However, ruthless years and cruel reality have made my life experience a storm.
That night, a nightmare night ... "Let's separate, I have no feelings for you" you said calmly. I heard what you said clearly, but I feel that I was just dreaming. I don't believe my ears. This sentence must not be what you said. "Are you kidding?" I asked with a forced smile. "No, I really have no feelings for you," you repeated quietly. My eyes went black, and my mind went blank. I felt my heart left my chest, fell into my abdominal cavity, and hovered around my heart in one breath … impossible, really impossible. I told myself countless times that this was not true. We have been together for so many years, don't we have any feelings? But the truth is I have to face it.
Finally, I learned that you fell in love with another woman, and you chose to abandon me and my children for another woman.
Even so, I haven't given up on you. I'm thinking of the road we've taken before. Although it was bumpy all the way, it was more laughter. I want to give my children a complete home, and I don't want them to live in a complicated family environment.
I try my best to pick up the memories scattered in every corner in recent years and put them in my heart as short messages, hoping to wake up your dying heart, hoping that every sentence will make you feel a little sad, and praying that this sentence will make you shoulder the responsibility of your father.
In the end, I ended in failure. Although my heart is full of sadness, heartache and helplessness, I still can't get into your heart. In the face of such an ending, I can't calm myself down. This is not the result I want. Since we are holding hands, why should we let go? Every night, I open my eyes and sleep with tears in my eyes. Every corner can touch the nerves of my whole body. Pain can't explain my heart. What should I do in the future? What can I do to support me? ...
I still remember that night, people had completely collapsed and stood on the balcony, wanting to scream, howl and scream. However, there are children and parents outside, and I dare not make any noise. Even the sound of crying should be suppressed to a low decibel. I stepped out of the window with one foot and wanted to leave quietly. After all, life will die and I want to get rid of it. From then on, there will be no more thoughts, troubles and sadness ... When I want to jump off my body, I have a picture of a child in my mind. What should I do if I leave my child? Only my parents and children hurt me. Forget it, curl up in the quilt and let the tears pour unscrupulously.
I don't want to live a luxurious life, I just want to walk to the end of the world with each other's indifference and love. I don't need designer clothes, I want to live a luxurious life. As long as the family is healthy and safe, it is nothing to be poor and tired. As long as I want a trustworthy person when I am tired. But my dullness, my thrift, my efforts ... finally brought tears and scars.