In fact, falling in love with a city may be for a vivid scenery in the city, for a childhood memory, and for a familiar old house.
Maybe, just for the city. Just like falling in love with someone, sometimes you don't need any reason, no antecedents, nothing to do with romance, just love. "-Lin
In April, the summer when the lotus flowers are in full bloom, the ancient city of Hangzhou is as simple and quiet as ever. However, with the cry of a baby girl, the lotus blooms slowly in the West Lake. Since then, this woman named Lin has landed on the earth.
Originally thought, this prosperous and proud ancient city would not easily smile for a person with a low eyebrow, but it happened that she was a beauty. Only she can bear the poetic beauty of Hangzhou and the warm and clean feeling of the West Lake.
Lin, from birth, has a face carved in powder and jade, with an aura and agility that attracts attention. Born in an official family, she inherited the elegant and excellent pedigree of the family, so this life is destined to have brilliant talent and peerless appearance.
Compared with Zhang Ailing's aloof alienation, San Mao's wild loneliness and Lu Xiaoman's charming amorous feelings, her life seems too poetic and rational.
In addition to congenital factors, it is more caused by family and growth environment. Her childhood is simple and beautiful, as clear as a blank sheet of paper, without too much whitewashing, and every painting is pure happiness.
At the age of five, at dawn, at dusk, the moon was in the sky. Take a book and read a few pages.
Maybe she can't understand anything, but she fell in love with the book, the faint ink color, the beautiful words and expressions, and the elegant and beautiful sadness of the lotus in the scroll.
However, her childhood was not smooth sailing. God gave her an elegant and excellent father, but an ordinary mother.
Her mother received an old-fashioned education and was not good at housework. Such a woman really can't impress her father. Therefore, her mother's unwillingness to complain and blame fell on Lin.
She began to become sentimental, knowing that a seemingly perfect and harmonious life also hides a lot of helplessness. She wants to be a talented girl in front of her parents and a good daughter in front of her mother. These two aspects are too heavy for her little heart.
This seemingly carefree woman, despite longing for a stable life, had too much helplessness in the war years.
Moving seems to have become accustomed to her, from Hangzhou to Shanghai and from Shanghai to Beijing. Later, the family moved to Tianjin, leaving her alone in Beijing.
Thirteen years old, seemingly weak, she has always been a strong woman. She can keep things in order at home and start writing to her father to tell her that everything is fine and take care of her youth.
It takes only a moment to meet someone, but it often takes a lifetime to fall in love with someone.
Most people think that Lin and Liang Sicheng met later than Xu Zhimo, but they are not, because Lin and Liang belong to family friends and have frequent contacts.
When Liang Sicheng 17 years old, she first met Lin at her 14 year old home. It was love at first sight. He was deeply impressed by her freshness and charm.
I believe that every teenager has fantasized about such a pure girl, longing for the joy of walking side by side and the warmth of interlocking fingers. And Lin satisfied his and even every man's fantasy.
Perhaps, when Lin first saw Liang Sicheng, he didn't feel heartbroken, only a touch of joy and shyness. However, Liang Sicheng's viewpoint has become his lifelong pursuit. Lin did not expect that Liang Sicheng, whom she met when she was fourteen, would become her lifelong companion.
We seem to have such a misunderstanding that a woman like Lin should stay in a water town in the south of the Yangtze River all her life, choose a stable residence and build a quiet dream.
But I think every woman may have to go through some warm experiences to make her beauty more mature and shocking.
Therefore, after all, she will bid farewell to Jiangnan and start to migrate. This kind of migration is not drift from place to place, but self-exile.
1920 spring, visited England, and Lin followed his father to study in London.
London, London, amorous London, where Lin met the affectionate Xu Zhimo. In fact, many people think that he is not only affectionate, but also heartless.
When I met Lin, he was 24 years old and she was 16 years old. She is married and the father of a two-year-old child. He is indifferent to Zhang Youyi, the wife of an arranged marriage, as light as water. He always wants to climb out of the grave of marriage and pursue what he loves.
Lin is the beauty in his mind and the true love he has been looking for all his life. He is infatuated with her affectionate eyes and Ming Che's charming temperament.
Zhang Youyi bowed his head for him with no regrets. But he wrote countless sincere poems for Lin, willing to be a plant next to her skirt, with deep affection.
Because of Xu Zhimo's disloyalty to Zhang Youyi, Lin was branded as a "green tea bitch".
Maybe, she is really wrong. Her mistake is that Xu Zhimo's handsome face, elegant demeanor and poet's temperament are not as calm as water, but love at first sight.
It's not that anyone is too fickle, but that people are affectionate. Affectionate people will plant more causes, but all the consequences can only be borne by themselves.
Since that meeting, they began to fall in love in foggy and rainy London. Sitting in front of a warm fireplace, talking about heaven and earth, words, music, reality, dreams, yesterday and tomorrow. Too many like-minded, too much mutual appreciation.
I believe that everyone knows Xu Zhimo's "Bie Kang Qiao", and many people know the love between Lin and Xu Zhimo, knowing that they walked back to the greener grassland with a long pole in the soft waves of Cambridge.
