Talk: Dark Dusk Finishing: Summer Mo
Love needs a certain space and distance to produce hazy beauty, so that feelings can be constantly renewed and kept fresh. The two years after Cece and I got married, I gradually felt that I was a little overwhelmed by our marriage.
we have problems in this relationship, starting about one year after we got married. In the year after I got married, I didn't find any hobbies or shortcomings that I couldn't bear. She is gentle and talented, and she loves to write poetry and sing. Always looking young and lively makes me feel happy and happy.
sometimes she clings to people like a cat, and sometimes she is alone like a plant. She is so changeable that I always can't figure out what's on her mind. Fortunately, her personality is optimistic. I like to drag me out for a walk and climb mountains when I have nothing to do. My spare time is very colorful. Perhaps it is by maintaining this mentality that our relationship has been so stable. In the eyes of outsiders, we are still an enviable couple.
After a year's peaceful life, I suddenly found a phenomenon. Cece often gets up in the middle of the night to write. It's bad for a woman to stay up late. I also asked her what she was writing with great concern, so I'd better go to bed early. She calmly turned around and said that she didn't write anything, but she couldn't sleep, so she came online. I advised her to go to bed early, it's late, don't stay up late. She said that she would go to bed at once. I'm usually tired of running business at work, so I turned over and fell asleep, without asking any more questions.
I don't know exactly when she went to bed. She usually has nothing to do at home and likes to sleep during the day. It's normal to stay awake at night, and I'm not suspicious. However, one night, I had diarrhea, and when I got up, I found that Cece, who was wearing headphones, seemed to be writing something. I stood behind her and watched it for a long time before I suddenly realized that she seemed to be writing a scene that I was particularly familiar with. She suddenly turned around, turned off the computer in a panic and asked me how I got up.
I said that my stomach was upset, and then I went into the bathroom. I've been thinking about what Cece is writing. I was so sleepy at night that I fell asleep thinking about it. Finally, one day, Cece will go back to her parents' home for a few days. When I am bored at night, I will surf the Internet and watch movies. It suddenly occurred to me that she used to love writing, so I thought about it and opened the folder she created. There are many articles written by her in it. When I clicked on a document with a strange name, I was immediately surprised. I know Cece still writes articles, but I didn't expect that one day she would use a pen to describe the process and details of my intimacy with her. It makes me uncomfortable all over.
I don't know how to tell her what I think. I don't like her writing these things. How embarrassing it is for these things to be seen. After she came back, I pretended not to have read her diary. After thinking hard for more than a week, when we went out shopping one day, I suddenly told her about the shortcomings that some couples around me couldn't stand together.
I deliberately made up a story about my former colleague. I said that there used to be a colleague's wife who loved writing novels and often wrote about their sex life, which made her husband embarrassed. Sure enough, my girlfriend casually asked again, what about you, if I also write? I smiled. You are so kind, how could you do that? If you really wrote it and let me know, it would be as embarrassing as him. She smiled and said she was thirsty, and changed the subject. Since then, I seldom see Cece getting up in the middle of the night and tapping on the keyboard.
when I used her computer once, I was relieved to find that all the diaries were gone. Perhaps, between people, there will be a lot of puzzles. When we want to untie our own knots, in fact, "making up stories" is also a good way. It won't hurt feelings, but also leave a step for each other. Why not?