"The Past"
The encounter and acquaintance with him was just an ordinary past, passing by in a hurry. He came and left so quickly that I didn't even have time to remember his appearance. And what he left me was just a string of broken memories that couldn’t be pieced together.
I will always remember that summer, the sunshine that day...
During the summer vacation of fifth grade, I suddenly had a whim and wanted to sign up for a taekwondo class. According to my personality, this is an ordinary idea, but a year later, I really regretted that sudden idea, and even resented my own recklessness.
On the first day I went to learn Taekwondo, I wore a very simple white sportswear. When I took the first step into the door, it was a mistake. Like me, a student who also likes sports and fitness, there were many students of the same age who went to learn Taekwondo that day, most of them were boys, but only one boy caught my eye. I still don’t know what attracted me to him at that time. Maybe it was his childish but handsome face; maybe it was the coolness that his tall and thin back brought to people; Maybe it's that bohemian and charming smile. In short, I remembered a name that day: Tian.
We gradually became familiar with each other every day. We met every day and looked forward to meeting each other. I don’t know since when, we have a tacit understanding between each other. During class, we will first look for each other, and then secretly chat and tell jokes together when the coach is not paying attention; when school is over at noon, we will always search for each other. figure, and then quietly waited at the door for him to change clothes and come out, and then walked home side by side.
The summer vacation passed quickly... Before we knew it, this was our last class. That means it's time for us to separate. We were silent all morning, not knowing what to say or how to say goodbye. When get out of class was over, we looked at each other and smiled, and for the first time, we each set foot on our way home. I walked silently on the road, feeling an inexplicable loss in my heart. Tears flowed down unknowingly, and they were salty. The breeze blew across my face, and it was the first time that I felt so bad. Suddenly, the familiar footsteps seemed to be approaching me. I turned around and it was him. He ran up to me out of breath, raised his handsome smile again, and just said lightly: "I haven't said goodbye to you yet."
"Then this is why you are chasing me. "?" I turned my head in disappointment, not letting him see the tears in my eyes.
"No..." His tone seemed anxious, but he stopped.
"What is that?"
"...I really want to say goodbye to you..."
"Just for this?"
"Well... we will meet again in the future, we will definitely."
"Really?"
I didn't understand the hidden meaning of his words. I suddenly realized it when school started three days later, because before class that day, the teacher introduced a new classmate who had just transferred from another school. His name was Tian.
He looked at my shocked "O"-shaped mouth and smiled. There is no doubt that, with his charming smile and his bohemian chill, from the day he came to our school, he became the school boy and the "prince" worshiped by the girls in the whole grade. And from the day he took the initiative to ask the teacher to be my deskmate, I became the object of jealousy among the girls in the whole grade.
We are still the same as before, chatting all over the world together, laughing carefree together, chasing and playing crazy together. In the eyes of the whole class, he and I are a perfect match. As a result, they began to spread rumors without restraint. He and I soon became famous in the school. I also began to have a strange feeling in my heart. Seeing him smile makes me happy, but seeing him unhappy makes me not in the mood either. In my free time, I would stare at the sky alone in a daze, thinking about his smiling face. When I am lonely, I will think of him first and want to have his company by my side. It was the ignorant period of adolescence, and I regarded that feeling as love.
I once thought that we would always be happy. However, reality cannot allow two people like us to have no trouble at all. An exam is like a heavy rain that wakes me up completely. Both his and I's originally excellent grades fell to the bottom. I began to realize the seriousness of the matter, but he still looked disapproving. He said that he didn't care about the grades. But I care. I can't be indifferent to my parents' disappointment and blame. I can't be indifferent to the teacher's warnings and criticisms. I've begun to understand that we are not the same kind of people. We are different. He can let go of everything, but I can't. .
In the midst of pain and struggle, I personally cleared that period of perhaps my happiest time from my mind, and threw my heart and all my feelings for him into the heavy rain. I ran wildly in the rain, tears streaming down my face. I was soaked alone, crying alone, hysterical. Throw away everything, I can only do this, and I must do this.
I asked the teacher to change positions, but we are still in the same class and have to meet every day.
He didn't reflect on anything, didn't change anything, and still wanted to fight with me every day like before. I was cold to him, very cold, but when faced with his smile, I couldn't control my heart. I was afraid, I'm really afraid that one day the memory that I haven't completely forgotten will come back to my mind.
So, I gave up completely, completely letting him disappear from the world, and letting myself completely disappear from his world. I chose to transfer schools. A new school, new faces, I have a strange fear, but I don't regret it, I know that I did the right thing. However, my heart seems to be very empty and empty...
After half a year, I have experienced a lot of things. I think I have grown up a bit.
Take everything lightly, it’s actually nothing. It was just a miscalculated fate, and it just passed by in a hurry. Time has taken away all the memories and images of him in my heart... My heart has returned to peace, and it will be even calmer than before I experienced this past.