Without this love, there may be no farewell to Cambridge. This poem describing the gentle waves of Cambridge not only expresses Xu Zhimo's reluctance to Cambridge, but also can't forget that tenderness.
Lin and Xu Zhimo were deeply in love in Cambridge, so romantic that it was hard to forget that their meeting was actually a beautiful mistake.
But Lin is a sober woman after all. She has no way to marry a married man, let alone hurt the kind Zhang Youyi. For this woman who has never met before, she has no hostility at all, but more pity.
Some people know that they should not love or love; Some mistakes, knowing that they will be unforgivable, will continue to be wrong.
However, as quiet as Lin, she doesn't want to make any more mistakes. Therefore, she cruelly chose to give up this vowed love.
She left London without saying goodbye, but Xu Zhimo was so sad and heartbroken that she left him. The world thinks that her transformation is too decisive and hasty.
She thinks she can go out soon, so that she won't get hurt. However, she was injured. She escaped from a hard first love and didn't even have time to say goodbye. How can she be so determined and unscathed?
But a person as clear as she is, even if she is injured, will not hysterically expose her scar to the public. She hides it well.
Because, after all, she understands that happiness is everyone's happiness and sadness is a person's sadness. Clearly love, but pretend to understate; Obviously, this kind of pain is unbearable and she has to hide it deeply.
Some people say that she is a weak woman and has no courage to pay more for love, but if she doesn't choose to give up what she loves, the world will call her a rapist.
She deeply knows that she and Xu Zhimo are doomed to no good result. Therefore, she wants to turn around beautifully when this love does not collapse, so that everyone can remember this short but sweet beauty.
Xu Zhimo actually knows the reason why she left. He knows that his marriage is an obstacle to his pursuit of happiness. He thought that as long as he divorced Zhang Youyi and made himself an innocent person, he could save her heart.
But he was wrong. A forest is a forest. Once he turns around, he can't go back, nothing can go back.
Finally, he got his wish and divorced Zhang Youyi. In his view, even if Lin didn't look back, this marriage was indispensable. He believes that the combination without feelings is the greatest tragedy in the world, even cruel purgatory. Only letting go is goodwill to each other, and it is also a kind of generous relief to the soul.
In this way, Xu Zhimo left a heartless divorce paper in front of Zhang Youyi. Even though she was pregnant at that time, he just walked away, leaving her alone in Boston.
How heartless and resolute he is, which makes the world feel that no matter how clever he is, people can't help but resent and blame him.
And all this is because of Lin. Therefore, Lin has always felt guilty about Zhang Youyi. In fact, no one is wrong. This is all fate. You can't hide when you come, but you can't stay when you leave.
Later, Xu Zhimo returned to Beijing and saw Lin again. As a free man, he still remembers her. He also confidently thought that Lin might come back to him.
However, he doesn't seem to particularly understand how indifferent and forbearing Lin is. When she looked at him again, nothing seemed to happen. After all, he also understood that the past was blown away by the wind like smoke and became a helpless memory.
Perhaps many men can't understand that stability is more important than love for many ordinary women. And perhaps only Liang Sicheng can bring happiness and stability to Lin.
Liang Sicheng knows the subtle feelings between her and Xu Zhimo, but he also knows that he and Xu Zhimo are just a plant on Lin's beautiful skirt, but he has the advantage of getting the moon first. He spends more time with Lin, and Lin likes to be at ease with him, although there is not much ambiguity, only ordinary happiness.
A car accident promoted the relationship between Lin and Liang Sicheng. Knowing the news of his car accident, she became flustered. Only in a hurry did she dare to go to the hospital to take care of him, and she began to wipe his sweat without hesitation. They have never been close since they fell in love, and this car accident made Lin deeply understand that she and Liang Sicheng can't be separated easily.
In fact, we all know that there are gains and losses when choosing. Choosing Liang Sicheng means a long stream of water, and choosing Xu Zhimo means poetry and painting. But what Lin wants is a fireworks-like happiness after all, so this life is destined to pass by Xu Zhimo.
Later, Lin and Liang Sicheng went abroad to study at the University of Pennsylvania in the United States, and lived a life with just the right salt and light and the right temperature. At this time, Xu Zhimo began a beautiful encounter and profound reunion with Lu Xiaoman.
Lu Xiaoman, who was unhappy in her married life, met Xu Zhimo, and neither of us was happy-neither of us was happy until the end of time. Two lonely boats found the same shore.
Lu Xiaoman is different from Lin. Although she is a celebrity in Beijing like her, she is elegant, flamboyant, charming and rebellious. She can divorce desperately for love, abort the baby in her belly and swear to be with Xu Zhimo.
1926 10. In October, Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman broke through many obstacles and finally achieved a positive result.
We are all thinking, will Lin be sad? Will you cry? Maybe, but she knows she can't be so selfish. She can't give Xu Zhimo a promise. She hopes that he will always silently guard and love his life. Therefore, she only has blessings. Even if you are so lost and sad, keep it in your heart and swallow the bitter wine alone without telling anyone.
