He said to me, "once the sea was difficult for water, it was amber forever."
There were tears in his eyes when he said this. As you can see, he is very emotional.
I didn't know what Zhang Haojun wanted to express at that time, and I was embarrassed to ask. I didn't understand until now.
Miss Li, what does this sentence mean?
two
When you ask me, your face is red and your eyes are shining.
Until then, you tell me. You have the most harmonious relationship with your second husband, Zhang Haojun. Thousands of miles of marriage is a thread, and you are a net. You met online. In the virtual world, you come and go and love each other for a long time.
Finally, one day, Zhang Haojun crossed the romantic and psychedelic virtual world from Qilu, jumped over the "eight thousand miles of clouds and the moon" and came to Karamay, northern Xinjiang. He stands in front of you with brisk steps.
three
There is a saying, how to say it? Call it a crouching tiger?
Right, right, right, right He is really kind, with thick eyebrows and white skin.
Haha, what you said is so appropriate. It's really high, refreshing and white!
When he smiled and waved to me, I knew it was him at a glance from the bustling crowd! That face is a familiar and distant face, smiling at me in many videos.
Great happiness fell out of thin air, which made me unbelievable. Like many people who are carried away by happiness flying out of thin air, I squeezed my arm and felt pain. I don't believe it, it's true!
four
After a few days together.
One day, at the blue lake of Tianchi Lake in Tianshan Mountain, he knelt down with a bunch of flowers in his hand and said to you: Yuhua, marry me, you are the only one for me, and I will love you all my life!
At that moment, your heart was lifted by his warm and powerful hand, put into a happy boat, and then floated leisurely in the sky-blue Tianshan Tianchi.
Before that, all your troubles and anxieties were washed clean by the humid air in Tianchi, and your heart shrouded in smog was as clear and transparent as the clear water in Tianchi.
At that moment, you responded to him in your heart: Zhang Haojun, when I refuse you, I refuse my favorite and my own happiness.
You smile and nod.
At that time, a breeze blew, your pink scarf fluttered like a ribbon, and your white skirt fluttered with the wind. You pull the scarf tightly for a while, and then you touch the fluttering skirt, which is a bit hectic.
However, Zhang Haojun said that at that moment, you reminded him of the classic photo of Marilyn Monroe, an American Hollywood actress, which was extremely sexy and charming-although you were not naked at that time, your actions were reserved and reserved, completely like a China lady.
Suddenly, he put his strong arms around you, spinning and spinning like a top. Blue sky and white clouds, a pool of clear water, snow-capped Bogda Peak, dark green spruce, Chinese pine forest, and green grassland, as you rotate into a circular screen movie. You are dizzy with happiness in the fast-moving dynamic picture. In the dizziness of happiness, you have been saying in your heart: I want to marry Zhang Haojun! I want to marry Zhang Haojun!
You believe that if you don't marry Zhang Haojun, you will regret it all your life!
five
After that, you decided to quit your job in Karamay. Then, like Zhang Haojun, he suddenly crossed the "eight thousand miles of clouds and the moon" and suddenly landed in front of him like a light swallow.
The moment I saw you, Zhang Haojun froze, then suddenly ran to you and held you tightly in his arms. Wet lips, trembling slightly, hesitated, and finally stood on your lips like a 100-meter sprint across the finish line and kissed for a long time.
In his warm and lasting kiss, a long-lost warm current surges in your body.
six
I lived with Zhang Haojun for two years, and those two years were my happiest time.
Zhang Haojun is the vice president of a county bank. His salary is higher than other local industries, and it is very stable. I found a private school to teach.
He said, I am his darling, and he really dotes on me like a baby. I'm afraid of melting in my mouth and falling on my hands. As long as he is at home, I can't do housework-whether it's washing clothes, cooking or cleaning. He always said that being a teacher in a private school must be very tiring. When you get home, you should have a rest!
Compared with Xiaoqing's father, Zhang Haojun is not only tall, fresh and white, but also more considerate and knows how to love me.
I think it's fair to say so, Miss Li. Don't make me sick.
Zhang Haojun is like the lake of Tianchi Lake in Tianshan Mountain, clear and transparent. Standing on the shore, people can see fish and shrimp swimming at the bottom of the lake and swaying aquatic plants. He is also like the Gobi desert in Xinjiang, rough, simple and lively, without the protection of flowers and trees. People can look directly at it and move forward without hindrance.
I am a person who likes simplicity and transparency. When I am with him, I feel familiar and close.
Oh! Yes! As you said, it really feels like "the return of Yan", "but I feel the harmonious heartbeat of the sacred unicorn". It's really a brief encounter.
