said to me, you are a person who has experienced a concentration camp; Later he told me that you were a nuclear explosion. Primo levi once said: concentration camps are the biggest massacre in human history. But I want to say no, the biggest massacre in human history is Fang Siqi's rape. "
"Auschwitz is the biggest massacre in human history. I want to say that the biggest massacre in human history is Fang Siqi's rape." Yes, maybe we can reflect on, pay attention to and put an end to the concentration camp-style massacre, but we can't put an end to or even ignore the sexual assault and killing of girls that happen all the time around us, perhaps not less than the number of concentration camps. Girls, future mothers, are the future and hope of mankind. Sexual assault on girls is a massacre and rewriting of human culture and a rape and ban on the future of culture. Therefore, you are not only weak, but also bloody and tenacious. Not only can you love, but also have the power to make a conclusion!
"When I was writing this novel, I would look down on myself a little. Those who came out of the concentration camp and those who survived often had a wish when writing, hoping that such things would not happen again in human history, but I made sure when writing, not to mention that such things will continue to happen all over the world and in Taiwan Province Province. It is happening now. So when I write, I will hate myself a little and feel humiliated. I feel ashamed of what I wrote. Of course, I want to introduce Coates' so-called Shame, which, in Qi Qi's words, is an indecent and elegant way of writing. Misuse of Confucian words again: my writing is writing that I know what I can't do. Because such a large quality of violence is absolutely impossible to reproduce. "In fact, this story can be finished in two or three simple sentences, which is very intuitive, straightforward and cruel. It is that" a teacher uses his power all the year round to seduce, rape and sexually assault female students. "However, I still use very fine meticulous painting, even too fine meticulous painting, to describe it. What I want to do is not newspaper literature. I have neither the will nor the power to change the present situation of society, and then I don't want to be associated with those so-called big words or structures.
"I don't want to be associated with those so-called big words, and I don't want to be associated with structure." Full of powerless truth. Structuralism in western literary theory holds that there are deeper psychological and social structures hidden in literary narrative structure, which come from people. Early structuralists reduced it to a fixed structure in human psychology. To say that you don't want to be in line with the structure is actually thinking too much, because after experiencing self-struggle, or at the time of struggle, trying to borrow money from society is facing a greater "imbalance between will and strength."
From the perspective of Lacan's structure and linguistics, language determines unconsciousness, signifier determines signified, and human subject is just a language construction. Your writing constantly tears and refracts pain, and also constantly heals and reshapes the image of Lin. It left us an epic literary work about the sexual abuse of young girls.
Here, in the outer cover, I want to ask, as a writer, what is my abnormal condition, writing and artistic desire? What art is this desire called? (Severe social squeeze)
Can we learn from Freud's explanation of art: "Literary creation is a cosmetic expression of desire impulse, and appreciation is an alternative satisfaction of desire." You want to show your pain, face up to yourself and get cured. I know, because you are so beautiful, "beauty, talent, excellent family background and proud resume", you know that these external descriptions are not enough to express the real you, and people can only see these. You need someone to love, appreciate this kind of injury, and overcome this evil robbery. I want real and profound companionship, and I want to borrow money from society to torture myself.
However, your beauty, your experience and your talent have just become the real obstacles for others to contact you. It turns out that beauty is so confusing. Maybe sometimes a woman's ugliness is a gift of fate.
You escaped from Li Guohua's clutches, but in the end you didn't escape from the suffocation of the wall of social structure. People chew your story, care about you, sympathize with you, talk about you and then stay away from you. Teacher Feng Duo said that sympathy (and * * * feelings on this issue) will form a low-energy field flow among the subjects, while people with low consciousness often reject the negative emotions brought by low energy, and it is for you to present your pain and bring it to them. Therefore, you are a sinner and the target of most people. People stay away from you and reject you because they want to stay away from pain. "People have no imagination about the pain of others, because people don't want to admit that there is inhuman pain in the world. If people have a vague understanding, they will deny it, otherwise people's small peace will be bad. In this era when everyone is vying to call themselves losers, no one wants to admit that there are a group of girls in the world who are real losers. "
As teacher Feng Duo said, "A large area of negative emotions like radioactive elements are thrown at you, and you become a scapegoat again." You, a calf face, bear the same big sin as human destiny.
In the face of the double suffocation of fate and human nature, fortunately, you can be self-aware, persist in your efforts under adversity, make a "groaning and teasing voice" in an extremely cramped space, and express your deep "no regrets" between injustice and loss of me. This is a dance that squeezes the freedom of banks and wears shackles, which cannot be solved.
"My whole novel, from the role of Li Guohua to my writing behavior itself, is a very, very huge sophistry, questioning the so-called artistic truth, goodness and beauty. I want to end with one sentence. When reviewing the story of the whole building, Yi Ting had a heartfelt remark. She said: She suddenly felt that literature failed them, not those who studied literature.
This is your death, not literature, but the suffocation of human nature. You died of deep sympathy for the evil of human nature, of love and of great sorrow, which is really a death exhortation to human nature.
Nothing matters except death and life. Now, you have finally gained your freedom through death, and killing yourself is the highest price that an individual can pay for pursuing freedom. Freedom is beyond doubt, inviolable and unspoiled. With the courage of seeking benevolence, you have transcended the care about the hardships of life, jumped out of the lingering situation, and opened up a realm of being indifferent to color, fragrance, narcissism and independence.
Conclusion: thoughtful people like to take detours, learn from doubts and think twice before acting. When reading Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise, if you see it with color and seek it with sound, you will not see the Tathagata for evil. Look at Lin's interview again. "Speak ten degrees, rest nine degrees, and one in ten thousand people will know." At this point, have you got the invisible pay and accept in Hua Xiao?