Perhaps for Lin, the combination of Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman can make her more comfortable to marry Liang Sicheng. From then on, she need not be ashamed. For Xu Zhimo, she can also be his lifelong confidant.
Maybe everything should be settled. You have your harbor and I have my home.
1928 In March, 24-year-old Lin married Liang Sicheng. They finally got their wish and got married and lived a long life.
Before getting married, Liang Sicheng asked Lin: "There is a saying, I will only ask this time, and I will never ask again. Why me? " Lin Yinhui replied: "The answer is very long. I have to answer you all my life. Are you ready to listen to me? " The mysterious woman gave a mysterious promise. So, what reason does Liang Sicheng have not to wait and take care of her life?
Life after marriage is dull and happy. Although there is no infinite scenery, it is also suitable for mountains and rivers. A happy family and career achievements, I think this is enough to pay for the life she wants.
Of the three men Lin loved, Xu Zhimo or Liang Sicheng loved her the most, but Jin. The man who guarded her life with love. He is always with her, expecting nothing in return. He likes her reason, calmness and profundity.
After all, Lin was moved by that persistent love. She said to Liang Sicheng in dismay: "I am extremely distressed because I love two people at the same time. I don't know what to do? "
I can't imagine how generous Liang Sicheng's love for her is. He said to Lin, "You are free. If you choose Laojin, I wish you happiness forever. "
After listening to Lin's words, I suddenly realized. How could she abandon the man who gave her stability and happiness because she was greedy for a moment's freshness?
Knowing what Liang Sicheng said, Jin said, "It seems that Sicheng really loves you. I can't hurt someone who really loves you. I should quit. "
From then on, the three of them became lifelong friends.
In fact, which of them doesn't really love her? Xu Zhimo's love is touching and warm, Liang Sicheng's love is peaceful and warm, and Jin's love is affectionate and moving.
Kim's love for Lin is really constant throughout his life. After Lin died, Liang Sicheng took away another student. Kim, on the other hand, has never been married.
Living somewhere tomorrow, but some turn around, this is really a lifetime, we will never meet again.
193 1 year, Lin rested on the mountain because of lung disease, but that year was also the most sad year in her life.
Xu Zhimo flew around to attend her speech, but unfortunately it crashed. Lin and Liang Sicheng never waited for him at the airport again.
In this way, the man she loved vigorously when she was young left her forever.
Some people think that Xu Zhimo's death is Lin's fault. If she hadn't attended her academic lecture, such an accident wouldn't have happened. Some people say that it is because of Lu Xiaoman and Lu Xiaoman's luxurious life after marriage. He has to run around to make money and won't take cheap and unsafe planes.
However, Xu Zhimo's death is not his end. God gave him incredible talent, and he had to exchange his most precious life. It is said that beauty is unlucky and genius is jealous. So we should cherish our own ordinary.
The death of Xu Zhimo is undoubtedly a great pain for Lin. She burst into tears countless times without our knowledge.
Each of us is the most generous and unforgettable to the first love. So maybe Lin spent the rest of his life feeling guilty about Xu Zhimo.
Lin's career achievements may not be known to many people. For the sake of architecture, she and Liang Sicheng came all the way to Qian Shan to study ancient buildings day and night.
During the war, she followed Liang Sicheng everywhere with a diseased bone, tasted the wind and frost and never complained.
Although she longed for stability, she still lived a wandering life, but in the face of illness, she was defeated, and her strong body could no longer support her love for architecture.
The lung disease that has been entangled in her broke out in the vast journey. However, this disease is four years, and she has been bedridden for four years. She is no longer an April day on earth, and her face is getting haggard.
However, she still can't let go of her career. She was lying in bed writing "Architectural History of China". She was hired by Tsinghua University as a first-class professor and participated in the design of the national emblem.
In order to design the national emblem, she forgets to eat and sleep every day and is extremely tired. With her personality, even if she advances her future and subtracts her life span, she will not hesitate.
As for the last few years of her life, her achievements in architecture are even more numerous. In those years, she seemed to stop thinking about the past, put all her energy into her career, no longer immersed in nothingness, and no longer cared about success or failure.
This seemingly weak woman is actually stronger than anyone in her heart.
All things must come to an end. This brilliant planetesimal, which opened in April, finally failed to withstand the torture of illness, and fell on her in the April day of Love of My Life.
She loved three men in her life, clear and calm.
Xu Zhimo lingered in Cambridge for her, waiting for an old dream to come back. Liang Sicheng walked hand in hand with her through thousands of waters in Qian Shan, and met her to complete her mission. Kim never married her and waited for her forever.
You are an April day on earth, a cloud in early April, a white lotus in my dream, love and warmth ... The woman who wrote this poem is Lin.
As for the evaluation of her by future generations, whether it is praise or disparagement, whether it is "green tea bitch" or "Bai Lianhua", maybe we should all treat her with a generous heart. After all, she has turned into a butterfly among flowers, with the dream of Zhuang Zhou more than two thousand years ago, blooming in the sunny day in April.