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A thunderstorm night on Qingshiqiao ruined Arjun's life and disintegrated the world in Qiao Feng.
But quietly knocked on the door to the emotional road in another woman's heart.
About her appearance, Jin Yong wrote:
This petite woman is A Zi.
She and her sister Zhu are illegitimate daughters of Duan and Ruan, and they were given to others to raise soon after their birth. There is a crimson "Duan" tattooed on her shoulder, and the words "Bamboo by the lake, green, safe and happy" are cast on the gold lock around her neck.
There are only twelve words, which entrust her parents' helplessness and expectation, as well as all her life experiences.
She appeared in Xiaojing Lake, with fair skin and bright stars. She looked lively and lovely, but she was cruel and vicious. As soon as I came up, I disturbed Chu Wanli's fishing, stabbed several fish three times and two times, but threw them back into the lake at random.
Qiao Feng called her vicious, but she was more importunate and scheming.
When ChuWanLi died to protect her father, she didn't have a trace of sadness, but sneer at a way:
When Duan and he fought, everyone present wanted to help, but she just giggled.
Cool thin, cold-blooded. Cunning, cunning. This is her nature. Both loyal subjects and biological fathers are nothing in her eyes.
The only thing that made her let go of her hostility was her sister Zhu.
When Ah Zi first saw Zhu, he skipped over to her, took her hand and said with a smile:
For a little witch who is used to intrigue and knows how to plot, this may be the first time in her life to show her affection to others.
So, when she sneaked under the Qingshiqiao and watched her sister pretend to be her father and finally died at the hands of Qiao Feng, she was more shocked than a little sad.
Originally, she wanted to see a good play, but unexpectedly she witnessed Qiao Feng's regret and unforgettable attachment to her sister.
She grew up in a star school, living a hard life and being extremely self-centered. She has never felt all kinds of warmth in the world, and she didn't know there was such an earth-shattering love.
Especially, when she saw Qiao Feng holding Aru's body for a long time, she didn't want to let go. When she saw that Qiao Feng had dug two holes and wanted to be buried with Aru, she was very emotional: "What a sentimental person!"
Perhaps, at that time, she quietly fell in love with Qiao Feng, an affectionate man.
Until many years later, she finally revealed her heart:
I don't know what happened, but it was deep.
Just, falling in love with the wrong person, A Zi is doomed to have a hard time.
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For Ah Zi, Arjun's entrustment before his death is like having a sword. From then on, she had a legitimate reason to stay with Qiao Feng.
She followed to find Mrs. Ma, but ruined her appearance, broke her tendons, and made her die of panic. Finally, the ruined charity failed to let her enemies know.
Qiao Feng was very angry and wanted to hit her, saying, "You killed my sister. What does it matter if you kill me again? " He was speechless with anger and strode away.
Qiao Feng is going to Yanmenguan. She said she would go to Jinyang, and it was the same. When he didn't want to take her away at first, she tried every means to get his attention. I don't hesitate to play dead in the snow, but I have a poisonous needle in my mouth, trying to cripple Qiao Feng and spend the rest of my life together.
When Qiao Feng saw through her trick, he waved his hand wrongly and hurt her. I didn't expect that this was exactly what I wanted and gave her a chance to be with her.
The day of recovery may be the happiest time in Ah Zi's life.
Jin Yong wrote in the original work that in the second autumn after A Zi's injury, Qiao Feng often took A Zi for a ride and took care of him meticulously all day. That is: "Ah Zi leans effortlessly on Qiao Feng's chest".
For Qiao Feng, a rude man, there may be nothing to care about. But for A Zi in The Seeds of Love, this is undoubtedly fatal. The warmth in her chest is enough to burn her life.
So she will have a sense of satisfaction and express her love directly: "I would rather never move, you accompany me like this every day."
Love at first sight is romantic, but love is also obsessed with time.
If A Zi first fell in love with Qiao Feng's deep affection for Arjun, it was because she longed for her eternal love. Then, at last, she gradually realized that this indomitable hero actually has a gentle side, so this love is deeper.
As she herself said, "Brother-in-law, I didn't understand why my sister likes you so much, but later I did."
Because of envy, I am attached. Because I know that I am deeply in love.
A Zi's infatuation with Qiao Feng is not as sudden as it was at the beginning, but it is hard to extricate himself bit by bit.
In the end, loving instead of loving has become an obsession.
Like a rose with thorns, she longs for its beauty, but the tighter she holds it, the deeper it is pierced, the more painful it is. Until it was scarred and torn to pieces.
