The following is an excerpt from a chapter in Zhou Bingqian's autobiography-Zhou Bingqian really misses you-I really miss you. (among them, Okasan and Otosan stand for mom and dad respectively in Japanese. Here, Bing Qian's so-called Okawa and Yinsan are an old couple who took care of her when she first went to Japan, and she lived in their home. )
When Okazo took me shopping, her acquaintances asked me who I was. She always tells people that I am her daughter, grew up abroad and just returned to Japan. Otosan and Okasan are really good to me. They regard me as their own daughter.
Japanese families are used to taking a bath first and then soaking in a big, deep hot bucket. The family only uses the same bucket of water every day. Otosan is a man. Naturally, he washes first, and then Okasan washes. When I first came here, I couldn't accept the way that several people washed with a bucket of water, and I never had the habit of soaking in a bucket, so I took a bath directly. After a few days, my curiosity came up again. I wanted to try the feeling of soaking in a hot bucket, but I didn't want to use the water washed by others. I want Otosan and Okasan to let me wash first. I tried it once and it was really comfortable. From then on, I got the priority of taking a bath.
Otosan likes watching sports programs very much, but since I lived in their house, the choice of TV channels has been under my control. When I first arrived in Japan, I studied in Japanese school during the day and always sat in front of the TV at night, hoping to understand better every day. Every time I see a Japanese singer appearing in a program or winning an award, I am always envious. I hate that I can't pass the language barrier immediately, so I can sing and surpass those award-winning Japanese newcomers. This is a very diligent and boring day.
Otosan and Okasan are monkeys, only one round older than my parents. Although they are very kind to me, there is a difference between kindness and affection. Being in a foreign country, I feel lonely.
There is a beautiful river near the home of Otto Mountain, which flows with deep homesickness and yearning in my heart, leaving a deep impression on me. At first, we often went for a walk by the river, but gradually I asked for a walk alone. Otosan was not at ease at first. In an emergency, he asked me to take a thick stick to defend myself. I said nothing, so he had to follow me quietly with a stick. After several visits, nothing happened, and he was finally relieved.
Many nights, I faced the traffic and lights in Tokyo, and a string of faint lingering feelings grew in my heart: Tokyo, a bustling city, will record my struggles and efforts, my laughter and tears, and it will be a city that I will never forget. However, under the night, what does Tokyo's joys and sorrows have to do with me, a stranger in a foreign land? What are you doing at this moment under the starry sky of my classmates, my parents, my teachers, classmates and many fans and friends who raised me? Are you safe? Are you happy? Do you miss me? I can't sleep because of lingering thoughts. I read letters from afar over and over again, and looked at the smiling faces of relatives and friends in the photos over and over again, warm and melancholy. There is a song I sang in the tape recorder. I touched many fans, but now it makes me cry. There is a word buried in my heart that I want to say to you, but it is too heavy to say.
When I first arrived in Japan, I was a signing singer of Guangzhou White Swan Company, and Yang Xiangyue and Hanyin Li, dictionary writers in Guangzhou, kept in touch with me by telephone. They understand my feelings of "being in Cao Cao and being in Han". When the soundtrack of "I really miss you" was faxed to me, I felt that this piece completely expressed the idea that I wanted to vomit.
I really miss you,
I call night dawn,
The colorful clouds chasing the moon know my heart,
Send me warmth silently.
Qianshan, how to block thousands of waters?
My love for you,
It floats gently under the moon,
My love.
199 1 year1October 19, just arrived in Japan for 4 months, and returned to Shanghai for the first time. When the plane's pulley landed on the wide runway of Hongqiao Airport, my heart couldn't help pounding. Mom and dad must be as anxious as I am, waiting at the airport exit.
Also coming to Shanghai are fat Takeda and a couple of folk teachers. Teacher Fayao is a well-educated Japanese woman. When I first met her, Takeda introduced her as Mr ... Out of respect, I called her "Mr". Mr. Wang likes to play Japanese Sanxian, so I call her a folk teacher. But when it comes to China's instrumental music, even the folk teacher admires me.
When Mr. Wang heard that I was going back to Shanghai, he decided to go with my husband, because they always had a yearning for Shanghai. Along the way, Takeda was an old horse, and the couple were very excited, and no one said anything.
When I met my family, I was both excited and happy. Unfortunately, with the guests present, I can't feel the joy of getting together calmly. I had to introduce the guests to my family, and my family came to the airport to welcome them warmly and politely. On the way from the airport to the city center, I kept introducing, answering and translating in Chinese and Japanese, and my father, mother, grandfather and grandmother were surprised and happy. They didn't expect that I have only been in Japan for more than four months and I speak Japanese quite fluently. In their minds, I have become a language genius.
That night, I invited my teacher and Jenny to have a reunion dinner. I haven't seen my relatives and teachers for so long, so naturally there are endless words and questions, and I have to keep translating. I am thirsty and excited. I always drink water. If I drink too much, I will naturally go to the bathroom. When I returned to the dinner party, I found a table full of silence. As soon as I sat down, both China and Japan told me that when you left, we were all dumb. After my translation, everyone at the table laughed again. My mother often laughs at my father's language talent. Mom said: "Your father always thought that your language talent was inherited from him, so he also signed up for a Japanese class, but after paying the tuition for one year, he only learned a TOYILAI (toilet).
The next day, my mother accompanied me to Guangzhou to record, but my throat was inflamed. After taking a hormone, I walked into the recording studio.
This is my first album since I went abroad. At that time, I didn't have a chance to perform and record in Japan. As soon as I stepped into the recording studio, I felt as if I had found the feeling of a long-lost singer and lost myself in singing. Especially when recording two original songs "I really miss you" and "I can't leave my mother's tenderness", my whole body and mind were filled with unspeakable affection and tenderness, and my singing style changed unconsciously.
When she finished recording "I really miss you" and walked out of the studio, Hanyin Li's eyes were still faintly shining with tears. She said that I sang with great emotion, and so far no song has touched her heart so deeply. Later, I learned that Hanyin Li's songs were written for her daughter. For her, it was a mother's yearning for her daughter. For me, it is my daughter's yearning for her mother and the wanderer's yearning for the motherland. This work injects our own truest, deepest and deepest feelings.
After I finished recording in a day and a half, White Swan arranged for me to make a music video. As I am not in China, the company decided to shoot more songs for future publicity, but "I really miss you" was not arranged in the shooting plan, which is a pity, resulting in the lack of authentic original singing of this song in various versions of karaoke discs for many years.
As soon as I finish my work, I will go back to Shanghai and fly back to Tokyo in a day or two. Yang Xiangyue once again said, "It's a pity that Bing Qian went to Japan to develop." However, I know in my heart that no one can convince me that I will do what I want. A star from China and Shanghai will rise in the Tokyo music scene sooner or later. At that time, I will go home again with that deep yearning and meet you again. At this moment, all I can leave is my deep blessing.