Anyway, I feel simple and relaxed living with him. Unlike Xiaoqing's biological father, who can't figure out the fog all day, it feels complicated and strange to be with him, and he is very tired every day.
seven
Xiaoqing is in the first grade of the private primary school where we teach. She doesn't look like you. She has dark skin and a flat face. It can be inferred from her appearance that her biological father is plain.
Why did you and Xiaoqing's biological father divorce? You never tell me and I never ask. But your daughter Xiaoqing, in the office, secretly leaned over my ear and whispered to me while you were away.
My own father has a bad temper and always beats my mother.
He also stole a woman and ran away with another woman!
Uncle, my mother won't let me tell anyone. Don't tell anyone, let alone let my mother know what I told you!
Listening to her childish and mysterious words, I can only smile and nod!
I think, your first marriage must be a tragedy, just like a knife, sliding across your skin, deeply penetrating into your internal organs, leaving you black and blue, bleeding profusely, and aching into the bone marrow.
Of course, I also know that it is your second marriage, which bathes you in the luster of men's love and makes your once extremely cold heart warm and warm.
eight
Alas! I broke up with Zhang Haojun because of Xiaoqing.
It turned out that Xiaoqing was only two years old when I went to find Zhang Haojun. Later, she stayed in Karamay and lived with her grandparents.
I told Zhang Haojun about it openly. He was very generous and offered to take Xiaoqing to him to spend time with him. On second thought, I think it's better to let the child stay with her grandparents in Xinjiang for the time being. He declined his kindness.
Xiaoqing's grandfather called me and often told me.
As long as you and Zhang Haojun live happily together, we will be happy.
You don't have to worry about Xiaoqing We are with Xiaoqing. Calling grandparents on sunny days is sweeter than drinking honey! We are very happy!
My parents only have one daughter, and I know in my heart that the old man is sharing my worries, comforting me and letting me and Zhang Haojun live a good life.
Sorry, Miss Li! Tears are falling, making you laugh!
nine
Xiaoqing had a very rare heart attack when she was more than four years old. At first, your parents kept it from you and sought medical advice everywhere, hoping to be cured. However, it has been delayed for two months and has not recovered. Besides, your father accidentally fell and fractured his lumbar spine, and he couldn't get out of bed for a long time. Helpless, your mother had to call you and tell you the truth.
At first, Zhang Haojun came to Xinjiang with you, and stayed with you and your family for two months, doing housework and serving patients. He was always very busy.
You told me emotionally that without Zhang Haojun's help, I really don't know if I can survive those two months.
Later, your father's condition improved and Xiaoqing's condition was stable. Coincidentally, Zhang Haojun's unit is preparing to promote the top leader. Zhang Haojun has long been the object of training. At the critical moment, he had to go back to his hometown to work. You, on the other hand, stayed in Xinjiang, took Xiaoqing to Urumqi, then went to Shanghai and Beijing, found a big hospital and a famous doctor, and was busy treating Xiaoqing.
You once told me. Zhang Haojun is very generous. He often spends money. He has repeatedly told you not to be stingy with money, but to treat your child as soon as possible.
Soon after, he successfully became the president, and his work was busier, so he could not come to Xinjiang again. And you, because of Xiaoqing's illness, can't be reunited with him.
ten
One to two, half a year has passed. Xiaoqing is well, but she can't live without you. When you were working in Xinjiang, you treated her and took care of her.
For more than half a year, you and Zhang Haojun have separated. During the period, I proposed to transfer to Xinjiang, and I also inquired about it and walked around. In the end, it was impossible to transfer, and you were all extremely disappointed and depressed.
You once told me. Now he has become the top leader and has his own career there, because it is not worth the loss to let me start over in a very strange environment.
Just persuade him, forget it, you and I just do our jobs in our hometown.
Unfortunately, his mother is also seriously ill and needs to be taken care of. Moreover, his parents are only children and need manpower very much. You really can't go to him and be a daughter-in-law When you are in a dilemma, you will feel mental distress.
You once told me.
Although he comforted me calmly every time he called, he advised me that the difficulties were temporary and the light would come soon. But I really can't see when the difficulties will end and when the light will come. My spirit can't hold on any longer. I don't want to feel sorry for him.
You broke up.
When he first heard your proposal, he was very surprised. There is also some urgency, saying that there are problems to solve problems. Why do you think so? Don't you love me?
You say. Alas! It is because I love him too much and don't want to drag him down that I made this decision!
After several months' delay, there was no light in sight, so he formally filed for divorce. And in order to break his heart, he suggested that your ex-husband must pester you to remarry, saying that it was to treat Xiaoqing and give her a complete home. You really can't refuse.