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A Zi followed Qiao Feng to Nuzhen and Liao, fought with him and enjoyed his heroic aura.
For her, Qiao Feng used to be in America, with an iron skeleton, a world-class martial arts master and a rare infatuation in the world.
She has been with him for so many years, saved by him several times and taken care of by him, but the only thing she can't get is his love.
To this end, she is distressed, tangled and disappointed. Like a wayward child, she did many stupid things just to get his attention.
Even, she took advantage of Youtanzhi's infatuation and regarded him as a plaything to vent. First tease him as a kite, then turn him into a steel head and tease him with a lion. Finally, in order to practice evil martial arts, I did not hesitate to let him try poison.
She hates her deep affection for herself, but she also knows that she is not.
Therefore, when Qiao Feng made her accept this carefree attitude and this feeling, she was both heartbroken and resentful.
There is such a dialogue in the original:
Some people can't say anything good, but no one can replace them.
Just as Arjun did to Qiao Feng, although she died, she will live in his heart forever. Like Qiao Feng to A Zi, he never loved her, but he never forgot her.
It's just that people are like this sometimes. The easier they get, the less they care. The more you can't get it, the more you try your best to get it.
So, in the imperial palace of Liao country, in order to keep Qiao Feng's heart forever, A Zi listened to Mu Guifei's slanderers and tricked him into drinking the so-called "holy water", which almost killed him.
I realized that I regretted my stupidity and ignorance and hated my stubbornness even more.
But what can we do? Unrequited love for this road, she has no choice.
In those dark days when she was blind, she always looked forward to returning to Qiao Feng. Even if he doesn't love her, she is willing to accompany him. Even if she can't see, she wants to listen to him and feel his breath.
That day, finally came. In Shaolin Temple, Qiao Feng rescued A Zi from Ding Chunqiu. She knew it was him just by listening to the voice, and couldn't wait to grope and rush to hug him.
No matter the passage of time, no matter the pain and sadness, she just wants such a warm chest to heal the scars of her life.
Later, Qiao Feng was in danger and was rescued from the prison by everyone. He casually said, "Are Ah Zi and others out of danger?"
Just such a shallow and light sentence is enough to make A Zi full of joy. "Brother-in-law, you still miss me."
Finally, outside Yanmenguan, when Qiao Feng was decisively killed by two arrows, A Zi rushed up and hugged him without a moment's hesitation. As in those days, Qiao Feng held Arjun on the Qingshiqiao Bridge.
The moment Qiao Feng fell, her heart was dying.
She stretched out her right hand and suddenly gouged out two eyeballs. She doesn't want to owe you a kindness, just want to take her brother-in-law to the grave easily.
She jumped into the abyss with Qiao Feng in her arms, and finally she could be with her beloved.
I hate different monarchs, but I hope to die with them.
Life can't love each other, but death seeks common ground.
Whenever I see this scene, it is a sigh.
Arjun's love is sincere and selfless. A Zi's love, however, is as warm as fire, and will never rest until death.
Two sisters who fell in love with the same man died in the end.
However, Ah Jun and Qiao Feng are the same kind of people, while A Zi and Qiao Feng are wishful thinking.
Among them, it is really hard to say whether it is good or bad.
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There are many sufferings in the world, and "wanting" is one of them. This is a disaster for A Zi.
She is not a gentle and kind woman in the traditional sense. On the contrary, she was abandoned at an early age. She grew up in a bloody environment and learned to be cruel and vicious. She has a set of her own survival rules and a set of her own value system.
She has experienced changes in the world and has never felt the warmth of the world. It was Qiao Feng's unswerving love for Arjun that knocked on a door of her inner world and let her know that there is such pure truth in the world.
She's stuck.
In particular, Qiao Feng is a great hero with indomitable spirit, high martial arts and chivalrous integrity, which simply meets all her beautiful expectations.
Before I met Qiao Feng, there was only the law of the jungle in her world. But she saw the "truth, goodness and beauty" in the world from Qiao Feng, and she regarded it as a light in the long night.
She chased all the way and never stopped.
In the process of chasing, I exposed my paranoia and eccentricity at a glance. She hurt others and acted willfully, trying to attract Qiao Feng's attention and increase her sense of existence in this way.
But she doesn't know that she loves Zhu, who is kind and gentle, but she is not violent at all.
She thinks that as long as she loves hard, she can get it. But I have never reflected, do I really know love?
An idea became a problem.
Love without love will be painful.
The road is difficult, where is the way home?