Including Zhou Chong, a famous writer on the Internet, who changed his fate through writing. Including a complete stranger, his name is Lin Xuezhe.
Before I started the code word, I read many articles on their official WeChat account.
Encouraged, I decided to use the code word.
It was originally planned to code one million words in three years to realize the plan of changing thousands of words every day.
Unfortunately, looking back on these three years, I always feel too fucked up. In detail, on the platform, I updated 6,543,800 words, produced 60,000 words of poetry, wrote 40,000 words of copywriting in the company, and coded 6,543,800 words of legal articles, totaling 400,000 words. There is still a long way to go before I want 654.38+00000 words.
In the three years of this code word, although I have gained a lot, for example, I have learned to build a writing framework, but also learned to simplify writing methods, and my own words are more concise and thoughtful.
But all kinds of entanglements, hesitations and tests in these three years have made me waver a lot. So, I have done this on and off.
At first, I was depressed. I didn't find a satisfactory job. I am full of worries about the future and disappointment about life. It can be said that the code word has been my tool for scraping bones and healing from the beginning.
In the most painful time, one's motivation is the most abundant. Now it seems that I coded 400,000 words in three years, of which more than 200,000 words were coded in my most painful seven months.
Now, I am faced with another problem: I am anxious again, and I am full of infinite worries about the future. Looking back, however, I didn't finish the task I agreed before.
At first, I asked myself to work 2000 words a day. Later, due to the serious impact on rest, I adjusted it to 1000 words per day. Later, due to work-related things, I changed jobs frequently, and the time I could spend on codewords was finally compressed to 1 hour. And this hour, what I can do is really limited.
However, a lot of my time is distracted by my various interests. I am interested in business, so I spend a lot of time, such as walking time and chip time in the subway, reading business books and listening to business school courses.
To make matters worse, frequent job-hopping makes it difficult for me to have a long and stable codeword time, which often affects my ability to calm down and read.
More than once, when I found that there was no code word for a long time, I began to panic, worry and blame myself. All along, I have been asking myself to do less and not be greedy.
However, my attention is always drawn to other things.
Many times, I will still face many helpless choices, which test me again and again. For example, in order to get me into legal practice, my boss asked me to give up literary writing more than once.
I've also thought about many reasons to give up codewords.
For example, at this stage, my most important thing is to survive, make money, support myself and my family, and get my family out of poverty. Therefore, I should give up these idealized things and concentrate on how to make money faster and better.
For another example, my primary task at this stage is to cultivate a skill, and my specialty is the skill I should cultivate most. Being a qualified legal person and an expert in the industry is where I should spend my energy most. So I should give up literary writing and spend my time writing legal articles.
For another example, I am over 30 years old, and the economic pressure is really great. I must spend all my time and energy on how to make money, how to make good relationships and how to support my family. I should give up these illusory things. I may not be qualified to play with them. I want utility, and so does my writing.
For another example, I should be careful what I say and don't let myself talk nonsense, so as not to give orders to others, which is very unfavorable to my future development.
But I still chose to stick to it and secretly scolded those who advised me to give up writing: fuck you.
I know it's not easy to stick to this talent. Because many people gave up on this road.
For example, Lin Xuezhe, his official WeChat account, and those who once inspired me deeply stayed in March 20 19, and it has been half a year since the last update.
For another example, many of my friends who started in Geng Wen with me three years ago stopped updating. Even many friends' IDs can't be found on the Internet.
For example, many people give up the day shift for many reasons, such as slow work and fine work, sharpening the knife and not cutting the firewood, and good articles need to be polished slowly. These self-comforts have become an excuse for many people to stop pushing themselves forward. As a result, the article was slowly polished for a week, and then it was delayed until it was slowly polished for a month.
20 18 at the end of March, I plan to leave Chongqing. One day, I read Zhou Chong's article Don't Stop. In the article, Zhou Chong reviewed his mental journey of writing for ten years, which deeply shocked me. It's really cool to stick to one thing for ten years.
In May of that year, I read another article by Zhou Chong, Why Do You Write? This article talked about the benefits of writing from a practical point of view.
From the point of view of retreat, writing can expand one's influence, and it can also heal oneself with words. When we turn to the keyboard, many inner loneliness and pains become easy to talk about. From a pragmatic point of view, writing can bring some utilitarian things, such as money and reputation.
At that time, I was also deeply shocked and determined to continue writing. It's a pity that my insistence on codewords finally lost to reality. I was interviewed by my boss because I couldn't work and write at the same time. Of course, the result of the interview was that I resigned voluntarily.
Once a person is in a turbulent day, it is impossible to calm down and code words. In my depressed and helpless days, writing articles finally stopped.
On the New Year's Eve of 20 19, I hid under the covers and wrote a summary, summarizing my little sadness and lessons. I'm still hesitating to continue writing. Finally, I decided to continue writing, but I can't spend too much time doing it every day. So, I decided to write a poem, about 100 words.
