I finally found my confidence
To this day, I still remember the scene of that day deeply: everyone had malicious smiles on their faces and burst into laughter. , harsh and sharp. All of this, like a heavy punch, shattered my self-esteem and confidence.
That time I was going to recite poetry at the class party. I was well prepared, I remembered it well, and I was full of confidence - but unexpected circumstances completely disrupted my performance. I lost my position - I forgot the words! The sentences that were already familiar to me seemed to have been wiped clean in my mind, leaving no trace at all. I was sweating profusely, and when I really wanted to explain, I suddenly found that the tone of my pronunciation suddenly changed due to nervousness, so——
The flood of laughter rushed over me and overwhelmed me. Lifted the roof. Everyone laughed so exaggeratedly, it was so exaggerated that it was chilling. I was like a clown, standing on the podium in a daze, with no one to comfort me and no one to praise me out of courtesy.
In this loneliness, I feel the desolation of being despised by others.
It has been so long, and now I also think: "Forgive them, after all, they are children without any intention." Even so, I still can't forget their laughter. Maybe only after you let go of your burden can you go further.
Four years later, the second-grade child who was so anxious that he almost cried, started to study in sixth grade. At the graduation party, she stood up again, faced fifty-nine pairs of eyes again, and recited poetry again - as if she had returned to four years ago.
The memories slowly overwhelmed me. The sharp laughter sounded yesterday and seemed to ring the next moment. Looking at those eyes through that layer of memories, the smile seems to be overflowing, but I have no way out.
Taking a deep breath, I started talking again.
Those words are still so familiar, but they gave me the most unbearable memory. Everything seemed to be a repeat of four years ago, and I forgot the words again.
This time they were calm, but I wanted to laugh. Nature plays tricks on people. Since everything is a delusion, why give me a specious hope?
They were so calm and did not smile. They all stared at me, with no contempt in their eyes, but only slight encouragement.
In the flash of lightning, the memory is like a lost child. After experiencing many waves of torture, it returns to my mind running and laughing——
I remembered !
I was dejected just now, as if I had received a divine decree, and I recited the remaining words word for word. The classmates all smiled with relief. Amidst the thunderous applause, I felt that what had been imprisoning me for four years was now being released and thrown out the window, dissipating into the sky like a wisp of smoke. It disappeared so completely, it was like it had never existed.