Yu Xiuhua's parents are farmers and have little education. "My mother was good and my father was weak," Yu Xiuhua later recalled. "My mother didn't treat me like a human being, and my father didn't dare to say much, because my mother didn't treat him like a human being." It is true that these after-the-fact consciousness and awakening are the penetration and thinking of Yu Xiuhua when he is mature. However, in her childhood and adolescence, she hardly got any maternal love and fatherly love. "My father may love me, but he never dares to show it. Because he was weak, he was the first to save himself. "
198 1 year, five-year-old Yu Xiuhua's cerebral palsy has not been relieved at all, but has added a heavy burden-autism tendency. Yu Xiuhua later recalled: "I remember all I knew was facing the wall. I'm afraid to meet anyone, especially my mother. I feel safe only when I am alone in a completely closed space. " Yu Xiuhua's symptoms are the early symptoms of autistic children. There is a high positive correlation between cerebral palsy and autism.
When Yu Xiuhua was about ten years old, autism didn't get worse, but eased to some extent. "At that time, I could read some books or write by myself. The first book I read was The Journey to the West. My aunt secretly gave it to me behind my mother's back. I hid the book under the bed. This book has had a revolutionary impact on my life. From then on, I found an emotional outlet and found something I like. I read this book again and again, and finally my mother burned it. She can't see me. She thinks that I am her bane, which has dragged down her life and everything, so she has always hated me and has not forgiven me until today. "
I have to say, like Yu Xiuhua's experience, she was born with cerebral palsy. With autism, the most important mother in her life hates her guts. It is a miracle that her incompetent and cowardly father loves her or not. I'm not sure she's not driven crazy in this environment. However, Yu Xiuhua finally found the straw to save his life: reading and knowledge. And poured all her hopes and enthusiasm into books and knowledge.
"My first book of poetry was published on 20 15 (The Moon Falls on the Left Hand), but I actually started writing poetry at the age of 13. My road to poetry originated from an accidental opportunity. The year when Haizi committed suicide, it resounded throughout the country. I didn't know him before, but when I found out, I read his works. He is almost all modern poetry. I was deeply moved. I couldn't help but pick up the pen and start writing, so I wrote it today. " Up to now, Yu Xiuhua has published 5 poems with more than 2,000 poems, and won the Hubei Literature Prize. It can be said that he is an accomplished poet.
However, Yu Xiuhua's poems have one characteristic, that is, they are full of rebellious spirit, and many styles and contents of his poems do not follow the routine. Before being elected as the vice chairman of Zhongxiang Writers Association, her maverick style could not be recognized by "orthodox" insiders and experts. At that time, some experts hated her works very much, saying that she was a "chaotic and poisonous weed" in Zhongxiang's cultural circles. However, for such criticism, Yu Xiuhua's heart must be unable to withstand any waves. After "inhuman" childhood and adolescence, she was not defeated. What else can beat her?
Regarding the characteristics of her poems, Yu Xiuhua once expressed her opinion: "My rebellious poems are inseparable from my growing experience and personality. Mom's love is completely absent, and neither is dad's love. So in my decades of life, I gradually formed a kind of unyielding, unyielding and rebellious character. This character has advantages and disadvantages, but my rebellion is extreme. I do a lot of things and don't care much about other people's opinions. In this role, I also internalized a lot of dissatisfaction with my family. I tried to change, but it was too difficult. Finally, I gave up and decided to release these things. "
Because Yu Xiuhua's heart is full of too much dissatisfaction, and many emotions can never be satisfied in reality, her ideological world is very lively. "I have achieved a lot in my mind because I can't satisfy it in reality." It is also for this reason that Yu Xiuhua's works are numerous and of high quality, and eventually experts in Zhongxiang City have to make way for her. She is now the vice chairman of Zhongxiang Writers Association.