But strangely, I have written more than 200 words many times, and even more often, I can reach more than 500 words.
This code word year is also a waste of time for me to use my future. I have done a job that is almost meaningless, and I have been doing it. After all, I have to consider supporting myself first.
These days, I put more energy into writing legal articles. Next year, I will rely on these articles to discuss my almost eliminated workplace. I insisted on a poem in the first half of the year, and then I got busy intermittently.
Until now, I still haven't insisted on it.
Zhou Chong said that there is no shortage of talents in a certain field in our world, but people who persist day after day. Yes, we always say that we have a strong interest in code words, and we have vowed to keep writing.
However, it is a few people who insist, and many people are in a hurry in the end. Persistence is the most precious and scarce quality in this era.
Yesterday, one morning three years ago, in the circle of friends, I saw a message from the editor-in-chief of Poetry Magazine, "I have tried to give up many times, but I have been insisting." It has been 19 years since it was founded, and the editor-in-chief has insisted on it for 19 years. I was thinking, nineteen years ago, maybe he was just me, from me to the editor-in-chief, nineteen years. Persist in poetry from decline to silence. What kind of endurance is needed.
Many times, I also want to give up, but there is always a voice in my heart shouting: don't give up your talent, words are your talent.
Maybe this is the only reason why I insist on writing.
The book "The Fantasy Journey of the Shepherd Boy" says that everyone has his own destiny, and in order to fulfill this destiny, God has given everyone different talents. And many people, after all, have not found their own destiny, and of course have wasted their talents.
Liang Ning of Lakeside University said that the so-called talents are the places where you usually invest your time, interest and attention. I think I have been wandering for half my life, lost for half my life, like a moth, looking for a little light in the dark. Finally, I finally found that words may bring me light, so I think words are my gift. Maybe, in fact, I have been writing very well since primary school.
More than a decade ago, when I was divided into arts and sciences in high school, I hesitated. I chose the Chinese department I wanted to study and became a writer. Or embark on a science road that is easier to get employment or get rich. In the end, I chose the latter. The latter has brought me pain for more than seven years.
During these seven years, I studied science and engineering which I am not good at, and struggled in pain and abyss. Finally, one day, I took part in the essay competition and won the prize, sweeping away the haze for many years. At that moment, I thought my gift might be words. I'm sorry, too. I've abandoned it for years.
It can be said that when I decided on the code word three years ago, it was an attempt to save it. Unfortunately, I was still involved in too many turbulent days and failed to persist as I hoped.
Now, I only have one hope, that is, to change a poem every day and publish a collection of poems every year as much as possible. I want to see how long it can last this time.
Many times, I want to give up writing poems and code words. In a materialistic world, it always feels a bit wasteful to do these impossible things. However, many times, I think, the meaning of life should not be completely measured by making money. There are many beautiful things in our life.
For example, doing what you want to do (code word for me), loving the people you want to love, reading the books you want to read, and leaving yourself a quiet and undisturbed time may be more precious than making money itself. Fei Yong, a professor at Zhejiang University, said in Living Carefree that when we die, we don't count how much money we earn. So, for me, what will I miss when I die?
I think, maybe it's not the money, but I've been doing something I've always wanted to do, and it's already borne some fruit.
Therefore, I decided to write a poem tomorrow. When I coded this passage, this belief was even stronger, even stronger than three years ago.
I know that when Yu Xiuhua works in Wenzhou, he will also spend his spare time lying in bed and writing in a notebook. So I wrote and wrote, and wrote thousands of poems.
I also know that when Qian Zhongshu wrote Fortress Besieged, he only updated 500 words in half an hour every day, so he wrote a popular novel of 500 words and then 500 words.
We can find many excuses to give up the day shift, but we may only need one reason to insist, that is, every day, I can contact code words every day and keep sensitive to words.
Many people think that the quality of the day shift is very poor, so they give up. They always fantasize about slowly polishing and working hard to create perfect words. Unfortunately, once it stops, it may be difficult to continue on the road.
As far as I know, Lin Qingxuan, a famous writer in Taiwan Province Province, has been writing more than 3,000 words every day since he was in his twenties. As a result, I learned the most beautiful writing style in vernacular Chinese.
The day shift may make our work less perfect than polished. But from my personal experience, Japanese writing is not necessarily much worse than when I was inspired.
Last year, I insisted on writing a poem in Japan. Generally speaking, my speed of writing poetry has improved rapidly, and now I can basically write a beautiful vernacular poem at a faster speed. I will publish a collection of poems this year. I specially compared the words I wrote before with those I wrote last year.
I found that compared with three years ago, both the simplicity of the text, the circularity between sentences and the compactness of the text have been greatly improved.
So, keep writing and don't stop. Whether it's a good day or a good week, if you keep writing, your handwriting will only get better and better. There is only one reason for persistence: I really want to see what I will become if I persist for ten years. One reason is enough to crush thousands of excuses to convince you to give up.