Every relationship has its own way of maintaining it.
I can also tell you a story about me. My classmate and her boyfriend quarreled every time they talked on the phone, and they burst into tears every time. Every time I say I want to break up. But recently, they are about to get married. You may not understand, but some people are like this. They always have to make noises and make each other cry, so that the relationship can continue on the road of love. If they stop arguing one day, that will be the end of their relationship.
There is a saying that goes well: If you like someone, you are happy together; if you love someone, you will be together even if you are unhappy.
You yourself are suspicious by nature, and you know where your fault lies, but you don’t try your best to correct it. Instead, you say that others cannot understand your kindness. You said you like graceful poetry and classical music, so I would like to ask you, have you ever used these things to cultivate your temperament and make yourself less impulsive and irritable.
In fact, sometimes women don’t like their men to be jealous of them, because it means that the man still cares about her and cares about her. But don’t do this too much. As a man, you should be more tolerant.
Also, I particularly disagree with your views on relationships. You said that you hate betrayers and hurters, which is particularly inappropriate when it comes to relationships. For you to have come to this point of quarreling now, I think you also loved each other before. If one day you are separated, can you say who hurt whom, who betrayed whom? You have all contributed to this relationship before, and it can be said that no one owes the other. Even if the woman leaves you, it is because your personalities are not compatible and the relationship is not maintained well. It cannot be said to be betrayal. You can't be so selfish, only seeing your own emotional contribution and ignoring the other person's feelings.
It is useless to think so far. A tragic life should not lead to a tragic character. Many celebrities had tragedies in their childhood, but in the end they still succeeded. You should not continue to blame others like this. Think about you now, start by trusting someone, otherwise you don't want to fall in love. Don't even compare yourself with Xu Changqing. Without mutual trust, how could their love go through so many reincarnations. When watching TV series, don’t take it at face value.