A traveler was chased by a crazy wild elephant. He ran in fear and found a dry well in front of him. There is a big tree by the well, and vines spread into the well. He was overjoyed and dived into the deep well, only to find a poisonous snake entrenched in the well and four poisonous snakes around the wall beside him. He was so scared that he wanted to grab something to save his life. God wants to grab a small tree that stretches horizontally in the middle of the well for him and lift him in mid-air. When he breathed a sigh of relief, he found a mouse gnawing at a tree, which was in danger of breaking at any time.
In this do or die, he saw a drop of honey on the leaves in front of him, so he forgot the evil image above, the poisonous snake below, and the young tree that was about to be killed by a mouse. He closed his eyes, stuck out his tongue and licked the drop of honey wholeheartedly.
For Yutan, A Zi is a drop of honey, the only happiness in the misery of life.
His life tragedy began in Qiao Feng and was trapped in A Zi.
Mr. Cao Yu once said in the preface to Thunderstorm: "I remember what a poor animal human beings are. It seems that I am in charge of my own destiny, not always myself." Being teased by oneself-emotion or understanding-by an unknown force-opportunity or environment; Living in a small cage and proudly thinking that he is wandering in the free world, what is the stupidest thing that a person called the spirit of everything has not done? "
The reason why fate is cruel is that you inadvertently do something and say a word that changes your life. But we didn't know it at that time, thinking it was just the most ordinary day in life. As you and You Ji don't know, the meeting of Juxianzhuang being held will destroy their families. As you Tan Zhi didn't know, the meeting he attended was the starting point of his miserable life.
Seeing my parents dead at the moment, I vowed to avenge my father. At this time, he is still a warm-blooded man with some admirable courage. Knowing that he was far away, he embarked on the road to surrender to Liao. No matter whether you call him stupid or not, at least he has the courage not to be afraid of death. Revenge certainly failed. Xiao Feng thought of his bravery and spared his life. Seeing that revenge was hopeless, he had the idea of suicide.
I think at that moment, Yutan was disheartened and hopeless in life.
The gap is too big. No matter from martial arts or imposing manner, I may never be able to avenge my father in my life. What is the point of living? Just then, he met the shackles of his life-A Zi.
"When he first met Feng Xiaoshi, there was still an unyielding pride that he would rather die than surrender. In the past few days, he has been deeply traumatized both mentally and physically. He was full of young people's heroism and disappeared without a trace. At A Zi's words, he immediately kowtowed repeatedly. When it rang, this fairy-like girl actually praised herself for kowtowing, and her heart was faintly happy. "
If the end result of family destruction is beyond the control of You Tanzhi, it will not change the starting point of his tragic fate. The deformed infatuation with A Zi is the factor that fundamentally destroys this hot-blooded teenager.
Who said it wasn't fate's trick on you, Tan Zhi? The fairy I met in despair was a blood-sucking demon.
Ah Zi grabbed him, tortured him and whipped him. He also put on a special steel-toed mask, called him "ugly" cruelly and intimately, and let the poisonous insect suck his blood to practice until he died. There is no doubt that A Zi has no love for you, and even no sympathy for real people. This is extremely cruel abuse. No wonder Mr. Ni Kuang hated A Zi and wrote her blind.
But even such a demon, you fell in love with Tan without hesitation.
I don't know if the word "love" is appropriate here. After all, this "love" is so deformed.
When I first met A Zi from Tan Zhi, at first sight, his chest was shocked. He didn't know whether he was happy or sad. His body is floating in the air, and he really can't think. "When I kissed A Zi's feet under the punches and kicks of the Liao guards," Youtan still ignored her, but her teeth didn't force or bite her. A hand gently caressed her instep, and her heart floated up, as if it had become a kite again and rose to the clouds. "
Even, after becoming a steel-toed monster, when he was bullied in the factotum, Jutan wondered when A Zi would slap him.
A Zi took him to test the poison. Originally, he was afraid and unwilling, but when he looked back, he saw A Zi frowning and immediately fell in love crazily. When A Zi forced ice silkworm to suck blood, he knew he would die, so he knelt down and let A Zi remember his name.
After a narrow escape, you Tan Zhi finally got rid of A Zi's torture and became a free man.
But what he wants is how to be abused by A Zi again and return to him. In order to continue to accompany Ah Zi, he was encouraged by all and became the leader of the Beggars' Sect. At the Shaolin Temple Wulin Conference, he did not hesitate to kneel to save A Zi, which was highly praised by Ruan and Duan Yu. After A Zi became blind, he begged Xu Zhu to cure A Zi with his own eyes. If Xu Zhu refused, he threatened Xu Zhu by cutting himself with a knife.
I want you to die for you, but is this really love?
No, this kind of love will only make people feel horrible. When you put the whole meaning of life on another person, it is extremely selfish and irresponsible in essence.
Youtanzhi, a teenager with rich background, must have seen many beautiful women, but they all appeared at the wrong time. When he was most hesitant and desperate, A Zi appeared beside him. In fact, at this time, everyone is fine. As long as there is one person, then a drop of honey can make him feel a little happy.
The world is really too bitter, and endless suffering makes people breathless. Only the fanatical infatuation with A Zi can make him free temporarily. This is also the meaning of his life.
Of course you in Tan Zhi are poor. He is still an ignorant teenager at heart.
Before 18 years, I was well protected by my parents. Without a deep understanding of the sentence "How sinister the world is", it is easy to think too well of a person. But look at him. Who did he contact later? A Zi, Stars Change and Quan Guanqing are all so bad. No one who wants to use him like that really treats him well. He gave everything for A Zi in that way, only for the other side's disdain.
Even death, especially Tan's death is silent, far less than Xiao Feng's death, and his name shocked the world. The hero will get a sigh when he falls. Who will remember an iron ugly who called you Tan Zhi?
But who can blame all this?
As Emil Wakin Chau sang in A Difficult Classic, "I can't bear to be brilliant and worldly. I can't escape the infatuation. I can't find a hue to replace it. I can't understand this problem all my life."
What you need to understand is not the proposition of "love", but yourself.