In a blink of an eye, my son is nine years old. From birth to toddler, to growing into a lively and lovely little boy, I have different experiences as a parent, and I am no exception. My wife was pregnant in October and was going to have a baby soon. I'm still short of money and my pockets are empty. Maybe that's a good face. We didn't borrow money from anyone, so we decided to have a natural birth again and again, so it cost 1 000 yuan to have a baby, which was quite cheap at that time. Oh, wry smile. After the baby was born, my wife had no milk and no money in her pocket, so she could only buy the cheapest Nestle milk powder at that time, but fortunately, the little guy was very competitive and always fat and healthy. At that time, my wife went to work after confinement, and my small workshop just started. My parents run a student fast food and a canteen. In the meantime, it's hard to imagine that I have no time to take care of the children. In midsummer, a cot, a bottle and some trinkets are everything to a baby. Hungry, I put a milk can in his mouth. I am bored. I made some trinkets for him to play with. The child, uh-huh, muttered, gesticulating with slender hands. I often hold my child in my arms at work, and I feel guilty looking at his innocent eyes. Perhaps the child has long been aware of his parents' plight, and he is very clever. He never cries or makes trouble. The child grew up day by day and finally took the first step in a wobbly life. I am ecstatic. I clapped my hands and Bao Xiao came to my father. The child held out his tender little hand, smiling and staggered past. The stumbling is really worrying. I rushed to lift my son high, and my happiness in my heart was beyond words.
Of course, the son's growth is not always smooth. When I was 3 years old, I suddenly cried in the middle of the night, and I was allowed to hug and even spank a few times, still going my own way. What does a child of this age know? He is tired of crying. When he woke up in the morning, I couldn't sleep. Son, my father works until midnight every day. I just want to sleep. I really want to cry. After a few months, I was exhausted and stayed with my mother for several nights. As a result, my mother was almost tired. In desperation, I found someone to watch the incense and said that the child was scared by the water, so I found someone to do it, and the effect was not great. Later, the person who met Xiangtou said that Guanyin Bodhisattva loved my son very much, and his son recognized Guanyin. Strange to say, since then, the child has been safe and smart. I'm happy with you. I didn't believe all this before, but I absolutely believe it this time. So three times a year, I will take my son to bow down to Guanyin and pray for his happiness and peace. Some people may say that I am superstitious, but I think if the pursuit is truth, goodness and beauty, why not be superstitious once.
When a son grows up, he will cry for toys like the children next door. He can't sit on the ground, even if he doesn't eat. It's no use letting you intimidate him. Naturally, I have to move something rough. Once, my dad knocked on the door of a small shop at nine o'clock and bought his favorite toy for his good grandson. Hearing the news, I flew into a rage and was inevitably beaten. You can imagine how effective it is. The child is five or six years old and has a little perception, so he changed his methods and began to communicate with his children. It's not easy for parents to earn money, and you have to spend a lot of money on school. You have to buy food, cook and feed the workers. You are a man, you have to share some points for your parents. Maybe the child is really sensible. Since then, you have never shopped and spent money indiscriminately, and sometimes you blame me for being extravagant. I said that my boy was in charge of my dad, but my heart was full of joy.
I used to love playing games myself, and my son began to secretly play computer games while I was away. When I found out, I naturally shouted loudly, and one day the child suddenly disappeared (presumably for fear of scolding him for playing computer games afterwards). The whole family looked for it everywhere like a lost soul, but it was still fruitless after an hour. At this time, I suddenly felt unprecedented fear, at a loss, incoherent, pale and crazy. Running all the way shouting your name. After all, he is only over five years old, so all kinds of unknown speculations surge in. It can't be that he went out and didn't know how to get home, or was abducted by traffickers, or anything else. The more he thought about it, the more afraid he became. I feel the sky is falling, and my mind is in a mess. Just when the whole family was close to collapse, the good news came. My godmother found him under a table. He also knew that he had made a big disaster, and his eyes were full of innocence and fear. Parents can understand the great sadness and joy at this time. I sobbed and took off his pants, and gave ............. a beating. Maybe it was just a moment of anger. After seeing his little ass scarred, I can't help blaming myself. Did I play too hard? But, son, do you know how much my father loves you? Do you know how hard it will be for me if I lose you? Don't even think about it. I hope you can really appreciate the good intentions of your parents. He has never played such a hide-and-seek game since then.
Soon, the children graduated from kindergarten and went to primary school. From the moment the child carries a small schoolbag, parents have placed too many expectations on their children, and I am no exception. But I always feel that the child is still young, so we should not put too much pressure on him and give him an innocent, happy and carefree childhood. My child is now in Grade Two, and I often communicate with my son. Dad doesn't necessarily expect you to be the best. After all, it's too difficult. I just want your children to be confident, brave, kind and not afraid of difficulties. Be a decent person. If you don't understand anything in your study, ask your teachers and classmates. There is nothing to be ashamed of. If you fail in the exam, you should review what the problem is and correct it next time. The teacher said that it doesn't matter if you are wrong. My son really knows a lot. Although you are not the most handsome and your grades are not top-notch, you have many advantages. You are thrifty, respect your parents and elders, and know how to be grateful. As long as you cultivate your self-improvement, enterprising spirit and fearless character from an early age, I think you will surely break into a splendid world of your own in the future. Dad wants you to be an indomitable spirit and be proud of you. Dad is still writing with you in the age of no doubt, just because he promised to keep a diary every week. Dad will write with you well and hope his son will cheer up.
It is late at night. Maybe I caught a cold today and my lumbar spine hurts. I got sleepy and wrote this diary. With the passage of time, many memories are gradually blurred, and I feel warm again.
