I met Big X in a university club. Big x is nearly one meter eight, and he is slightly fat. Black hat tightly buckled on his head, wearing a baggy T-shirt, sitting in the chair in the corner of the conference room, the whole person was lazy and lifeless.
I became acquainted with Big X because we met frequently later.
until one day, I saw the conversation box of big X jump.
big x: what do you think of homosexuality?
I stared at this line for a long time, and before I could reply, the big X over there continued:
"Actually, I'm gay."
"I like a person, and he is a boy, it's as simple as that."
"I've been secretly in love. Later, I confessed to him. I remember that the sunshine was particularly dazzling that day. He told me that he felt that homosexuality was disgusting and that I was disgusting. "
I'm at the end of the screen, and I can't type anything comforting, only silence.
2
Is homosexuality really disgusting?
I took great courage when I lifted the pen, because I also know that this topic is too heavy.
"Homosexuality" was once named as the academic definition of sexual psychological disorder in university textbooks.
Even for a long time, when homosexuality is mentioned, most people's reactions are: "Isn't that a mental disorder disease?" "Two people of the same sex? It's disgusting to think about it. "
In early England, there was an important person who won the Normandy landing. He enjoyed a high reputation when he was young, but he was persecuted by the British government because of his sexual orientation as a man. Finally, he could not bear the humiliation and committed suicide.
I can't even imagine that homosexuals from ordinary backgrounds who should have walked down the street hand in hand with their lovers are regarded as street rats.
Even in the street, Nuo Nuo is the only eye contact. Even later, in order to avoid suspicion, we can only hold each other's hands in places where we can't see the light, hold our lovers in our arms and kiss them gently as if they were treasures.
There are many gay people because of the opposition and ridicule of people around them. Finally, he was cornered, jumped into the air like a free bird, and wiped off his existence in a dirty and muddy world.
it is not homosexuals who are wrong, but people who cannot tolerate and understand.
3
Is it really what we call "right" that two souls who are attracted to each other try to embrace each other to keep warm in this indifferent world, but they are firmly imprisoned by secular eyes in a cage where they never see the sun all day?
Oscar Wilde, a British writer, was once a homosexual. His partner translated Salome for him. It was supposed to be a jealous couple, but his partner's father beat Yuanyang and accused him of "immoral behavior with other men", and he was convicted and went to prison.
Then Wilde was down and out. Poems related to aestheticism are hard to find in his works.
even his partner is mentally tortured by social criticism and criticism.
Those homosexuals who fight against their loved ones are faced with people who are extremely familiar but become strangers at this time, which makes them feel chilling.
But there is no one behind them, and the only warmth comes from the fingertips of their lovers.
and for this warmth, they will be desperate.
do we have to push each other to the point of irretrievability?
it is often not the last grass that kills the camel, but the accumulation of the previous bit by bit.
4
Although I am not one of many homosexuals, the big X and others around me are all patients with "psychological disorder" in the eyes of others.
I witnessed with my own eyes that their lives were handcuffed with shackles, so that their ankles were worn to expose dense bones, and their heads were broken in their struggle to escape.
even when they looked up and tried to look out into the distant light, the spitting stars of the world could drown them out.
obviously, they can also quarrel and coquetry like ordinary heterosexual couples, laugh wantonly in each other's arms, and make love on the bed where they are pillow to welcome the arrival of every day.
? "Why should I be treated like this? I just like people of the same sex, but I am thought to be as disgusting as a mouse shit? "
I often think back to the night when Big X said this to me. He is a big man of 1.8 meters, walking and kneeling on the playground of our school, sobbing.
The moonlight pulled his shadow far away. With the faint light, I saw his head pressed against the wet ground and his back trembled uncontrollably.
Big X asked me, "Am I particularly bad?"
He looked up in confusion. I saw the veins stood out on his hands and his chin was covered with blue stubble. He just sat there, as helpless as a child left behind by the whole world. His voice shook badly and his tears kept falling.
in the cold wind, I blew my breath at my stiff palms.
"You're right, but you're wrong about people who are biased when they don't understand things."
? "It's just that two people of the same sex but different souls are attracted to each other. What's wrong?"
5
When the audience was moved by the immortal love between Huang Yuxuan and Li Ziwei in the popular Taiwanese drama "I Want to See You", people seemed to forget that the gay Wang Quansheng.
In Taiwan Province's version, there is an accident called "Blue First Love", in which the protagonist is Wang Quansheng. In that story, Wang Quansheng, as a boy, fell in love with another boy, A Zhe, who failed in confession and was laughed at and beaten by his classmates. He felt out of place in the world and chose to jump into the sea to commit suicide.
This clip, however, was deleted in the mainland edition, which is enough to prove that the gay community is a shameful thing in the eyes of many people.
When Wang Quansheng jumped into the embrace of the deep sea, he left the last sentence of the world: "I hope that one day, the world will be different, and I won't be surprised who I like."
Homosexuality is not a psychological obstacle. You can not love it, but don't hurt it. Every homosexual who fights against the secular world is a hero with a cavity of loneliness and courage.
I don't advocate or discriminate, I just hope that dear homosexuals have the right to be loved and loved.