Before you put forward many reasons, he refuted them one by one. This time, he heard them and was silent for a long time on the phone. Finally, he said, if so, I respect your choice.
After you hung up the phone, you cried. For several days, you were immersed in extreme sadness.
You say. Alas! When I went back to divorce him, he choked up and said, "In the past, it was difficult for the sea to touch water, but it was amber forever!" "
eleven
I can really feel his feelings.
He is expressing his sincere and unforgettable love for you through these two poems.
Think about it.
If you and he are two drops of water in the sea, you infiltrate each other and hug each other, making your life lively. At night, under the moonlight, you fluctuate with the sea breeze, swinging from side to side and enjoying the cheerful rhythm; Or, in silence, feel each other's body temperature, listen to each other's heartbeat and enjoy this quiet peace. During the day, in the sun, you * * * reflect colorful, you kiss the fish and jump happily together. All the life in the world, all the value and significance of existence, shine in your perfect combination. If you or he leaves the sea, he will soon be evaporated by the hot sunshine and disappear without a trace, while the other half left in the sea, lonely and helpless, without support and hug, will eventually return to nothingness.
If he is Wushan and you are a floating cloud, you will be the perfect combination of masculinity and femininity; In other words, together, you are a poetic literati ink painting, that is, all kinds of clever Tang poetry and Song poetry. Your lingering, foil his majesty; His towering, foil your lingering. Your tenderness sets off his strength; His firmness sets off your charm. Your whiteness sets off his rich turquoise; His composure sets off your quiet indifference. After you leave him, it will be a colorless and invisible airflow, which is inseparable from weakness and ethereal. If he leaves you, he will eventually be a pile of lifeless stones, and he can't get rid of rigidity and rigidity.
Do you understand his voice?
Maybe, you already understand, but you have to prove it to me.
twelve
Now Xiaoqing is ruddy and energetic. He is the best student in the class. Besides, you made her skip a grade, from grade two to grade four at once.
After advanced placement, her study is still relaxed, and she often flies lightly and sings happily like a happy bird.
Her healthy growth preserved your maternal love.
Obviously, Xiao Qing's happy time now has also amplified your strength, which proves that you are determined to leave your second marriage and enter a new sunny day.
You just didn't tell me, and I didn't have the courage to ask.
Zhang Haoran's present life is "the hills are inclined to welcome guests" and "rain or shine"; Or is it still "cold and clear, sad and sad" and "the phoenix tree is raining, at dusk, dribs and drabs"?
thirteen
In fact, you are really a very lucky woman.
fourteen
I once met Xiaoqing's second stepfather.
That's in front of the biggest supermarket in Korla. I saw him walk out of the gate with Xiaoqing. He held Xiaoqing's hand in one hand and a bulging schoolbag in the other, which was full of learning stationery and little girl's toys. He bowed his head and talked to Xiaoqing, and his words were kind and gentle.
Xiaoqing smiled at me after I said hello. At first glance, I knew that he was a simple and honest Xinjiang native, and his face was full of frankness and reality.
Xiaoqing said to me, uncle, this is my father.
In a flash, I know that you have found a good father for Xiaoqing.
fifteen
In the office, I heard you answer his phone many times. In words, there are both women's anger and happiness that can't be concealed. There is a pale Xia Hong on her face, rippling like a spring breeze.
After answering his phone several times, I came back from the door with an extra bag in my hand, either your favorite or Korla fragrant pear, a real local specialty and the best pear. It tastes crisp and sweet without residue.
Several times, I shared the fragrant pears he brought you, chewing the crisp sweetness of those fragrant pears, and I seemed to share the sweetness of love with you.
sixteen
I went to your new home with several colleagues.
Although the area of your new house is not large, the layout is reasonable and the decoration is novel.
In particular, you showed us Xiaoqing's bedroom, pink walls, children's cartoons, log-colored cribs and light blue study tables. The room is full of faint warmth.
You said this was the result of careful design with Xiaoqing after you asked her for permission.
Your small house of three is full of family happiness.
seventeen
You said that you two bought the new house, and you each paid 50%.
You said, in this way, I feel confident and equal in front of men!
I know you have never stopped working, although you have never had an iron rice bowl. So, you have savings and capital!
Not long ago, you won the first prize in Bazhou Oral English Competition. After a while, you will also represent Bazhou in the Xinjiang Autonomous Region Oral English Competition.
Your profound academic accomplishment makes students admire, and I really admire it.
The hard work you have paid is by no means affordable to ordinary women.
Your harvest and happiness today are definitely not a rootless tree and passive water!
Your destiny is in your hands.