Dad loves his son. Son, dad loves you.
Son, today is labor day. On this Labor Day, Dad is off today. Write down what dad wants to say to you here. Son, dad wants to tell you that dad loves you.
Son, when you were very young, your mother left us, and your father left you a bright future. Father is far from home and works everywhere. You were only six years old when my mother left us. Now you are twelve years old, son. It's been six years, two thousand days and nights. In order to give you a good growing environment, dad works hard every day. Do you know, son, when dad put on his backpack and saw you crying and reluctant to part with it, and saw your helpless and thin figure, dad couldn't help but shed tears, but he took a cruel step of running away from home for you to have money to study. You know, son, of course I know that my grandparents are over 70 years old, and you can't live without me at home, and you can't bear to part with your father, but you know, if your father doesn't go out to work, where can you afford to study? How can you become a scientist in the future if you don't study? This is your ideal.
Son, I called home yesterday. You told me like an adult, dad, you can work outside with confidence. I am at home. I am twelve years old and an adult. I will study hard and make money for you when I grow up. You know, son, my father was happy and sad when he heard the news. Happily, my son has grown up and knows how to comfort him. Sadly, in this place of Shenzhen, a child as big as you is still carefree and spoiled in front of his parents, while my son has to worry about his father.
Some time ago, I heard that you and grandpa were bitten by wild dogs. Son, do you know how anxious dad is? Does dad hate biting me? Dad called to get the best medicine. Although more than 3000 yuan, dad has to work hard to earn it, but as long as you are safe and healthy, dad thinks it's worth it.
Once, you called me and asked me, Dad, how can I succeed? I told you at that time that you can think of success, which means that you are grown up and sensible, but you must know, son, if a person only thinks of his own success, his achievements will not be great. A person must have the heart to contribute to this society, and to contribute, you must succeed first, so that your mind can reach a new height. It is precisely because Grandpa Zhou Enlai has set up the ambition of studying for the rise of China since he was a child that he can work hard for the prosperity of China for decades. Now, I heard my grandmother call and say that you often help them do things now, and sometimes help your classmates explain the topics. Your study has always made my father feel at ease.
Son, you've always wanted to come to Shenzhen to play, and dad has been in Shenzhen for almost ten years, but dad is busy and has never had time to pick you up. Even if there is, dad doesn't have time to play with you. Whenever dad tells you this, dad is ashamed, but you understand and say, dad, come back when I grow up. Son, the more sensible you are, the happier dad feels and the more sorry he feels for you. Son, you know, you are twelve years old, and we haven't been together for half a year!
Dad wants to give you all the good feelings in the world and all the good wishes in the world. My child, my father wishes you a happy and healthy growth and become a person who contributes to society.
Baby, daddy loves you!
Dear baby, dad's lovely son, I really want to hug you again. I like that you snuggle up in dad's arms, playfully hug our necks, and secretly kiss when I'm not looking! I like sitting next to you when you are asleep and watching your lovely appearance! & shy;
I really don't know how to write this diary for you. Now you are still young, but I believe this diary will be kept for you until you grow up! Waiting for you to see! & shy;
You lost so much when you were very young. Whenever you see other children cuddling in their mother's arms and coquetry, you always hug my neck with expectant eyes. The unspeakable pain is entangled in my heart. Sorry, sorry! & shy;
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You are very sensible and strong since you were a child! You like listening to dad telling fairy tales, singing and reading cartoons! Many times you touched me and made me feel distressed! I remember you were only five years old, and your mother had just left during that time. I was in a bad mood and depressed! Occasionally, I will accidentally lose my temper with you and even let you see my tears. You touched my eyes with your tender little hand and whispered to me: Dad won't cry, I will accompany you! Then get into my arms and hold me! ! ! Then you came home from school and gave me the eggs you didn't want to eat at school! ! & shy;
Many, many things that moved me have been in my heart! & shy;
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I came to see your favorite aunt this time. What you said before I left was always in my heart. Dad, tell Aunt Doudou to wait for her to come back for a hug! What a simple and warm wish. When I turned around again, I saw your expectant eyes filled with tears, but you still smiled, laughing silly! At that time, I thought, maybe one day, your aunt will help you wipe your tears and tell you not to cry. You will be the happiest boy! ! & shy;
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It's just that reality is cruel and human feelings are indifferent. I will break up with your aunt soon. This can't be pregnant with her. In fact, I know that no one is wrong. Reality has drawn a line between us. When you grow up, there are some things you should understand. Don't resent her. Dad knows she loves you! ! & shy;
During this time, I fell ill for psychological and physical reasons, and the situation has not improved. The situation is very bad. I didn't tell your grandparents for fear that they would be worried. Now I seem desperate and can't hold on! In this state, perhaps death is only a matter of time! After dad left, I believe your grandparents and your second dad will take good care of you and watch you grow up! Remember: don't hate anyone. Dad is a _. If you can, I hope you can continue to follow the path left by your father, be a Christ _ to learn and spread the gospel of the Lord, and love and expect it all your life! This is my greatest wish! Also, you should honor your grandparents. Dad has made them suffer a lot for me in my life, and I am very sorry for them! Got it! & shy;
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Today, I specially took some photos and put them in my diary, in order to let you know more about my father. I'm leaving. I can't take care of you anymore. You should be strong, be a caring and just person, don't have a hard time with the world, pray for me in front of the Lord when you miss your father, and don't cry when you miss me. I don't like crying peas! & shy;
I want to hold you, carry you and kiss you for the last time! ! ! ! & shy;
Doudou, daddy loves you! I remember you once said: Dad, when you grow up, Doudou will carry you and go where you want to go! ! It's a pity that dad can't wait for that day! & shy;